A world beneath of fictional and reality
Genre: Fanfiction, angst, fluff
Authorâs note: so this is my first time writing a fanfiction, it got me months to decide if i should write a fanfiction or not. So please expect typographical errors and misspellings.
Another note: not proof read, Iâm tired and needed to finish my works.
For those who got confused about this story, this was inspired from my on-going story that is written in wattpad (Dear crush by Modernscorpio)
Characters: BONTEN - Sanzu Haruchiyo, Kokonoi Hajime, Ran Haitani, Rindou Haitani, Akashi Takeomi, Manjiro Sano, Kakucho Hitto
I HAD TO FORGET YOU // Sanzu Haruchiyo
You were busy reading a book, a book that you love, and you admire it due to its plot and the guy you admire the most, the guy who can manipulate you, can kill you anytime, yet you love him.
The Bontenâs number 2, Sanzu Haruchiyo.
Screams filled your bedroom, as your sister walks in and rolled her eyes out.
Seeing the scenes of him makes you rad.
You fall in love with him, you love him for being him. So romantic. So fantastic.
One day you had a chance to write a story, a story that you imagine yourself with him. Like other novels, thereâs a character development right?
You made him like that, a single fanfic about a reader and him.
âThere is only a thing that mades me inspired to write a story, and it was youâ you said while typing another word again.
Years have passed and you became a famous author, readers are admiring you and other authors became so proud of you.
âIf you really exist, i wish that youâre proud of meâ you whispered by yourself. Your writer friend poked you. âhey, did you say something?â she asked. You shook your head and take a picture together with your fans.
You had this hobby and career of yours that you even forget to do your childhood hobby, to read and admire him.
You touched the old book and hug it. Words fell down from your mouth as tears flows from your eyes.
âBut Iâm not real y/nâ illusions came from your brain as you heard the voice of your love, how a love story beneath from fictional and reality hits so much.
HAPPIER // Kokonoi Hajime
Someone said money could buy happiness, some others disagree.
Being a silent girl in your family, you are creating a scene with the love of your life, a fictional character that you love from a different dimension.
âWell, you have to learn your lesson y/n, from now on, your grounded, no gadgets, no comicsâ as your mom said and get your phone and your favorite books from the library, you had nothing to do but to be silent, been in a world where you and your love of your life, Kokonoi Hajime was.
As you have nothing to do, you pick your accountancy book amd read some information on it. Helping your parents is one of your reason why you move forward, even though thereâs so many obstacles, you even try to kill yourself due to humiliation.
Starry nights filled your room, with a LED light of it, youâre smiling while being with him. Youâre family can take everything from you, but your love will fill your heart with ease, and pure romance.
You had this until you reached the final stage of being a student, college. You want to be an accountant, because of your inspiration and your parents who sacrificed everything for you.
Things can be little difficult but because of your heart beating for that dream to achieve, you did everything, you did, you pressure yourself, but never forget yourself to be in a world with Kokonoi, a world where you can find the word âpeaceâ.
âY/n, Iâm so proud of youâ your mom hugged you as she smell a single last bit of you, you have a plan to live in another country, and you have to leave them.
âThank you mom for always there for meâ you hugged her back, as you hug your fater and your younger sibling.
You close your eyes, as you open it, you saw Kokonoi, smiling at you. You achieved your dreams, while loving him from afar.
A love that you devote for him goes in a good way around, he became your inspiration to continue and lighten your path. But the sad moment is, he live in an imagination, where enjoyment was there, while you live in a reality, beautiful but harsh
Doctor of Medicine or MD â thatâs your future job, having to be a decision-making person, controlling and professional.
âHow can i really do this?â as you ask yourself while playing the baton you always use as you cosplay the man you loved in a fictional worldâ Ran Haitani.
Being dizzy every night, you always read books, do research, and stare at the sky, where the moon gives us the light where we can see our path, and stars to support us from behind.
You sleep after that. Not until you feel a shiver from your spine. You smile as you feel the beautiful yet creepy energy from it as yoy assume that it was him, hugging you from behind.
Morning, where you wake up with a book as your pillow, and a baton beside you. As you heard the notifications of your phone. You have to cosplay him.
You got out of your room and cook some breakfast. Took a bath and changed clothes after this.
Since there is no assignments for now, you accept the invitation. You dressed up and arrive to the meet-up area. You look at yourself first in the front mirror. Color burgundy and light lilac wig reflects on the mirror as you retouch yourself before you got out of the car.
âOh my god bestie!â your friend, f/n greeted you as his color burgundy and light lilac wig catches the sunâs sunshine. âyou look so pretty todayâ you praise her as she stares at you completely. âyou cosplay himâ she praises you too.
âDifferent from before, tell me, is Ran Haitani your crush?â she asked. Your eyes gone wode to her question yet you stay yourself composed.
âHeâs my world f/nâ you answered as you smiled. She saw it, the thing youâre not aware at.
âLook y/n, youâre smiling!â she exclaimed. âyou have a crush on him, no, youâre in love with him!â she yelled. The people in the crowd frown. She peace sign and the crowd go back to their own business.
You shook your head and laugh due to embarrassment.
After the party, everyone has gone in their home. You and your friend parted ways, without knowing that this would be your last time seeing her.
Ten years have passed, you become a successful doctor, you become a doctor without your best friendâs side.
You heard that news ten years ago that she died because of suicide, you asked yourself why did she do that?
Your five year friendship have been gone forever because of her mental illness.
You were busy on your paperworks not until the notification of your phone pop up.
Same character your going through, still him, the one you admire in another world, Ran Haitani.
You asked them the date, and it was on your day-off which is tomorrow. Luckily you can have a time for yourself.
You finished all of your papers right before the time strikes at nine o'clock in the evening.
Tomorrow, where the happiest yet bittersweet day you have. The time will be ten in the morning and you have four hours to prepare. You always start in your daily routine, take a bath, eat breakfast, then do whatever you want.
âAre you going to the meet-up y/n?â your mom asked as you nodded. You drove off and stop by at the cemetery, where your lovely best friend lies.
You gave her favourite lavenders as you talk about your day. âi hope youâre smiling up there while i talk about my day, i miss your laughs, now, Iâm cosplaying Ran Haitani, the man i love the most, i hope that youâre watching me like before, the time you were aliveâ you said as you walk away from the grave, leaving the lavender swung together with the waves of the wind.
You reach the meet-up point at exactly ten o'clock in the morning. Your other friends hugging you like theyâre choking you as you go into your circle of friends.
âNow, can we ask each other whoâs our world?â your other friend asks. âof course it was our boyfriends!â your friend hissed.
âYou y/n, whoâs your world? You never told ua how much you love himâ the other one said while smiling at you, you smiled and close your eyes, as you daydreaming that heâs hugging you.
âEven the world could separate us, our love isnâtâ Ran whispered into you, as you smiled.
You opened your eyes, only to see your friends staring at your weird action. You smiled at them.
âEven the world could separate us, the love we had for each other doesnât, and my world⌠It was Ran Haitaniâ you confidently said as they were shocked, but the tension between them starts to low as they understand the situationâŚ
That heâs your world beneath your own universe.
Be on my SIDE // Rindou Haitani
Being with some other men enjoys you right? As what your family said, falling in love with someone who doesnât exist gaves you a biggest impact on your life, a bad impact.
As you being with different men, every single day, youâre not a prostitute, youâre a flight attendant, your poise must needed to be fixed yet your insanity on boys are high.
âWhen will you stop yourself being a playgirl? Is this the consequences of you being rejected by those boys you like back then?â your co-worker asked you while checking all of the apparatuses in the cabin.
âPlease y/n, you have time to decide on yourself. Stop being like thatâ she added and starts to greet the passengers.
You breathed heavily, why did this happen to you? Youâre not like this when you were a kid, you were just a person who enjoys herself in her profession but now, you become a famous heartbreaker.
You shook your head and started your job. You start preparing food and beverages like always, always staying calm despite of you being scared of heights.
Itâs been hours when the plane arrives from its destination, you were assigned to open the exit door. You fixed them first before you got out of the plane.
âFinally we made it into Japanâ you said while you were holding your suitcase.
You book a hotel and stay there. You remove your uniform and took a bath. Noise from the aircon filled the room. You changed clothes into a sweatshirt one and stared at the beautiful sunset. You exhaled and suddenly⌠A message from an unknown number pop up.
âLocation is on Roppongi?â you asked yourself. You responded to the text. The text said the positive word.
You also asked the time, and when that time strikes, you have to go there, and do your routine, break a boyâs heart.
Thirty minutes before you go to the said location, you fixed yourself, from a beautiful black heels to a red silk champagne covered by a black coat. You set your hair into curly one and goes down just to wait a taxiâ of course you covered yourself first by a coat.
It tooks around fourteen minutes to go from Tokyo to Roppongi. The place was so rad, it seems energetic and the thing that makes the city famous⌠Is the Haitani brothers.
The Haitani brothers reminds you of your teenage days, on how did you fall in love to one of the Haitani brothers, the youngest one, Rindou Haitani.
As you enter in one of the extravaganza clubs, you can already smell the rad ambiance, as they give you a vodka wine. You take the drink but never drunk it because of your tolerance to alcohol.
Until the crowd became noisy than before, because of the two brothers. You found yourself walking in front and staring to Rindou.
âThey really look like celebrities hereâ you mumbled to yourself as you got shocked that Rindou is starting to approach you.
âWhat a beautiful lady you are, can i ask whatâs your name?â Rindou asked you as he smiled. His hair attracts by the lights as the time became slow. Is this the effect of love? As you asked yourself.
âL/n y/n, nice to meet you⌠â
âRindou Haitaniâ you feel butterflies in your stomach when he say his name, his voice became a music in your ears.
The night on Roponggi became so alluring like any dates of what a real couple is.
Like your tactics on breaking a boyâs heart, you ask his name, and everything about him.
You look in your watch. Itâs almost midnight. You bid your goodbye to Rindou as you wait for a taxi to go back to the hotel in Tokyo.
âWhere have you been y/n?â you surprised when your co-worker asked you. âdonât tell me you have been gone to another place to play shits againâ you lowered your head. It wasnât shit anymore. True love as what others said.
âItâs cold here, and i just got out to buy some food to eatâ you lied. âfood to eat? When the hotel can offer you food?â her voice rise up a bit, similar to a normal voice while having a conversation.
âIâm just tired of hotel foods, so i got out to buy someâ you lied and got to bed. She breathed heavily. âsleep well, exactly the time is almost midnight, weâre going to shop tomorrowâ she said and got out of your hotel room. As she got out, you smiled as you got a conversation with the one you love the most since teenage years.
The other day goes well, always and nothing changed, you also hang out with Rindou.
Youâre in a river with him, the clean river with those beautiful flowers attracts your eyesight as you guys walk and talk about each other.
âY/n, i have something to sayâ the words he say makes your heart beats faster. What if he confessed his feelings? What if he loves someone and he just used you? You gone over thinking again.
You got shocked as he hug you and kissed your lips, with a word he whispered in your ear. âbe on my side forever, i love you y/nâ he whispered as you nodded and carve a smile on your face, a smile that means youâre in love.
âI will⌠Stay on your side forever Rindouâ you reciprocate the words he said, it seems like⌠Love.
Without knowing that you only have a day left.
You fixed yourself that day, from your normal clothes into uniform. Itâs time to take a flight, back in your country.
Your back into your job, you prepare a food that your going to give on the passengers. But unlike back then that you gave a fake smile on the persons, itâs now surreal, because of him.
The plane departures from the airport. But hours later, you noticed something weird. The plane wasnât like this.
âF/n, did you noticed it?â you nervously asked your friend. âsomethings wrongâŚâ your friend nervously said.
âY/n, please tell an announcement to them! We canât die hereâ she sternly said and you have nothing to do but to do it. In order to save all of the passengers lives, you have to tell an announcement.
You repeated the announcement over and over again. Your workers are on the way to tell the pilot and your friend too.
You heard a loud crash, and suddenly⌠The plane crash into the mountain, no one survivedâŚ
Until you woke up in a white room, just white.
âWhere am i?â you asked. You saw your family⌠And your friend beside you.
âYouâre awake from a two months comaâ your mother happily said. You shook your head, coma? You just died on a plane crash, and you just woke up here.
âTwo months? F/n, weâre in a plane crash right? H-howâs the passengers?â you asked her, she gave you a skeptical face.
âHa? Passengers? Are you crazy? We have a project that needed to be submitted tomorrow?â she said. You canât catch up on the situation right now.
You stand up. âwhere are you going y/n?â your father asked you. You donât want to believe that it was just a dream.
âWhat? Roponggi? Are you crazy? Weâre not in Japanâ your father hisses as he pull you from the corridor. âyou little kidâ he whispered afterwards.
âDad! I had to meet Rindouââ
âWhoâs Rindou? Is he responsible for the car crash you had two months ago?â your fatherâs eyes gone bigger.
You canât mutter a single word until you realized thatâŚ
Two months since you had your coma, the day where you meet Rindou in Roponggi, was just a dream. Everything was a dream, none of them were real.
You had to accept the truth, heâs a fictional character.
You came from a rich family, having a circle of friends, claims every single award and trophies, living in a rich life with a strict parents, you are an only child so they give the things you want.
But things changed when the city you lived in is under community quarantine. You canât go to mall or do something.
You have nothing to do but to expose yourself in social media, until numerous of anime pops up in your Facebook news feed.
Since you had your boredom, you read the comment section on where to watch the said anime.
âYouTube? Itâs not on Netflix, cheap website to watch but itâs okayâ you said and start playing it. The curiosity left on you starts to burst out on your whole system.
The scenes and thrill makes you experience sleepless nights, you always smile when you see your first crush on a screen, Manjiro Sano.
Months passed and you finally finished the anime. Still, curiosity fills your system. You chat your friends that watch that anime if they have the manga. You are also forbidden to use your money for months.
âYouâre not going to to spend your money y/n?â as your friend asked you. You shook your head and saying about the forbidden rule in money. âwhat a super strict parents you have, theyâre controlling you, you have hundreds of thousands right? Use them to buy all volumes in a manga youâre going to buyâ she added.
You ended up the call, leaving you to decide if your going to spend a thousand for a manga book you want, or follow the rules your parents give to you.
It only left you one choice, to waist a single thousand just for a book. A book that fills your curiosity up.
It tooks days to arrive the order you bought from an online store. Thank god that it was your trustworthy maid who got the order from the delivery man.
Itâs been covered in a box, since you had a YouTube channel, you did an unboxing vlog where you had to unbox and rate each book covers and how did they deliver this to you.
Your parents doesnât even subscribe to you so itâs no worries. You can do a vlog without hassle.
You uploaded the video that night after you put all those manga books in a shelf. It looks perfect with your other books there, featuring some figurines of a random anime characters.
âLady Y/n, dinner is readyâ youâre fixing the bookshelf when the maid called you. You left the shelf arranged and clean now as you got out of the room.
You come down from upstairs, only to saw a dining table, with a single plate, utensils, and napkins on the table. There is a rice and two dishes on the plats, and fruits for dessert.
You started eating while reading the first chapters of the manga. The thrill was so enjoying that you didnât finished the food in one hour compared back then.
Luckily, you finally overcome your curiosity by eating and leaving the fantasy that the mind created.
Classes have started, you didnât finished the manga due to preparation, you got aesthetic finds to put on your study table.
A voice from a teacher stress your brain as you type a few important things in your notebook, sheâs too fast at explaining but you canât even understand the lesson except 'open your camera, let me see your beautiful facesâ
âHay, another subject, another shit again, my eyes are not strained, fuck itâ you whispered to yourself as you massage your temple after a math session.
You read a few volumes of a book and now you got interested into a guy that has a long scar running vertically on his face, a Brahmanâs second in command, Akashi Takeomi. His first appearance got your attention that you even smiled for an unknown reason.
Your parents got back in a business trip and they got a notification from the school.
They go to your bedroom, only to find out that youâre reading a math book without knowing that youâre reading a manga.
âY/n, the school notifies us that youâre going to a quiz bee in another schoolâ your mom said. âif youâre overthinking again, itâs virtualâ your mom continued.
âWhat subject?â you asked her. âScienceâ she answered.
She said that you have a month to prepare. The teacher from your class also said the same announcement to you.
You set your schedule, morning to afternoon youâre going to prepare yourself for practices and class. And when it reaches nighttime, youâre going to read a book you like reading the he most aside from science and your school books.
Youâre been like this for a month, a trophy is the one youâre exciting to take at, despite of being an anime addict, you still donât forget your studies.
You still read the manga, to the point that you ended the whole book you bought, every updates from your content creator friends lets the thrill filled your entire mind, and excitement from your heart.
And finally, the event happened, youâre going to answer through a form. You can feel nervousness trough your entire system, afraid of failing and overthinking again.
You did your whole schedule in a month so, whatâs wrong of being nervous, even if you studied or not, we can feel the nervousness in our mind, heart beating so fast that one move and you can answer it wrong.
About two hours passed, you finished the test, the emcee announced the first place and you finally got all the nervousness down when he announced that you are the first placer, a trophy.
A trophy you got from reading a manga book, a trophy you got from practicing all the problems in science, the trophy you got⌠From falling in love to Akashi Takeomi, a guy from a fictional world that leads you into happiness, that even money canât buy.
Lucid DREAMS // Manjiro Sano
You stare at the time on your watch, itâs been ten o'clock in the evening, your mission was to save the leader of Bonten, Manjiro Sano.
You are one of the most trusted person by Mikey, and aside from that, youâre an executive.
âCall everyone, we have a meetingâ he commanded and you easily responded.
The meeting was having a dark ambiance, you can feel it because of those weird actions by Sanzu.
You silently listen to Mikeyâs words, as you wrote down the things for meeting. Itâs a little bit stressful but itâs okay, itâs your mission after all.
The hideout seems creepy, located in an abandoned bowling area, who in the world that couldnât imagine a ghost was behind you? Itâs a little bit dim, and youâre imagining it that it would turn off by itself.
The meeting ends when you got in back from responding the natureâs call. You go with Mikey again, watching every single move, the blond guy eating a dorayaki.
You sat in an office chair, half lid eyes, almost you got sleeping.
Itâs been morning that you woke up, only to noticed that there is a blanket that covers your torso. You yawned and got out of the office.
âI sleep in Mikeyâs room, itâs so embarrassingâ you whispered to yourself while taking a walk. You became alert when you heard a gunshot, and it was⌠Sanzu. Laughing like crazy, you go into that wide room, where blood flows from their head, gore and gross.
You stand beside Mikey, whoâs eating a dorayaki. You feel your stomach growl as you watch him eating. You got stunned at him, his eyebags and his white hair attracts you.
âHereâ you gone back to reality when he give you a dorayaki. As far as you know, he wouldnât give it, right? Dorayaki is his favorite food.
You blink your eyes three times as you slowly get the food.
âEat it, before i think twice not to give you thisâ he added, you get the food and start eating.
âM-mikey⌠â you started. âif youâre n-not feeling well, tell it to m-meâ you stuttered. No answer.
âAre you really worried about him? Or is this what they called love?â you whispered to yourself. Not believing yourself that yoi start to fall for him.
Heâs not the Mikey you know before, depression eats him up, leading him to be like this.
âLetâs goâ he said, you stand up and you walk while eating the dorayaki. The secretary staring at you as you wave your hand at them, youâre so kind that even the secretaries are so envy to you.
The path was not the path to his office, it leads into⌠The dead end.
You got nervous. What if he kills me? I canât die here.
Did someone says shit about me?
âY/n⌠â he started. âI⌠â
âWhat is it⌠Boss Mikey?â you asked formally, but stuttering is still on your voice. Youâre now ready to meet the death as your friend.
âI⌠I love youâ you got shocked of what you heard. âsir, Iâm just an executiveââ
âPositions arenât involve in loveâ you lowered your head.
âIf⌠Then, i love you too, boss Mikeyâ you said in a low voice, he smiled and hugs you.
Days have passed, you saw him smile, which seems odd to the members but for you, it was a most memorable day, to see him smile, his smile was a biggest thing that admires your eyes.
Not until you realised somethingâŚ
âMikeyâ you happily opened the door, holding a bag of dorayaki for him and an egg pie for you. The food you bought will be your afternoon snacks.
You put this on his office table, he smiled. You ate a bit of a pie until you asked him a question.
âWhat would you react when i die?â a dumb question slips on your mouth. You know to yourself that you did a ritual that will depends on your sleep.
âI would be sad, Iâll miss you, if your planning of doing this, please no, i love youâ he said.
âCome here y/nâ he said, you came and he hugged you like tomorrow would never come.
âIf youâre planning to kill yourself, stop. Iâm here for youâ he muttered, you smiled as you respond to his whisper. âi will, Iâll never do it, please stay safe Mikey, i love you, even though i met you here, in a dreamâ you whispered, you smile until you woke up.
Too many things have changed, the day wasnât seem happy, you stand up and open the door, only to find out that thereâs no stuff anymore.
âWhat is the day today?â you asked yourself. Itâs year 2025.
âHow many years did i sleep?â you asked yourself again until someone knock on the front door.
âY/n!â your sibling slap your face. âwhat the hell did you just do?â she hissed.
âYou sleep for five years, we all thought you are fucking dead!â you just realised that, she brought a kid here.
âHow old is your child?â you asked her. âdoes this thing care to you? Damn, heâs five years old!â she yell.
You eyes are now blown to a fact, you gone blinded by the truth that you are in a hideout. The truth isâŚ
You sleep for five years and the truth was hiding from you just to love someone that doesnât exist.
FEELINGS like WIND // Kakucho Hitto
For an unknown reason, you always reject your suitors, you donât know why.
You want to have a boyfriend yet you still reject them.
âWhatâs wrong with you y/n, you still keep rejecting themâ you friend hissed. You shrugged.
You just keep silent. The truth is, no one likes you, they are courting you because of your beauty, and any man would like to break the pearl you take care the mostâŚ
And thatâs the reason why you are rejecting them
âOh! Thereâs your suitor hereââ
You almost tell her to shut up not until that guy approach you.
You ran away as fast as you could until you reach your house, itâs the end of the class and you can go home.
âThank god he didnât rush onto meâ you whispered to yourself. You pull your strength and then open the door. No one was there, until someone is coming downstairs.
âY/n nee-san!â your sibling called you as he rush to hug you.
âWhereâs mom?â you asked him. âsheâs on a market to buy vegetablesâ he happily said. You observed the house. Clean and organized. Thanks that your sibling never did something.
As you got into your bedroom, you opened your phone. Tons of spoilers about the latest chapter stress your eyes. You didnât even finish a half of the latest chapter due to classes, and you have to cram.
The spoilers stress you, you got into the gallery, as you smile for no reason and start your activities.
You start reading a few chapters and smiled whenever you see Kakucho, the one you admire the most.
After that, you start cramming, headaches doesnât ignore you until you reach on a verge of crying due to fear of failing, you are a first born among the siblings and all the responsibility is up upon you.
After that you took a nap from cramming, dreaming about him, Kakucho being with you.
After taking a nap, you woke up and go downstairs, only to find everyone is on a dining table, eating.
âY/n, come eatâ your mother spoked and you go down to eat with them.
âI heard nee-san crying, why?â your sibling asked. âschool works and i have to cramâ you answered.
âY/n, you donât have to cram, remember, even though you are a first born among your siblings, you have to take care of yourself tooâ your dad said.
âAnd fangirling toâ whoâs that guy again?â your mother chuckled. Blood tinting on your cheeks as you say his name.
âHitto Kakuchoâ you chuckled as your little brother laugh at you.
âMom, look! Nee-san is blushing!â he laughed while pointing at your flustered face.
âIâm not!â you yelled and you almost choked at the food you ate. Heâs still giggling, and butterflies fly on your stomach at the fact that your family was now happy and delighted unlike before, where you all had your own worlds.
After all errands in the kitchen, you go back to your bedroom, only to see yourself taking some notes on a paper.
While time have been passed, you feel a sudden warm hand in your back, you thought it was your brother but thereâs no one there. You shook your head and continuing taking notes, not until someone whisper.
âThe way you write y/n, itâs so relaxing, i want to touch you but i live in a fantasy while youâre in a realityâ a romantic voice whispered. You smiled. âi love you Kakucho, even though you didnât existâ you responded.
âAnd thatâs my story, itâs time to go to another class so⌠Be quietâ you announced this to your students that are forcing you not to get out, they are still thrilled by the story and they will never stop unless you tell them.
Itâs been six years, and your heart still belongs to Hitto Kakucho, a man from afar, a man that doesnât exist but it doesnât matter since your heart is still beating for him.
You go to the hallway and feel the presence of the wind, you exhaled, feelings are like wind, they come and go, but they never forget the impact from the one who loves them the most.
