Ok im a few shots in but hear me out......
Im sitting here lit as my 30th birthday approaches tomorrow and like three people have asked me what my plans are and i have none. I never do. I think im finally realising that my grandmothers death 19 years ago hurt me a little more than i thought. She passed away 8 days after my 11th birthday and i had a party planned that year that i wanted to just cancel but my family thought it was a good idea to take my mind off it...AND IT WAS... But idk ive just never really felt a need to celebrate around a time when i lost such a foudational piece of my family puzzle. Idk it just sucks because i want to celebrate this milestone but i downplay it so much its just another day for me. Im still going to treat myself and have a great time i just noticed it about myself....lol i self anaylize too much....
Anyway its my birthday bitchesssssssss take a shot for meeeeeeee ā¤ā¤ā¤ā¤

















