karina perez

All I have ever wanted is a close group of friends. All the friendships I’ve ever had, have been surface level. No matter how vulnerable I try to be. Im grateful to have sisters. I don’t know how I would live otherwise.

I feel so out of control. I can feel my friendships slipping through my fingers. And I don’t know how to stop it from happening.

I so desperately want to move to a new city. To one where I won’t know anyone. Where I’ll be forced to make new friends and create new traditions during the holidays. Where I’ll be too far away from my family to feel obligated to spend the holidays with them instead.

I finally understand why people develop nicotine addictions. I fucking hate my life too.

my life feels so out of control and directionless lately. i have never felt sadder and have never hated myself more than i do these days. i can usually pull myself out if it, and can at least fake liking myself, but i cant fool myself as of late. ive been on the verge if tears, every single day and i hate that i cant pinpoint what is causing me to feel this way.