The World of Katerina Petrova

But the calm and refuge you gave me was the same chaos I wanted to run away from. I wanted to love you and make you feel my love. But I guess the fear is just too real that it makes me wanna cry.

Ang lungkot lang kasi I waited. I waited for you to hold me… I waited for you to love me too… kaso I can’t be the woman you need and want.. I can’t be your ex lover. I can’t give you more than what she had given you. I just simply can’t be her.

I would like to believe that I have done all possible things I can to make you feel how much you mean to me. I did my part of understanding and accepting you and all you wanted to happen. I know you do not want me. I know you do not like me. And I definitely know you do not have any plans for us.

I just stayed and acted as the most stupid human ever existed in this lifetime because I honestly love you. Despite all that I defended you and your name. I even tried to find my way to your heart. Asked you a million times of why can’t it be, why can’t you see me as a person capable of loving you. I wanted you to love me. But I won’t beg for it anymore. I have done my part and I guess those fair share of tears for the past months will be my greatest apology for myself.