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7. age you get mistaken for

8. has tattoos?

9. want tattoos?

10. has any piercings?

11. want any piercings?

14. biggest turn-on’s

15. biggest turn-off’s

16. favorite movie

21. what i hate most about myself

22. what i love most about myself

24. my relationship with my sibling(s)

25. my relationship with my parent(s)

26. my idea of a perfect date

27. my biggest pet peeve

31. what i hate most about school/work

33. what words upset me the most

34. what words make me feel the best about myself

37. where i would like to live

39. my childhood career choice

40. favorite ice cream flavor

1: 4'11.

7: 15 or younger... it's sad. if i'm not all dolled up, i look like a kid. :(

8: not yet, but i plan to for my 20th in october.

9: yes yes yes. i want my first to be asoiaf related. specifically, i want my babies drogon, rhaegal, and viserion.

10: i used to. i had 5 lip piercings that i took out due to them being inconvenient. i was constantly in the hospital, getting surgeries, imaging, etc. it was easier to just remove them.

11: i want to get my vertical labret re-pierced. it was my favorite. i still have my gold opal and pink diamond jewelry for it.

“ i don’t really like your friends, either. “ // are you the type to get possessive or jealous over those you care about? how do you deal with it?

“ shut up, heather! (sorry, heather) “ // are you a passive person?

“ what’s your damage? “ // if someone hurts you, will you ever go out of your way to get revenge them? how so?

1: yes and no. it varies from person to person, i'm not very consistent at all. i can have the same level of friendship with two people, and they both can do the same thing, but i react completely differently to each person. i can overlook one and completely lose all interest in the other. there isn't a method to it.

2: yes... i tend to freak out on my own for a moment, and then i take it out on them. i'm very much a "you hate me and want me to die" person any time i'm made to feel inferior.

3: yes and no again. i definitely prefer to quietly observe things and let situations pass. but i can also be quick to cut people off over small things ( usually things that have nothing to do with me, i just get annoyed easily ). when i love someone, i'm definitely far less passive.

⦻ Sally ⸺ How pure would you consider your love for your darling ? Do your obsessions start out innocent or more sinister ?

⦻ Nina the Killer ⸺ Do you find yourself mimicking / copying those you love in any way ? Or , if your obsession is interested in someone besides you , do you try and copy that person ?

⦻ Eyeless Jack ⸺ Would you cannibalize your darling if given the chance ? Would it be their entire body , or just specific parts ?

⦻ Ticci Toby ⸺ Are there any specific crimes you'd be willing to commit for your darling ? ( Like arson , murder , etc . ) How much guilt do you think you'd feel for doing it ?

⦻ Jeff the Killer ⸺ How much does appearance factor into your attraction towards potential darlings ? Would you change your appearance for them , or attempt to influence theirs ?

1: i always want to fix them. to me, flaws are things to be corrected. and i'd want my darling to fix my flaws as well. we should be our best selves for each other.

2: unsure..? maybe more innocent. since i tend to become attracted to people based on how much i can view them as a parental figure. #incestmaxxing i am a little girl at heart.

3: i do mimic my darling a little. mostly adopting things they say or physical mannerisms. i'd never lower myself to copying someone else to seem more appealing for my darling. i want them to love me, not the emulation of someone else.

4: yes. their entire body. i've had detailed cannibalistic fantasies for most of my life. mostly in a murder-suicide way.

5: pretty much anything based on the feasibility of me getting away with it. what's the point of doing a crime if i get caught and separated from my darling?

. ˚ ✧ Tassel — What is your biggest boundary when it comes to love?

⋆ 。➶ Satin — Is your obsession subtle or obvious to an outside observer?

. ˚ ✧ Cloak — Do you forgive easily or do you tend to hold grudges?

⋆ 。➶ Rose — What's your favorite fictional relationship?

. ˚ ✧ Majestic — Would you enjoy being famous?

⋆ 。➶ Drawbridge — Would you abandon your life as you know it for your darling?

. ˚ ✧ Ornate — Do you ever become parasocial?

⋆ 。➶ Silk — Have you ever been in a yan4yan relationship before?

. ˚ ✧ Velvet — Do you prefer to give or receive gifts?

1: no. i'd rather them be free to inevitably experience the karma of being wronged by someone they love and trust. it also depends on the severity of what was done, but for less serious offenses, i prefer to let them get hurt by someone then come to me when they realize i'm the only one who really cares.

2: don't ever ever ever say "i love you" to other people. immediate family is fine, whatever. friends and anyone else? no. it grosses me out. it's disgusting.

3: a mix of both, i think. i tend to lean more towards subtlety in the beginning, but as my obsession progresses, it definitely becomes noticeable to anyone.

4: neither. i'm not really the forgiving type as i think most people are disingenuous in their apologies. but i also rarely care enough to hold grudges. but when someone wrongs a person i love, i hate them forever. nothing they say or do can ever make up for the distress they cause my love.

5: heathcliff x catherine ( wuthering heights ). they will never be surpassed. i love my crazy abusive man.

6: eh... not necessarily. i enjoy the idea of attention, but in practice, it severely aggravates me. i'd rather be idolized by one than by many. or be admired without interacting with my admirers.

7: yes, of course. on the basis that i'm certain they could care for me the way i require. i'm best suited for the housewife lifestyle.

8: yes...? i think. i'm not entirely sure since i'm not very self-aware in that aspect.

9: no. T_T but maybe someday. the problem is i tend to attract people who express their obsession submissively. and i like dominant aggressors, which i've never been wanted by.

♡ Unknown ( Till the End ) : What lengths would you go to in order to pursue your darling ? Would you continue even if they were uncomfortable ?

♡ Black Sorrow : Do you enjoy being in love , or does it bring more pain than joy ?

♡ Wiege : How important is your darling's comfort to you ?

♡ Witch : Would you ostracize your darling from everyone else ?

♡ Scars : Would you prefer your darling to move on if you died , or would you want them to mourn you forever ?

1: a mix of both, but i do think i lean towards being the one who needs saving. i don't like to victimize myself, but i do crave to be loved by someone who is fiercely protective and caring to the point of being "smothering". i'd like to be saved from my own solitude, in a way.

2: considering i spent 5 years pursuing the same person even after being shut down numerous times, and the fact that they were in a relationship for nearly 4 of those five years ( it was complicated ), i'd say i'm not quick to give up. even when boundaries are set, i have a habit of constantly overstepping when i really want someone. in my mind, boundaries just mean they don't understand what they mean to me and i need to push harder to show them.

3: it's a mixed bag for me... i'm highly reactive. if i sense the person i love is trying to pull away from me or if they're acting differently, i do tend to lash out violently. other times, i love to love even if it's not reciprocated. love is fulfilling enough on its own.

4: it depends. i do care for my partner's comfort so long as i'm apart of it. any requests to establish boundaries with me for their comfort, i completely disregard.

5: yes and no. i do like seeing my darling interact with others to an extent. but in limited amounts & if they are too friendly with someone or vice versa, i shut it down immediately. i'm not above lying about people to make the person i love drop them.