mistakes were made

so about a year ago or something now my laptop died and with it went my access to all of my passwords that weren't saved to my google account, and that was most of my passwords. yes i'm well aware that i'm an idiot and i should've had a backup plan for that. fortunately the ssd was perfectly intact and so a couple days (or was it a week or two?) afterwards i got my passwords. unfortunately my password organization is awful and I actually make sure all my passwords are unique so there I was, staring down these passwords thinking "what… what the heck is this for?" and so I procrastinated on figuring which password went to this account because organization be damned, I guess. in conclusion don't do that, actually organize your passwords and keep backups, don't be me.

at some point past me within the last year also decided to write a password purely through nested folders. past me is evil because now I don't know which direction i'm supposed to read the password. so don't do that either.

then like two or three weeks ago I was like "oh yea I should probably write a post-mortem for tabling at con" and so I finally reset the password for this, only to discover a very likely password for this account while i was scrounging around in my passwords folder for something that wasn't even in the folder. screw me I guess.

so to all the people who presumably know me from somewhere that isn't tumblr and therefore already knew about the unfortunate passing of my laptop, now we can get to actually relevant information yep

So about two months ago I went and tabled at a con again (very surprising ik). I was honestly very surprised by the reception, because I thought I'd get less people at my (side of the) table. As cliche as it is, words cannot describe how much I appreciate everyone's feedback. This time and last time, I mainly just wanted to experiencing tabling with my friend, but after this, I'm considering tabling a little bit more seriously and having a nicer setup and everything. perhaps a tablecloth for once. it wouldn't even cost that much. I'm just lazy.

I think something that'll definitely help with the setup is that next time I table I'm probably not gonna be sharing with someone and so i'll have enough room to do more stuff. perhaps another game demo like the first time I tabled and I didn't have anything else to put there. perhaps I will simply have more room to put decorative pieces for displays.

Something else I've been thinking about is "what exactly does one put at their table?" Compared to last time I did prep and order quite a bit more, but since then I've been thinking about what to draw and for what. As much as I wanna double-down on OC stuff, I gotta admit the best choice here is to double-down on the three or four fandoms that I'm the most passionate about, but then am I maximizing profit or am I maximizing personal enjoyment? Should I keep ordering stuff from overseas manufacturers or should I actually invest in equipment? Is it bad for the environment if I sell acrylic keychains??? Am I just convincing myself to switch to more prints and stickers just because I don't want to spend money on shipping??????

regardless I will answer these questions at some point… because another friend has asked me if i wanna table at an event in November and i'm inclined to say yes so i will likely end up at another convention sitting there awkwardly in cosplay and low on sleep as I simultaneously pray that nobody talks to me and that someone comes and buys things from me. at some point I also wanna participate in hosting a stamp rally. maybe one day.

lowkey i've also been meaning to talk to more people, unfortunately my introvert status is terminal. if you reach out first i will most likely respond like a normal person. I promise i don't usually bite.

oh yeah before i forget, i'll be updating a lot of stuff over the next few months because I've been busy irl the last year or two but now i am not busy and so i will make it everyone else's problem by only telling people about what updates will be applied to specific platforms on the platform in question so people who follow me on multiple platforms will have to hunt down relevant information because i simply am evil.

so we are currently on tumblr. i will eventually update the theme for this to a two column or whatever they call it. I'm thinking about mostly posting OC stuff here whenever I get a chance to draw it and of course, the super long posts whenever I think too much about something. although I am thinking about whether or not it would be a good idea to just switch to a fully custom site and just shove in a blog there? definitely would be better for portfolio stuff but that's antithetical to my goal of making it mildly inconvenient for people to learn more about me on the internet even if they are interested and it's otherwise available information. but I do wanna promote my OC stuff more, so idk.

finally finished adding custom pages and cleaning things up on tumblr probably will overhaul the theme at some point... I think two column looks nicer and I could just get a theme off of the theme store or whatever it's called but I'm dumb and I'd rather customize the heck outta it so alas... eventually I'll get to that... but also at that point you would assume I would just make a custom website ;-;

well if i did... I'd probably have to spend the majority of my time designing an ARG on the website because I have issues and these things are so intricately linked in my mind that I probably wouldn't be satisfied with the website until the ARG has been implemented

to be honest, i gotta update the banner as well but i can't think of anything so it stays for now until the inevitable "i must redesign an entire theme" moment

It's Eridani from the Terraria mod, The Stars Above, which is getting a full game made of it soon.

I drew this back in 2022 (7/29/2022 according to the timestamp) and never posted it anywhere because I didn't have social media. Am I worse off now that I have social media?

i told myself i was gonna take a break from game dev for a week but at this rate i'm being too productive in everything else D: there's something i've been meaning to do for little over a year now (update some thumbnails) and i just knocked it out in a day????

here's another thing i just finished where apparently i drew the sketch for in march because i'm that bored. according to my hands i have been too productive today so i guess i must find something else to do that does not require too much hand usage.

Fun fact: I was planning to design some kind of Lobotomy Corporation-inspired outfits for them last year for Halloween but i didn't get to do that so here we go now (mostly) legally distinct lobotomy corp inspired outfits yay

(I love my anime boys as much as I love Lobotomy Corporation if it wasn't obvious)

I swear Rei isn't actually a dog boy I just like drawing him like that lol

as i am currently taking a break from game dev i decided to work on some personal stuff like custom keychains

I think it's pretty obvious why I've plastered it with watermarks and stuff. I actually don't really care if someone steals the old one because it's old and crusty, so who would even want it???

the old design was pretty good (I have a keychain of it already) but the anatomy bothers me whenever I stare at it too intensely so if if I ever do a limited run it'll be the one on the right. I actually genuinely hate taking people's money because I feel bad so if anything that limited run is going to be FAR in the future. like years from now unless my youtube channel magically blows up one night and there's actual demand for this. also thinking about just getting some other custom keychains made some time before my birthday as a present to myself cuz I do like my custom keychains lol

so maybe I'll get a couple of copies of this design made with that order and just hold onto them until the fated day comes and I either realize i ordered too many or I ordered too little

something else I also did was this animation:

recently decided to make my handwriting into a font because I didn't feel like checking on google fonts for a nice handwriting font to use and now I have three terrible fonts with the power of Microsoft Font Maker.

Here's an unsolicited review of Microsoft Font Maker. Pros: free, does the bare minimum easily. Cons: was never meant to be used without Windows Ink and whatever Microsoft-branded stylus actually has the erase function via pen-end (I don't have said stylus), font quality is crunchy and requires outline settings for legibility.

in short... it kinda sucks and I don't understand why nobody has ever made a good free font generator that isn't web-based and has a tiered payment system? But I guess if I'm complaining about it, I should just do it myself one day... that day is not anywhere near today though.

for your (more or less) biweekly reminder that I still live, here is an animation of my OC (his name is Rei) drinking tea

animated this back in early 2023 and idk thought I should post it somewhere so i have now posted it because I'm still proud of it :D clearly inspired by inabakumori MVs (like lagtrain) lol

was working on a sprite and thought it'd be cool to hit the negative-positive inversion button on it. is this a roundabout way of posting art of it? yeah but also you gotta admit this is really cool come on :D

anyway that's like the best thing in the game by far so uh it only goes downhill from here... but that's life.

for anyone curious I drew this in Firealpaca which is... not a pixel art program. I'm just stubborn like that.

forgot to mention this but game's out at https://karelessocelot.itch.io/infected-infestation

it's a horror vn (with maybe adventure game elements?) about two siblings who wake up one day and one of them has become half-bug (kinda like Kafka's The Metamorphosis)

well I say horror but nothing too scary... I can't write scary so it's more comedic (lol)