Kemy🦝

snowleopard!gojo I need him begging and bred brooo

this was my favorite tiktok trend, Andrew in Drag by the Magnetic Fields

edit by me ez <3

you have one rule. never get attached. so how come you're torn between five guys you fucked...and the one man who doesn't want you?

synopsis: men are easy. they only ever wanted to get their dick wet anyway. so what's wrong with you beating them at their game? making pretty promises and turning into a phantom the second things looked like they might get serious? it had never been a problem before. until you meet the one guy on campus who doesn't want to play.

pairing: multiple jjk!men x bimbo!reader (choso-centric)

content: mdni, smut + angst, occasional fluff, COLLEGE AU, slower build, lots of piv sex, condoms and creampies (but reader's on birth control), fingering, oral sex, messy relationships, ghosting, reader sleeping around, denying feelings, crushes, pining, reader's roster will include gojo, geto, sukuna, toji + nanami), reader is lowk a villain lol, more tags to be found in individual chaps

a/n: the voices won lol first chap should be out in january btw also the art is by @1amglow + div by

DIARY OF A WHORE!

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DIARY OF A LOSER!

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content: 18+, scotty doesn't know, cheating trope, lots and lots of car sex.

sukuna ryomen hates a lot of things.

he hates when his job sticks him on dishwashing duty because they’re short-staffed, so much so that he’s made a habit of walking out the second it happens, apron tossed onto the counter, jaw set tight as he refuses to do anything else until someone else gets shoved into the back. 

he hates mornings that start too early and end too late, especially the ones where his mom makes him walk yuji to the bus stop, insisting he’s too young to go alone even though sukuna was doing it in second grade and yuji is already in fucking middle school.

he hates teachers who talk down to him when he doesn’t turn assignments in on time, the way they insist on provoking him instead of speaking to him like he’s a fucking human, and how the moment he finally snaps and raises his voice, they send him straight to the principal’s office like the outcome was decided before he ever opened his mouth.

he hates the house he grew up in, too. the thin walls, the creaking floors, the way his mom apologizes for things that were never her fault. 

he hates his stepdad’s voice when it gets sharp, hates the neighbors who keep bringing bedbugs back into the building, hates watching garbage bags full of their already-limited belongings get hauled to the curb like loss is routine.

but there is nothing in this entire world that sukuna has hated more, across all eighteen years of his life, than satoru gojo.

sukuna hates everything about satoru gojo. 

he hates his too-bright white hair, hates his stupid loafers and pastel polos, hates the way he wears sunglasses indoors like he’s some kind of celebrity dodging paparazzi instead of a high school student like everyone else, hates the expensive car his dad bought him the second he turned sixteen, hates the performative niceness he puts on whenever he’s talking to someone with less money than him, and he especially fucking hates the way gojo assumes ownership over every room he walks into, appointing himself leader without asking, talking over people like their opinions are optional, and treating loyalty like something he’s automatically owed.

he’s particularly hated satoru ever since seventh grade, ever since the day he “accidentally” stepped on the new shoes sukuna got after winter break, a gift his mother had paid for by working nearly every night, scraping together money while his stepdad contributed absolutely nothing, as usual.

sukuna still remembers the way satoru’s mouth had curved into mock surprise, the lazy little “oops” that didn’t mean shit at all, the way his foot lingered just long enough to grind the sole into the pavement.

something in sukuna snapped.

he saw red and lunged before anyone could pull him back, fists swinging, breath burning in his chest, and in the chaos of the fight he heard the truth spill out of satoru’s mouth, words sharp and careless and cruel. 

he remembers the way he sneered, the way satoru laughed and said he should be grateful for his “goodwill outfits,” the way he talked about sukuna like he was charity instead of a person, like poverty was a punchline instead of a fact of life.

sukuna hates that memory most of all.

he hates how the fight ended with a bloody nose and nothing else, and how satoru’s parents still insisted on pressing charges anyway, dragging sukuna and his mother through nearly a year of court proceedings over something that happened between two middle schoolers.

he hates remembering his mom renting dress clothes they couldn’t afford just to sit in a courtroom and look respectable, hates the humiliation of it, hates how easily satoru’s family wielded money and lawyers and threats.

he hates that the charges were dropped near the end, brushed off with a comment about having a “change of heart,” like the damage hadn’t already been done, like sukuna wasn’t already marked by it.

some things never leave you; satoru gojo, for example, never did.

so yes, sukuna hates everything about satoru gojo, with one singular exception; a minute detail about him that refuses to be entirely unbearable, something that might even qualify as satoru’s most redeeming quality if sukuna were ever inclined to admit it.

you.

you, and your hair that always seems to smell like the expensive, floral shampoo his mother could never justify buying. 

you, and your hands that are always stained with blue ink from the way you grip your pens too tight during shifts. 

you, and the way you look in that stiff, polyester waitress uniform, making a five-dollar apron look like something satoru would buy on a whim at a boutique.

sukuna hates almost everything, but he has never been able to find the energy to hate you.

he still remembers the day of your interview. he had been leaning against the back door, watching through the grime-streaked window as you sat at a booth with the manager. he could see the way you fidgeted with your hands under the table, your fingers twisting together in a nervous braid while you tried to look brave. 

yuki had stepped out for a cigarette break, blowing a cloud of smoke toward the ceiling as she watched you through the glass.

"look at her," yuki had snickered, tapping ash onto the pavement. "princess won't last a day. she'll cry the first time a trucker sends back his eggs for being too runny."

sukuna didn't even look at her. he just kept his eyes on the way you tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear. "maybe you're just pissed because she’s actually got a soul left to crush," he’d muttered, his voice a low, jagged scrape. "unlike you, who's been bitter since the nineties."

he’d ignored the middle finger she threw his way, already focusing back on you.

even before you knew he worked in the kitchen, he would watch you from the kitchen pass during your first two weeks. you were far too soft-spoken for a place as loud and greasy as this diner. 

his jaw would tighten every time he saw a customer start to snap about a cold side of fries or a late refill. the second they would raise their voice, your teeth would find your lower lip, gnawing at the skin until it’s raw and pink. it made him want to vault over the counter and shove the dish sprayer down their throat, but you always handled it with that quiet, frantic dignity of yours.

you prided yourself on being the fastest at counting change, your fingers flying over the register as you murmured the totals under your breath, a small, private victory in a day full of manual labor.

it had been like this since long before the diner, though.

he remembered ninth grade math—the year he spent more time in the principal’s office than in a desk. after the two-week suspension from yet another fight, he had come back expecting to be failing every unit. instead, he found a stack of neat, organized notes slipped into his locker, written in your loopy, careful handwriting. you hadn’t said a word to him about it. you just kept your head down and let him pass the class.

on the slow shifts, when the lunch rush died down and the only sound was the hum of the industrial fridge, you played games with him. you slipped discarded receipts through the kitchen pass—the little window that separated his world of steam and grime from yours—with a single 'o' marked in the center. you always insisted on being 'x,' and he always let you, his large, scarred hand moving the pen with a gentleness he didn't use for anything else.

he’d even had a crush on you in eighth grade, a secret, burning thing that made his chest ache. 

he had spent weeks staring at the back of your head, thinking you were the prettiest girl in the entire school. he would have asked you to the formal dance, too, if he’d had anything to wear besides a hand-me-down flannel and jeans with holes in the knees. he had stayed home instead, imagining you there, probably dancing with some faceless boy who deserved you.

he had assumed you were still that girl—the one who didn't talk to guys, the one who lived in her own quiet world. he thought you were untouched by the loud, arrogant boys of their town. 

he believed that until two months ago, when he walked out for his break and saw a sporty, silver BMW idling at the curb; watched you climb out of the passenger seat, and for a second, he saw satoru gojo’s obnoxious, grinning face behind the wheel.

the air had left sukuna’s lungs in a rush of pure, cold venom— surely you couldn’t be entertaining that asshole.

it was confirmed an hour later as you were reaching up to tie your hair back, the collar of your uniform shifting just enough to reveal it—a dark, unmistakable red mark blooming just under the curve of your jaw. a hickey. a brand.

satoru gojo didn't just have the money, the cars, and the easy life. he had you, too. and he probably didn't even know how lucky he was.

sukuna had expected it to be a once or twice thing, one of those hookups satoru was infamous for. satoru was equally as reckless with the way he ran through women as he was with his cars, leaving a trail of broken hearts and dented fenders in his wake without ever looking back. 

he figured you would be another name on a long, meaningless list, a temporary distraction before satoru got bored and moved on to the next bright, shiny thing. but satoru gojo, for all the things he was, was seemingly not an idiot, because he didn’t let you go. 

hell, the asshole even went and made you his girlfriend.

you never talked about satoru at work. you kept your personal life locked away, shielded by that soft-spoken nature of yours, never offering up details about where you went after your shifts or who you spent your weekends with. 

sukuna wouldn’t have even known you were in a relationship if it weren’t for the familiar, irritating sound of satoru's tires squealing in the distance every time he dropped you off. the screech of expensive rubber on asphalt became a trigger for the bile that rose in sukuna’s throat.

the only other times he saw you together were brief glimpses in the school hallway. he’d see satoru, his tall, lean frame looming over you, his hand resting possessively on the small of your back as he walked you to class. satoru would be laughing, head tilted back, while you looked up at him with that quiet, attentive expression that sukuna used to think was reserved for your math notes.

sukuna couldn’t believe it—there was no way someone like you would be with someone like satoru gojo. satoru was everything you weren't: loud, arrogant, and shallow. 

he lived for the day he would see that silver BMW stop coming around, for the moment satoru would inevitably screw up. but as the weeks turned into months, the tires kept squealing, and the hand stayed on your back.

and every time sukuna saw a new mark on your neck, sukuna’s hatred for gojo grew into something sharper, something more dangerous. it was a slow-burning poison, one he had to swallow every time he watched you walk back into the kitchen to grab a tray, looking far too innocent for the reality of who was touching you.

…

it was a tuesday, the kind of dead afternoon where the air in the diner felt heavy and unmoving, thick with the smell of old coffee and fryer oil, the only sound the slow, rhythmic thrum of the ceiling fan overhead. the lunch rush had come and gone, leaving behind sticky tables, half-wiped counters, and a quiet that made everything feel suspended, like time itself had decided to take a smoke break.

sukuna was in the kitchen, leaning his shoulder against the stainless steel counter by the pass, arms crossed tight as he stared down at a crumpled math packet that looked like it had survived a small war. the pages were bent, corners torn, pencil smudges ground into the paper from where he’d erased too hard. his jaw was set, eyes narrowed, like the worksheet had personally insulted him.

“you’re going to burn a hole through that paper if you keep glaring at it,” you murmured, your voice carrying easily through the open window of the pass, soft and calm, a sharp contrast to the way his thoughts were grinding. 

you’d appeared on the other side without him noticing, wiping down a stray mustard bottle with a rag, movements methodical and unhurried, like you had all the time in the world.

sukuna let out a jagged huff of air and shoved the packet closer to the edge of the counter, the paper scraping against steel.

“it’s garbage,” he snapped. “kamo is a bitch. she marked the whole back page wrong because i didn’t ‘show the work’ the way she wanted. i got the right answers. what the fuck does it matter how i got there?”

you leaned in, resting your elbows on the counter, eyes scanning the mess of equations. the corner of your mouth twitched, and before you could stop it, a small, unintended snicker slipped out.

“sukuna,” you said gently, amusement threading through your tone, “you skipped like four steps on every problem. she probably thinks you used a photo-math app.”

“i don’t need an app to do basic calculus,” he growled, but the bite didn’t land the way it usually did. something about the sound of your laugh sanded down the edge of his anger. “but if i don’t pass the final, i’m not walking at graduation, and my mom is gonna lose her mind.”

you chewed on your lower lip, gaze flicking from the paper back up to his face, eyes warm in a way that made his chest feel tight.

“i could help you,” you said after a beat. “if you want. i still have my old binders from last year. we could go over the steps kamo is so obsessed with.”

he stilled.

for a second, the diner faded out completely. all sukuna could see was you, standing there in your uniform, sleeves rolled up, fingers faintly stained blue from ink. he searched your face for something ugly, for pity or condescension, for that look people sometimes got when they thought they were doing him a favor.

there was nothing. just your usual steady gaze, open and sincere.

“seriously?” he asked.

“yeah.” you shrugged, like it was obvious, like helping him didn’t even register as a big deal. a small, genuine smile tugged at your mouth. “why not? i’m already doing the work anyway. are you free sunday afternoon? i’ve got community service on saturday mornings, so sunday is better.”

something twisted in his chest, dry and aching. of course you had weekly community service. he pictured you shelving books at a library or walking dogs at a shelter, patient and kind, doing good quietly without needing anyone to notice. the image made his throat feel tight.

he cleared it, eyes dropping to your hands, to the faint smudges of ink on your fingers. “sunday,” he repeated.

then, before he could stop himself, before he could talk his way out of it, the thought that had been rotting in his brain for months slipped free.

“you sure your boyfriend’s not gonna be mad?”

the words hung there, heavy. it was the first time he’d ever acknowledged satoru out loud, the name pressing into the space between you like a bruise.

your expression shifted, genuine surprise flashing across your face as your eyebrows lifted. your hands went still on the counter, rag forgotten. for a moment, you looked like you’d completely forgotten satoru existed in this little bubble of stainless steel and fluorescent light.

“how did you…” you started, then trailed off, glancing away for half a second, then back at him, your voice quieter when you spoke again. “well. i’m sure i don’t have to tell him it’s you.”

something dark and triumphant sparked in sukuna’s gut. he nodded slowly, fingers tracing the edge of the kitchen pass. 

he knew exactly why you wouldn’t tell him. satoru hated sukuna with a deep, inherited kind of fury, the sort that came from a rich boy who once realized money couldn’t solve everything. satoru would lose his mind if he knew you were spending hours alone with the one person he couldn’t buy off.

“fine,” sukuna said, voice low.

he hesitated, posture stiffening as his mind flashed with the image of his house. peeling wallpaper. the lingering smell of grease. the cramped living room where privacy didn’t exist. embarrassment crawled up his spine.

“can we…” he paused, jaw tightening. “do it at your place?”

you blinked, a little taken aback, then nodded easily, like the answer had never been in doubt. “yeah, that’s fine. i have a golden retriever, though. are you okay with dogs?”

that dry ache settled in his chest again.

of course you had a golden retriever. a dog that was probably as well-behaved and soft as its owner.

"fine," he repeated, already imagining the pet hair he'd have to lint-roll off his only decent hoodie. "sunday. your house. just text me the address."

"i will," you said, already reaching for a receipt to scribble it down. as you handed it through the pass, your fingers brushed his—just a ghost of a touch—and sukuna felt the spark of it all the way up his arm. "see you then, sukuna."

…

sukuna’s pickup looked wrong the second he pulled up to the curb.

the rusted red body sat low and uneven, paint chipped down to bare metal in places, a jagged scar against the smooth, clean line of your neighborhood. the lawns were trimmed. the sidewalks uncracked. driveways held cars that looked washed on purpose. he shut the engine off and let it rattle itself into silence, hands lingering on the steering wheel as the weight of every dent and creak settled in his chest.

your house was bigger than his; that much was obvious. but somehow, it wasn’t loud about it.

there were no iron gates, no dramatic columns, no looming sense of ownership over the block. it looked lived-in, warm, the kind of place where the lights stayed on because someone was always home, where the walls probably remembered laughter instead of shouting.

he barely had time to brace himself before the door opened.

you stood there in sweats and an oversized hoodie, sleeves swallowing your hands, glasses slipping a little down your nose. your hair was pulled back in a messy tie that looked accidental and perfect at the same time. your face was bare, no gloss, no mascara, nothing to soften or sharpen what was already there.

his breath caught.

you didn’t look like the girl from the diner or the classroom. you looked softer somehow, real in a way that knocked the wind out of him. he might have stood there staring like an idiot if something large and golden hadn’t slammed into his legs a second later.

your dog barreled into him with unfiltered enthusiasm, tail wagging like it might take flight.

“sorry!” you laughed, grabbing the collar and hauling the dog back with practiced ease. “he’s a lot.”

“it’s fine,” sukuna grunted, steadying himself, heart pounding harder than it ever had in a fight.

you stepped aside to let him in, and the house smelled clean, faintly sweet, like laundry detergent and something baking earlier in the day. family photos lined the hallway walls, mismatched frames, years layered on top of each other. 

birthdays. holidays. a younger version of you missing a few teeth, smiling into a camera like the world was kind.

you caught him looking and smiled, a little sheepish.

“my sister has a girl scout meeting today,” you said as you led him upstairs. “they’re hosting, so it’s gonna get… girl scout loud.”

he huffed something that might’ve been a laugh.

when you opened your bedroom door, something in him went tight and still. the room felt private in a way that made his chest ache. 

fairy lights draped softly over the headboard, glowing low even in the afternoon light. polaroids were pinned to the walls, you with friends, arms thrown over shoulders, faces flushed and happy. everything was neat without feeling staged, warm without trying too hard.

then he saw them: two photos of satoru taped neatly above the vanity.

just two, but enough to punch the air out of his lungs.

satoru’s arm around your shoulders in one, grin wide and careless. satoru kissing your cheek in the other, your head tipped back in laughter. 

sukuna’s jaw clenched before he could stop it. he wondered how many times gojo had stood where he was standing now, how many times he’d stretched out on that bed, expensive clothes wrinkling your sheets, loud presence filling a space that felt like it should’ve stayed quiet.

the thought made heat crawl up his spine.

“you can sit at the desk,” you said, pulling him out of it. “i’ll be right back. i’m just gonna grab a chair from my sister’s room.”

he nodded, dropping his bag down a little harder than necessary, eyes flicking back to the photos once more before he forced himself to look away.

the hours blurred.

without a manager hovering or customers snapping their fingers, you were different. looser. sharper. you explained things slowly, patiently, never talking down to him, never sighing when he asked the same question twice. 

you leaned over the desk when you pointed at equations, shoulder brushing his, and every time you smiled, it felt deliberate even when it wasn’t.

at school, sukuna was the guy who took a minimum of two "bathroom breaks" just to escape the boredom of math, but with you, the three hours passed in what felt like minutes. you were a natural at tutoring—patient, encouraging, and surprisingly funny. you were witty and sharp, and he found himself leaning into the desk, hanging on every word.

he couldn't help but stare whenever you smiled. it became a game to him; how he started dropping corny joke after corny joke, half-insulting the textbook and half-mocking his own mistakes just to hear you laugh. when you finally checked the time, you both jumped.

"oh my god," you whispered, eyes wide. "we're twenty minutes over. i didn't even realize."

sukuna looked at the clock, then back at you. for the first time in his life, he didn't want to leave a math lesson.

…

the study sessions became the secret architecture of sukuna’s weeks, the only part of his existence that didn't feel like a grit-toothed endurance test. the routine set in with a domesticity that felt dangerous: the rusted red truck parked two blocks over to avoid the neighbors' gossip, the golden retriever waiting at the door, and the quiet sanctuary of your bedroom. 

he started bringing you little things—a specific soda he’d noticed you sipping at the diner, or a bag of the expensive jerky he’d swiped from the stockroom because he remembered you saying you skipped lunch. it was his way of paying rent for the space he was taking up in your life, even if he’d never admit it.

but soon, once a week wasn't enough to satisfy the hunger that had started to grow in the pit of his stomach. he started inventing reasons to see you—half-baked excuses about a pop quiz or a formula he "just couldn't get"—and you, ever the "good" girl, always found a way to squeeze him in. 

you’d meet him in the cramped break room at the diner, sitting on milk crates while the smell of old grease hung in the air, or you’d slip into the passenger seat of his truck for thirty minutes before your shift started. 

he relished in the secrecy of it. he loved that he was a hidden line in your daily schedule, a secret debt you were paying in time that rightfully belonged to satoru. he loved knowing that while gojo was likely taking you to five-star dinners or beach houses, you were sitting in a rusted-out truck with him, sharing a lukewarm soda and talking about trigonometry.

he even started bringing yuji along once he realized how much you adored him after the day he’d been forced to bring yuji along because his mom had to pull a double shift. he had been braced for your judgment, certain you’d see the loud, energetic middle-schooler as another burden of his messy life. instead, you had beamed, sitting on the floor of the diner’s back office with yuji and teaching him card tricks. 

sukuna had watched from the doorway, chest tight, realized that you didn't just tolerate his world—you fit into it. and after that, he’d watch, both baffled and secretly softened, as you helped his little brother with his own homework or laughed at yuji’s ramblings about middle school drama. 

using yuji as a shield was low, even for him, but it worked. it gave him a reason to see you that had nothing to do with math and everything to do with the way you looked when you were being kind.

he started to learn the small things satoru likely never noticed, details that didn’t announce themselves and therefore never asked to be claimed. he learned that you took your coffee with too much sugar, stirred until the spoon clinked against the mug and left faint rings on the surface. he learned the way you hummed under your breath when you were thinking hard, a quiet, unconscious sound that slipped out when you didn’t realize you were doing it. he learned how your eyes traced the scars on his knuckles without flinching, lingering with a kind of careful curiosity that felt closer to reverence than judgment.

somewhere along the way, the tutoring stopped feeling like it had its own purpose. it became an excuse, a shape you both agreed to step into, a reason to sit too close and let silences stretch. the air between you thickened until it felt almost tangible, heavy with something unspoken and electric, charged enough to make his skin prickle and itch, like he was standing too near a live wire and choosing not to move. it became obvious that others had noticed too, like during friday’s double shift, when the diner air hung heavy with the smell of burnt coffee and floor cleaner.

the manager had already barked at you twice to "stop flirting" through the kitchen pass. sukuna had been mid-sentence, complaining about a physics lab, when the man’s voice boomed from the office, telling you both that if he wanted someone to stand around and look pretty, he’d hire a mannequin.

you’d jumped, your face instantly hot as you scurried off to refill a napkin dispenser, but the damage was done.

later, while you were in the back stocking the heavy gallon jugs of ranch, yuki leaned against the industrial fridge, blowing a bubble with her gum that popped with a sharp crack. she leaned in, her eyes trailing down to the high collar of your uniform.

"so," yuki started, her voice a low drawl. "was it the grease monkey who gave you that mark on your neck? honestly, i didn't think he had it in him to be that... marking."

sukuna had been right there, hauling a crate of potatoes into the walk-in. he stopped dead, his fingers digging into the plastic, his jaw set so tight his teeth ached. 

"no," he grunted, the word sounding like a threat. "wasn't me."

yuki blinked, her eyebrows shooting up as she looked between his bitter, dark expression and your wide-eyed silence. "huh," she muttered, a slow, knowing smirk spreading across her face. "who would’ve thought. i guess i owe choso twenty bucks. he bet me you were finally getting some from the help."

she sauntered off, leaving a vacuum of heavy, suffocating silence in her wake. sukuna didn't look at you. he just stared at the crate of potatoes like he wanted to crush every single one of them. 

it was the reminder he didn't need: satoru’s mark, satoru’s girl, satoru’s world.

it was moments like that where the illusion—the false bubble the two of you had created in the quiet of your bedroom or the privacy of his truck—was popped by the ever-persistent reminder of your boyfriend. it was a nagging, physical weight in sukuna’s chest. no matter how you looked at him, no matter how much he was sure that you felt the same pull he did, he began to convince himself you’d never actually give in.

that wasn't the type of person you were. you were the girl who did the right thing, and to sukuna, it started to feel like a form of torture—you were so close he could smell your shampoo, yet always just out of reach behind the wall of your own loyalty.

after too many nights spent shoulder to shoulder, it began to wear on him. he’d sit there while you traced the ink on his arms, your touch light as a feather as you asked absentmindedly which ones hurt, which ones had meaning, and which ones were just there. you’d linger on the jagged lines, your eyes soft, and he’d have to grit his teeth to keep from grabbing your hand and demanding you choose.

then the shift would end, and the illusion would shatter. he’d watch you walk out to that familiar silver bmw idling out front, the headlights cutting through the dark like a spotlight on his own failure. he didn’t like feeling used. he didn’t like being the "distraction" or the rough-around-the-edges break you took from the expensive, polished world of satoru gojo. leaving your house half-hard and incredibly frustrated was becoming a routine he was starting to loathe.

so, he slowly gave up.

he went back to being the old sukuna—the one who didn't care, the one who was too busy to be bothered. the study sessions that used to happen three or four times a week were strictly reserved for sunday afternoons now, and even those were hit or miss. he’d spend the afternoon sleeping off a double shift instead, sending a dismissive sorry forgot text three hours late without a hint of a real apology.

at the diner, the kitchen pass became a wall again. conversations were no longer soft or lingering; they were reserved for business, sharp and short. he stopped dropping the corny jokes. he stopped leaning against the counter to watch you count change.

he could tell you noticed. through the window, he’d see you trying to catch his gaze, your eyebrows furrowing in that concerned, quiet way of yours. 

you’d hover near the pass a second too long, looking as if you were waiting for him to say something—anything—while you gnawed on your lip. it was the look of someone who had lost a comfort they didn't realize they were addicted to, and sukuna, bitter and tired of being second best, just kept his head down and scrubbed the dishes until his knuckles were raw.

the day you’d finally confronted him, it was late, the kind of hour where the diner lights hummed too loud and every sound felt amplified by exhaustion. the overhead fluorescents cast everything in a sickly yellow, reflecting off stainless steel and scuffed tile. the air was thick with floor wax and old grease, the kind of smell that never really left no matter how many times they mopped.

you found him in dry storage.

the room was narrow and cramped, shelves packed tight with towers of paper napkins, boxes of plastic cutlery, industrial-sized cans of tomatoes stacked three high. there was barely space to stand without brushing something. sukuna was leaning back against one of the shelves, clipboard in hand, shoulders tight, jaw clenched so hard you could see the muscle ticking in his cheek. he looked like he was holding himself together by force alone.

“are you avoiding me?”

your voice came out quieter than you meant it to, swallowed by the walls and the hum of the building. still, it landed like a shove.

sukuna didn’t look up. he flipped a page on the clipboard with unnecessary force, paper snapping under his fingers.

“i’m working,” he muttered, his voice low and rough, like it scraped on the way out.

you swallowed and stepped further inside. the door swung shut behind you with a soft, final thud, sealing the two of you in. the sound made your stomach tighten.

“you haven’t looked at me in three days, sukuna,” you said. your hands curled at your sides, nails biting into your palms. “you didn’t show up sunday. you didn’t even text me back.” you hesitated, then pushed on, heart pounding. “if i did something to upset you, just say it.”

that finally got his attention.

he lifted his head slowly. his expression didn’t look angry. it looked flat, bored in a way that stung far worse. one dark eyebrow arched, his gaze sliding over you with deliberate detachment, like he was inspecting something already decided.

“excuse me?” he asked, voice edged with mock confusion. “upset? i work in the kitchen, and you’re a waitress. we’re at work. what is there to be upset about?”

your chest tightened.

“don’t do that,” you whispered. your pulse thudded in your ears, loud enough to drown out the hum of the lights. “we were fine last week.” you took another step toward him, shoes squeaking faintly against the floor. “we were—”

“we were what?”

he turned fully then, dropping the clipboard onto a crate with a loud, echoing clatter. he leaned back against the shelving, crossing his arms over his broad chest, the movement pulling the fabric of his hoodie tight. his eyes were dark, unreadable, fixed on you with an intensity that made your breath catch.

“studying?” he continued, voice sharp. “is that what you call it?”

you flinched despite yourself. 

“you know it’s more than that.” the words came out steadier than you felt.

“i know it’s a waste of my time,” sukuna shot back. he dragged a hand through his hair, fingers catching at the ends like he wanted to rip something out. there was a jagged edge to his laugh, humorless and brittle. “i’m not interested in being the guy you come to when you’re bored of being with your boyfriend. go find satoru. i’m sure he’s got a shiny new car or some bullshit to show you.”

“it’s not like that,” you said, barely louder than a breath. you stepped closer, close enough to feel the heat coming off him, the tension coiled tight in his frame. “i just… it’s not that easy to change everything.”

“it’s actually real easy.” his voice dropped, flattening into something dangerous. he stepped forward, closing the distance until you had to tilt your head back to look at him. the space felt charged, claustrophobic, every breath shared.

“you either want to be with him, or you want to be here,” he said, his face inches from yours, his eyes darting with a jagged sort of loathing toward the collar of your uniform. "i’m done watching you walk in here every other day with a fresh mark on your neck like you're his property." he let out a sharp, breathy sound that was nowhere near a laugh. "i’m not sitting in that truck anymore just to be the guy who cleans up the mess satoru leaves behind. i'm not your therapist, and i'm definitely not his runner-up."

“you think i don’t want to be here?” you shot back, your voice cracking with anger and something close to panic. “you think i’m not thinking about you the whole time i’m with him?”

sukuna let out a short, harsh laugh, shaking his head like he’d expected nothing else. “then do something about it,” he said. “or go back to your ‘perfect’ boyfriend and leave me out of it.”

he turned away with a scoff, angling back toward the crates. it was a dismissal so final it felt like a door had been slammed in your face, leaving you standing in the cold draft of his exit.

the part of you that had always been good—the girl who was careful, who followed rules and kept the peace—knew you were supposed to walk away. 

you were supposed to go back out front, pick up a damp rag, and wipe down counters until the feeling in your chest went numb. you were supposed to pretend your hands weren’t shaking and accept that sukuna was right. you had a boyfriend. you had no business being upset with him for refusing to be your secret anymore.

you stood there, your face burning with a heat that had nothing to do with the cramped storage room and everything to do with the sheer, jagged anger bubbling up in your throat. 

part of you was being unbelievable, you knew that. but wasn’t he, too? he was the one who had let the tension build for months; he was the one who had invited you into his space, only to throw it back in your face the second it became real.

and satoru… satoru wasn’t perfect, but he wasn’t terrible either. 

yes, he was loud, he was self-absorbed, and half the time you felt like an accessory to his life—a pretty girl to sit in the passenger seat of the car his father bought him—but he wasn't bad. he was kind to you in his own shallow way, even if he didn't truly see you, and you knew, deep down in the dark parts of your mind you tried to ignore, that sukuna was not better.

that half of sukuna’s interest in you was rooted in his pure, unadulterated disdain for satoru. it was in the way he looked at the silver of his BMW, the way he sneered at satoru’s name like it was a slur. part of this was a game to him—a way to win a war that had started long before you ever entered the picture.

you were a trophy. a prize to be stolen.

but as you watched the back of his hoodie, the way his shoulders were bunched with tension, you realized you didn't care about being a prize. 

if he was using you to be selfish, why couldn’t you be selfish, too?

why did you have to be the only one who played by the rules while everyone else took what they wanted?

the frustration of the secrets, the stolen looks, and the heat that had been building since ninth grade finally snapped the last thread of your restraint.

you reached out, your fist bunching into the thick, dark fabric of his hoodie, and yanked him back toward you with a strength you didn't know you had. sukuna stumbled back, his eyes widening in a flash of genuine shock. you didn't give him time to recover. you stood on your tiptoes, your fingers white-knuckled in his clothes, and crashed your mouth against his.

sukuna went rigid. for a heartbeat, he was as still as a statue, his hands hovering in the air as the sheer, desperate pressure of your lips against his registered. then, a low, guttural sound broke from the back of his throat—a groan that sounded like a surrender. his hands came up, his large palms sliding down to your waist and hauling you flush against him until there wasn't a breath of air left between you.

t was as if he was trying to kiss the memory of satoru out of your system, trying to overwrite every touch, every laugh, and every brand that arrogant bastard had ever left on you. he wanted to taste the part of you that didn't belong to high-school royalty, the part that was messy and dark and belonged only to him. 

his tongue slid against yours, demanding and possessive, and when you made a small, muffled sound of surrender against his lips, sukuna knew.

he backed you up, his boots heavy on the linoleum, until your spine hit the steel shelving with a sharp clatter of tomato cans. he didn't care. he pinned you there, his body a solid, burning weight against yours. 

one hand moved from your waist to the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair to tilt your head back, exposing the curve of your throat—the place where those marks always sat. he kissed you like he was starving, like he was trying to swallow your very breath.

the world outside the storage room—the hum of the diner, the clink of silverware, satoru’s waiting car—ceased to exist. there was only the rough texture of his tongue, the heat of his skin, and the frantic, syncopated rhythm of two hearts beating in a space they weren't supposed to share.

you kissed him back with a feverish, uncharacteristic hunger, your fingers digging into the muscle of his shoulders, your mind finally quiet for the first time in months. you were breathless, air becoming a luxury neither of you could afford. when he finally pulled back, just an inch, the silence of the room was filled with the sound of your heavy, ragged breathing.

your lips were swollen, stained a deep, kiss-bitten red, and your cheeks were flushed with a heat that made your skin tingle. sukuna’s eyes were dark, roaming over your face with a predatory, satisfied intensity. he looked at your mouth, then up at your eyes, a slow, jagged smirk pulling at the corner of his lips.

he leaned in, his forehead resting against yours, his thumb tracing the swollen line of your lower lip. "so," he rasped, his voice a low, triumphant vibration. "you still think it’s 'not that easy'?"

…

when you left, sukuna watched the storage room door swing shut, the faint click of the latch sounding like a starter pistol in the ringing silence. he leaned back against the steel shelving, his chest still heaving, the metallic taste of you and the faint tang of your lip gloss lingering on his tongue. 

he’d seen the way you scrambled to fix your hair, the frantic way you’d tried to smooth out the wrinkles in your uniform with trembling hands, and that look in your eyes—wide, dark, and utterly shattered by guilt.

he was sure he’d won. he’d felt the way you came apart under his mouth, the way you’d nearly climbed him like a tree just to get closer. 

he walked back to the kitchen with a predatory swagger, convinced that by tomorrow morning, satoru gojo and his stupid ass silver BMW would be a memory and you’d be standing at his locker, finally done with the charade.

but nothing in sukuna’s life had ever been that easy.

the next morning at school was a slow-motion car crash. he was leaning against the lockers, eyes narrowed as he scanned the crowd, waiting for the moment you’d walk in alone. instead, the double doors swung open and there you were—tucked firmly under satoru’s arm. gojo was laughing, probably some loud, obnoxious story about his weekend, his hand splayed possessively over the small of your back. 

your eyes met sukuna’s for one brief, agonizing second; your pupils blown wide, a flash of pure terror crossing your face before you schooled your expression into something blank and stone-cold. you looked at the floor, at your shoes, at anything but the boy who had had his hands up your shirt less than twelve hours ago.

the bile rose in his throat, hot and bitter. but then, three minutes into first period, his phone buzzed in his pocket.

can we talk? after school? back lot?

he spent the whole day imagining the rejection. he had his defense ready, his walls up and reinforced. when he saw you walking toward his rusted red truck in the far corner of the lot, looking frantic and checking over your shoulder every five seconds, he rolled down the window and let out a harsh, dry sound.

“let me guess—” he started, his voice dripping with the armor of his own spite. “it was a mistake. you were caught up in the moment. satoru is such a great guy and you just can’t—”

you didn't let him finish. you reached through the open window, grabbed the front of his shirt, and pulled him into a kiss that tasted like desperation and salt.

before he could even process the shift, you were opening the heavy truck door and climbing over the center console, ignoring the gear shift poking at your thigh as you scrambled into his lap. 

you weren't talking. you weren't explaining. you were just there, your hands buried in his hair, your body trembling against his in the cramped cab.

sukuna didn't waste another second on words. his hands already under your skirt, his fingers hooked into the elastic of your underwear and pulling them aside with a brutal lack of patience, your "good girl" mask seemingly gone with the ring of the last bell.

the second his fingers slid into you—slick, hot, and already yielding—your head fell back against the headrest with a sharp, broken gasp. the sound was like discovering a goldmine. he watched your face as he worked two fingers deep inside you, his thumb grinding against you with a rhythmic, punishing pressure. 

your hair was stuck to your forehead with sweat, your lips swollen and kiss-bitten, and you were making these soft, high-pitched whimpering sounds that made the blood roar in his ears.

you weren't just taking it; you were chasing it. you were grinding down on his hand, your eyes rolled back, all that middle-class poise and church-girl modesty melting away into a puddle on his truck seat, and when you finally came, it was violent—your body locking up, your fingers digging into his shoulders until his skin broke, your voice muffled against the crook of his neck as you sobbed out a quiet, wrecked moan.

and then, just like that, the bubble popped. you sat up, your face pale and your breath hitching. you used the rearview mirror to fix your hair, tucking it behind your ears until you looked like the girl in the satoru gojo photos again. you got out of his truck without a word, the silence in the cab suddenly heavy and suffocating as you straightened your skirt with trembling hands. you were already starting to walk away, your head down and your pace hurried, before you abruptly turned back and tapped on his window.

sukuna rolled it down, his expression a jagged mess of confusion and lingering heat. his brain was still foggy, thick with the echoes of your moans and the way you’d just come apart in his lap. 

he looked at you, waiting for the apology, the "never again," the shattering of the glass—but instead, you just bit your lip, looking at him through your lashes.

"i'll see you sunday?" you asked, your voice barely a whisper, as sukuna, ever the fucking dumbass, just sat there. 

his dick was still tenting his pants, his fingers were still damp with the slick, salt-sweet taste of you, and his pulse was still thundering in his ears. he should have said no, he should have told you to go to hell. instead, he just nodded, a slow, numb movement of his head.

"yeah," he rasped. "sunday."

he watched as you turned and ran off, disappearing toward the other side of the lot to meet with your boyfriend, leaving him alone in the truck with the scent of you on his skin and the taste of his own stupidity in his mouth.

he supposed it was better to have some of you than none of you?

it didn't matter what you did with satoru gojo after that. because every sunday, like clockwork, the same script played out. satoru still believed the "church" excuse you’d fed him months ago—the pure, sweet irony of it making sukuna laugh out loud sometimes. 

while satoru pictured you kneeling in a pew, eyes closed in pious prayer, you were actually kneeling on the floor of sukuna’s truck. he’d shoved the passenger seat all the way back, creating a cramped, dark sanctuary where the only light came from the dim glow of the dashboard.

you were good—terrifyingly good. it wasn't the tentative, shy way he’d imagined a girl like you would handle him; it was hungry and deliberate, sukuna watching you through heavy, hooded lids, his head lolling back against the headrest as your mouth worked over him. the sounds were wet and rhythmic, a soft, slick suction that echoed in the quiet cab. he could feel the heat of your throat, the way you didn't shy away even when he pulsed, and the sensation was so intense it felt like it was hitting him right in the pit of his stomach.

god, if this is how satoru is living, then maybe he really does have it all, sukuna thought, the realization hitting him with a jagged edge of envy. if this was what satoru woke up to, or what he went to sleep with, sukuna could almost understand why the bastard walked around like he owned the sun.

but then he’d look down at the way your fingers were buried in his thighs, the way you were looking up at him with those wide, teary eyes while his cock was buried deep in your throat, and the envy would turn into a sick, twisted pride. 

he always tried to save face, gripping the armrest so hard the plastic creaked, biting back the raw grunts and groans that threatened to spill out. he didn't want to give you the satisfaction of knowing exactly how much power you had over him, but when your tongue swirled around the head of his cock, his hips almost always bucked involuntarily, a low, guttural sound escaping his throat despite his best efforts.

it was filthy. it was perfect. you were filthy. you were perfect.

when he finally came, he would watch, mesmerized, as you took every drop, your waterline turning pink and teary from the depth of him, and when you would finally pulled away, your mouth slick and filled with his salt, a thin, silver string of spit still connecting your bottom lip to the crown of him, you looked wrecked—utterly debased and beautiful.

sukuna couldn’t help but stare at you, his heart hammering a frantic rhythm against his ribs. he was a fucking goner.

he took you in the work parking lot with the engine still idling, in the back of the school lot under the shadow of the bleachers, and once—the riskiest, most delicious time—right outside your own house in the middle of the night. satoru had been away at some leadership conference, and sukuna had pinned you against the side of his truck, the metal cold against your back while he was hot and heavy between your legs.

he watched you try to keep your moans down, your eyes darting toward your parents' darkened windows, and he felt a sick, triumphant thrill. 

satoru might have the car, the expensive watches, and the official title, but sukuna had the sounds you only made in the dark. he had the way you shuddered when he whispered filthy things in your ear. he had the truth of you.

satoru didn't know. and sukuna was going to make sure it stayed that way for as long as he could keep his hands on you.

he relished every moment he bumped into the smug bastard in the hallways. satoru would look at him with that characteristic, lofty amusement, his eyes hidden behind those designer shades as if sukuna were nothing more than a stain on the floor he was forced to walk over. 

gojo would offer a lazy, two-finger wave or a condescending pat on the shoulder if they were close enough, acting like he had everything over sukuna—completely and utterly clueless that it was his girlfriend being fucked senseless by the very guy he thought so little of.

there was one specific afternoon at the diner that sukuna replayed in his head like a favorite movie. satoru had swung by to drop off a textbook you’d forgotten in his car, looking entirely too polished in a white button-down that probably cost more than sukuna’s truck.

sukuna was leaning against the kitchen pass, his arms crossed, a smudge of grease on his cheek and his eyes narrowed. satoru spotted him through the window, and that familiar, annoying twinkle of amusement lit up his eyes.

"still back there, ryomen?" satoru drawled, leaning against the counter and flashing a grin that was way too bright for a greasy diner. "man, i don't know how you do it. the smell of old fries and desperation would've killed me by now. it’s a good thing someone like you is around to do the heavy lifting, though. keeps the world clean for the rest of us, right?"

you were standing right there, your hand hovering over the textbook satoru had just set down. your face went pale, your fingers twitching.

sukuna didn't even blink. he just let out a low, dry chuckle, his gaze shifting from satoru’s face to yours—lingering just a second too long on your mouth.

"yeah, satoru. i'm real good at cleaning up," sukuna replied, his voice like velvet over gravel. "it's funny, though. you'd be surprised how much dirt people manage to hide even when they look 'clean' on the outside. but don't worry—i make sure to get into all the spots you seem to miss."

satoru just laughed, completely missing the subtext, his ego too big to even imagine a world where he was the punchline. "good man. keep up the hard work."

but you didn't miss it.

sukuna saw the exact moment the words hit you, your entire body freezing, shoulders going rigid as you stared at the counter. you knew exactly which "spots" he was talking about. you knew the way his hands felt when they were buried in you, the way his voice sounded when he told you to forget satoru's name. 

satoru patted the counter one last time and walked out, the bell above the door chiming with a cheerful ring that felt like a joke.

sukuna just stayed there, watching you through the glass. he watched the way you finally exhaled, a shaky, trembling breath, before you tucked the book under your arm and hurried toward the back.

satoru didn't know—but you sure as hell did, and that was so much better.

…

the windows of the van were completely opaque, slick with condensation that blurred the world outside into a dark, grey nothingness. you were pressed face-first against the cool glass, your knees digging deep into the cracked seat as sukuna loomed behind you. 

his hands were clamped onto your waist, his fingers digging into your skin with a bruising, possessive grip that anchored you as he drove into you with a steady, punishing rhythm.

"fuck, kuna… right there," you managed to choke out, your forehead thumping against the glass as a wave of heat rolled over you. your fingers were clawing at the headrest, your back arched, and every time he hit that specific, aching spot, your toes curled against the seat.

then, the sharp, upbeat ringtone of your phone pierced through the humid silence of the truck.

the sound was like a bucket of ice water. you froze, your muscles locking up around him as your eyes went wide, reflecting in the dark glass of the window. sukuna didn't stop, but he slowed down, his chest huffing against your back as he leaned over to look at the screen lighting up on the dashboard.

satoru's face was grinning back at him from the caller ID.

"shit," you hissed, reaching out with a trembling hand to grab the device.

sukuna let out a low, dark chuckle against the shell of your ear, his breath hot and smelling of mint. he didn't pull out. instead, he stayed buried deep inside you, his hands migrating from your waist to your hips to hold you still. you swiped the screen, your heart hammering against your ribs so hard you were sure satoru would hear it through the speaker.

"h-hey baby," you breathed, trying desperately to steady the ragged, heavy hitch of your lungs.

sukuna stayed perfectly still for a second, watching you with a predatory intensity. you couldn't hear satoru’s exact words, but the low, cheerful vibration of his voice hummed against your ear, sounding so oblivious and bright that it made your stomach flip with a fresh wave of guilt.

you went to respond, your mouth open to say mhm, but sukuna chose that exact moment to slowly, agonizingly sink back into you.

"m-mhm," you stuttered, your voice breaking as your internal walls fluttered and spasmed around him. a long, shaky exhale left your lips, and you squeezed your eyes shut, trying to fight the urge to moan.

sukuna was being relentless. he began to move again—not with the fast, driving force from before, but with a slow, grinding thrust that felt twice as deep. he was watching the back of your head, a slow smirk spreading across his face as he felt the way you were struggling.

you twisted your head back, shooting him a frantic, watery glare, but he just leaned down and grabbed your waist, pulling you back even harder against him. his other hand reached around, pressing flat against your lower stomach to feel the solid, rhythmic slide of himself moving inside you.

"you okay?" satoru’s voice crackled, sounding a little more focused now. "you sound out of breath."

"y-yeah," you gasped, your voice trembling as sukuna hit a shallow, sensitive angle. "i'm okay. my mom is... she's making me take nobara's bike out of s-storage so she can go with her—” you paused taking a deep, shuddering breath, “—her troupe. and the stuff is... um, it's heavy."

on the other end, satoru let out a light, airy chuckle. he said something else—something about seeing you later, something about how hard you always worked—while sukuna’s thumb began to work in circles against your hip bone, his rhythm picking up speed.

"okay, love you, bye!" you blurted out, the words tripping over each other in your rush to end the call.

you hit the end button and threw the phone onto the seat, spinning around as much as the cramped space would allow to curse him out. "sukuna, you fucking—"

your words were cut off by his mouth crashing against the side of your neck. he didn't let you finish, his hands hooking under your thighs to lift you up and pin you against the side of the vehicle as he drove into you with a renewed, frantic energy.

"shhhhh," he murmured against your skin, his voice a dark, vibrating command as you let out a string of soft, broken ahs against his shoulder. "he doesn't know, remember? keep it that way."

…

and that was how things would usually go—a cycle of high-stakes risk and jagged, heavy heat.

sometimes you’d show up with a fresh mark on your neck, a pale, fading hickey from satoru that acted like a red cape to a bull. sukuna wouldn't even say a word about it; he’d just stare at it with a dark, simmering possessiveness before pinning you down and kissing right over it, his teeth grazing your skin until his own brand had completely overwritten the other. 

he fucked you harder on those days, his movements filled with a silent, vengeful energy that left you shaking for an hour afterward, your legs feeling like lead and your mind a complete, static-filled mess.

he relished in the way you’d have to fix your makeup in his cracked side-mirror, the way you’d have to scrub the scent of him off your skin before going home, and the way you still couldn't look him in the eye at the diner the next morning. 

he loved that he was the secret that was slowly eroding your "good girl" foundation, the one thing in your life that satoru's money and family and lawyers could never touch.

you were his. even if the world didn't see it, even if you were still wearing satoru’s promise ring, even if you still sat in that silver BMW every single morning. sukuna had the parts of you that mattered. he had the truth.

and even after all that, satoru still didn’t know.

synopsis: nerdjo overhears his brother making a bet that he can get you into his bed- now he has to decide on how to tell you, or if you'll beat him to the punch. pairing(s): nerdjo x fem!reader x fratjo c.w. & w.c.: 5k - :: plot :: more plot :: smut with plot :: p in v :: happy ending :: fratjo gets humiliated

satoru knew how his playboy brother, satori was. he really did. he knew him better than anyone else- they both did, as much as they fought to deny the allegations.

satoru was the younger twin of the two, his nose shoved into a textbook with his glasses sliding down his nose every few seconds.

while satori was the frat god, he liked to call himself who was sleeping with a new girl every other night and getting drunk or high at every single party.

satoru wasn't meant to hear the conversation happening in the other room, all he was doing was bringing some notes over to the frat house that satori surprisingly asked for with midterms coming up that weren't so important until their parents threatened not to pay for his tuition if he failed one more time.

i guess it becomes important when the only way you can get girls is the title you have behind your name with being a frat president.

all he could hear was laughs when he stepped through the door until geto's voice finally cracked through the humor. "you couldn't get with her even if you paid her."

"you wanna put money on that?" satori. of course, using money and bets like no other. "guaranteed, i could have her on a date by friday at 6 and my bed by 7."

satoru had no idea who they were talking about, all he knew was that his skin was crawling from listening to his brother make bets and gambles on women like they were simple property that he could buy, fuck and toss back into the gutter.

before he could bear to hear anything else disgusting fly from their lips, he adjusted his glasses and knocked on the entry wall, finally snapping their attention from their meaningless conversation.

satori's head snaps over at the sound before his eyes light up at his younger twin and satoru is already sure, confident even- that it isn't because he's holding the notes to his name keeping of 'president'.

"took you long enough, yeah?" satori says, covering it as a joke but really he's just an ungrateful little shit.

"i was studying." satoru isn't one to hold back his punches, at least not with satori. he knows ball when it comes to his brother. "i actually believe in passing exams, not just when a title is threatened."

"what titles do you have again?" satori's eyes narrow when asking the question. "i don't think 'nerd' is exactly a panty dropper"

satoru couldn't resist the urge to roll his eyes at that comment or the fact that geto was holding back the laughter of a hyena but before he can make a comeback, satori is already talking again.

"hey, you know that girl in your physics class? real pretty eyes with the- the- the hair?" satori asks, waving his hands in gestures towards his eyes and hair.

satoru lets out a huff before pleasing him with an answer. "they all have pretty eyes and they all have hair, satori. do you care to be anymore vague?"

"i dont know! the girl who sits right behind you."

oh.

her.

you.

"what about her?" there is a hesitation in satoru's voice. what would satori want with you?

satoru internally recoils at his own thought. what wouldn't satori want with you? you were pretty, beautiful even with a smile that always met your eyes and one of the softest voices he's ever heard. you were an angel in disguise, he'd already convinced himself of that.

satori snatches the notes from satoru's hands before his thoughts can trail him away any further. "do you have her number?"

god, he wishes he did.

"no and even if i did, which i dont. why would i give it to you?"

"i should've known better than to ask you, what girls numbers do you have in your phone besides our mothers?"

that finally got a reaction from geto, finally cracking at the expense of satoru with a snort.

satoru rolls his eyes, ignoring the anger bubbling inside his chest before walking back towards the front door. "i want those notes back, don't let anything happen to them."

"i'll protect them with my life."

sure he will.

the weekend passed slowly after leaving the frat house, satoru's phone being pinged every few minutes by satori asking for more notes or why some notes were missing, and further asking about you.

"can you get me her number?" "i'll text you what to say to her, i know you'll have no idea." "i need her number." "i have $500 on this, help big bro 'tori out."

satoru doesn't remember muting his texts. he was tired of his brother trying to get with women on the pretense of money and bets alone and not actually wanting to get to know them and building a happy relationship with them while satoru believed women should be worshiped and prized.

as if satoru and satori didn't even look alike, all that was different was the fact that satoru wore glasses and satori didn't. big difference, apparently.

****

monday rolled around in a blur, there were no more texts from satori when his eyes finally pried open at the sound of his alarm.

satoru rolled towards the blaring sound before slamming his arm down on his snooze button before swinging his legs around and placing his feet into his slippers resting right beside him on the floor.

satoru would see you today, he always does. sitting right behind him in class, catching whiffs of your perfume every few minutes. it was always a fruity scent, strawberry's or coconut seemed to be your favorites- the thought of it alone causes his heart to speed up just barely before his chest is quickly constricted by the thought of satori seeing you too.

he should tell you. you're too sweet for your own good, always trying to see the best in people, never doubting anyone. you probably wouldn't have a single negative thought on satori stopping you in-between classes to coax you into a date just to be spreading your legs for him hours later on friday.

satoru stretches his arms above his head with a groan before finally standing to get ready in hopes to make it to class before he has to squeeze through the student body just to make it in one piece.

his thoughts don't leave him as he prepares for class, trying to figure out what to say to you, wondering how he can explain how his brother is a slob who just wants women for his own pleasure and release.

the walk to class from his dorm was quick, dodging bodies left and right in the hall and the few couples he mentally gagged at who already had their tongues down each others throats at eight o'clock in the morning.

what he didn't expect to see when he rounded the corner to walk into physics was you shoving satori away from your personal space.

"stay the fuck away from me you freak!" you shouted right into the face of satori, cheeks flushed and chest heaving.

you were already turning and walking away when satori shouted back to you, causing every head to turn towards the commotion . "i made reservations! i even asked utahime what you liked so i knew where to take you!"

pathetic and desperate.

your steps slowed before coming to a stop, turning around to face him, feet away now but eyes narrowed in on him like laser beams.

"i don't want your reservations- just how your parents didn't want a fucked up 2 piece," you cut back, your tone is cold and icy but not a single ounce of hesitation in your voice. "be more like your brother and less like a disappointment, maybe you'll finally make mommy and daddy proud."

the hall is filled with "ooohs" and cackles as you walk away, not turning around this time not even when you hear satori grumbling something under his breath about money being lost out on.

satori's eyes land on his brother, narrowing in before speed walking in his direction like a man on fire.

"you told her something, didn't you?" ah. there it is. always blaming it on someone and never himself.

satoru sighs and pushes his glasses back up before answering. "i didn't tell her anything." it's not a lie, he didn't utter a single word to you. "word just. . .gets around about you."

"what is that supposed to mean?" satori questions, the disbelief in satori's voice is astronomical, as if he doesn't know he's slept with half of the campus and word doesn't get around.

"it means that not every girl on campus wants to sleep with you. . .or even be within a few feet of you, apparently."

satori doesn't give satoru the satisfaction of a reply before stomping down the hall, opposite direction of where you went.

as if he would want a reply. he could barely even tolerate his brother more than half of the time. he thought he was disgusting, even more so confident on the fact that he was carrying some form of std from the pill bottle he caught a glimpse of once when visiting.

whatever. satoru adjusted his bag before finishing his walk into physics class where he's gonna hear the same monotone voice talking about energy, forces and electricity like he doesn't know about it all already, correcting his professor from time to time without shame.

stepping inside of the room, there you were. same spot as always, one seat directly behind him. you appeared calmer now, relaxed with that half smile you always wore on your face. nothing like the look you had just minutes ago when you were shouting in his brothers face, humiliating him in front of everyone.

satoru moved to his seat, sitting down and pulling out what he needed before waiting on the professor to come in. and there it was, that whiff of your perfume filling his nose. it was different today, more floral smelling than the fruity ones you'd typically wear.

not that he was noticing, of course.

satoru felt the lightest touch on his shoulder before a warm breath hit the back of his neck, sending a chill down his spine.

"hey. i'm sorry for about yelling at your brother," you whisper to him, your tone is almost regretful. probably feeling guilty about seeming mean and making his brother the joke of the hallway. "i should've controlled myself better."

satoru leans back a little in his seat to whisper back to you, catching a glimpse of your eyes when he turns his head. "don't be, he's a pig."

your eyes widen just slightly before letting out the smallest sound that sounded a lot like a giggle. "i've heard too much about him, he was coming on strong, like a desperate puppy. . .and he smelled like whiskey." you say in disgust.

satoru is about to whisper something back when the door is swung open and the professor walks in, already looking like he's regretting every decision he's ever made, especially applying for this job where he teaches students where half of them aren't even paying attention.

apparently, you're one of those students today.

you've always had the softest crush on satoru. constantly sitting behind him, wishing you could just drag your fingers through his pearly white hair. you wish you could drag them along other unholy things.

you didn't think he was interested in you like that, you were more than sure on it. throughout "knowing" each other, he had barely looked at you unless you were asking for a spare pencil or notes that you missed the teacher saying because you were too entranced by him.

little did your sweet self know, he'd been watching you for a while now and wishing he could just man up long enough to ask for your number to again, build the courage to ask you out. something his brother didn't have the brains to do with any female.

the lecture drones on for another hour before everyone is finally being dismissed, nobody paying attention to the professor when he tells them to study for the pending exam on friday, except maybe satoru. no surprise.

satoru notices you're already gone from the class when he finally prys his eyes and ears away from the professors last second spew.

he wants to take his shot, he really does.

his feet are already moving in the direction you walked off in before he can talk himself back from it, weaving through bodies again from other classes being released and filling the halls.

he thinks he's completely lost you until he turns the corner and sees you at the far end of the hall.

what is he even supposed to say to you? how do you get a girls number? maybe he really should've taken satori up on his offer for those tips a while back.

no. no. no. he'll think of something, anything- satoru pulls a pencil from his backpack quickly finishing the distance between the two of you.

"hey!" satoru calls out, voice barely shakey as he forces to stabilize it.

this is going to go poorly, he's sure of it.

you turn to find satoru walking up to you, his frames sliding down his nose with a shy smile coming to greet his lips. the sight makes your heart pound a little faster.

"hi satoru, everything okay?"

"uh. yeah, you forgot this." satoru holds up the pencil in shakey between two shakey fingers.

you bite your lip to suppress the grin that's fighting to escape before you actually do take the pencil, his pencil- from his hands. you didn't even use a pencil today, only a pen.

"thank you- that's, uhm..kind of you." you say sweetly, there is a hint of disappointment in your tone that you hope he doesn't catch.

but he does. of course, the observant nerd catches everything.

you're about to walk away again when his hand lands on your shoulder. "could i. . .get your number?" satoru? asking for your number? you swear the world stopped spinning even just for a minute.

satoru notices your hesitation before quickly trying to cover it up in a panic. "if thats not okay, dont worry about it! i don't want to make you-"

"no! no, it's okay, promise." you rush out before pulling your phone from your pocket and passing it into his hands. "just put your number in my phone, i'll text you later."

and that's exactly where it all started after he quickly placed his number in, not actually believing that you'd even send him a text. but you did.

you and satoru had been texting the entire week, sharing stupid meme's or it was mainly you asking if he had any notes from class because you weren't focusing again. eyes locked in on his hands that you noticed grew larger with veins when he'd fist his hand around whatever he decided to write with.

you wish his hands would wrap around your-

"young lady! are you paying attention?" your professor calls out, dragging every eye in the classroom into your direction. "the exam is about to start and i am giving out instructions, it's best you pay attention."

"oh. uh- yeah, sorry!" you stammer out in embarrassment. "please, continue."

you notice satoru's shoulders shaking just barely in front of you, earning himself a light punch to the back. you two had grown close in the short period of time. you learned he was easy to talk to and not some stuck up asshole nerd who used his parents money to his advantage, he would actually make jokes, mainly at his own expense or his brothers but he was funny. and sweet.

the buzzer went off indicating the exam had started and it was time to laser focus in. no more thoughts of him. not right now. not when your grade depended on him and not thoughts of his cock that you wish he'd pound into you with until your legs were shaking and sore.

the exam passed faster than you expected before the professors voice sliced through the quiet, telling everyone to put their pencils aside and that he would be around to pick them up.

while you waited for him to slowly make it to your desk to gather the paper, you couldn't stop yourself and you didn't want to. you lean forward, whispering to satoru. "hey, do you wanna come watch a movie tonight?"

there was a singular beat of hesitation before: "yeah, what movie?"

"do nerds still like star wars?" you ask playfully, already knowing the answer. it's not like he hasn't mentioned it six thousand times.

there's a huff with his signature grin that makes your toes curl in on themselves. "the return of the jedi- or the deal is off."

you bite back a laugh as the professor finally grabs your paper so you can leave. "deals on." you whisper back before standing to leave.

the nerves in your stomach tighten at the thought of him being in your dorm room, that close, that type of closeness where you could just- no. relax.

you have to at least shave first before the unholy thoughts take over.

you rush back to your dorm, not even waiting for another word from satoru before locking yourself in the bathroom.

"okay. okay, okay, this is okay- he's just going to be here to watch a movie, that's all." you whisper to yourself. why are you so nervous? he's so gentle, so warm.. so so fuckable.

you quickly undress and hop into the shower, mentally preparing to shave every crevice of your body, exfoliating every inch of your skin and using your best smelling body soaps.

you step out after about 30 minutes, chest heaving slightly. you really forgot the work it takes to put into an everything shower.

you're in the middle, well, you're finishing blow drying your hair when you notice the time- 5:57pm. satoru is supposed to be there at 6pm and he's always on time. for everything.

and there it is. 2 firm knocks landing on your door. three minutes early. that fucker. he would show up early for star wars, wouldn't he?

you turn off your blow dryer, thanking the heavens that you were actually able to finish drying your hair so you didn't look like a waterboarded rat before bolting to the door.

"you got this, turn the knob." you pep talk yourself, heart pounding faster before turning the knob to show satoru on the other side. dressed in plain blue jeans and a black tee. well, that's a little different from his vests.

"hi"

"hi"

"uh-" you step back a little to open the door more. "you can come in, the movie is already in, if you want to start it."

satoru steps in and hands you a small purple baggy. "this is for you. just a small bag of candy- i always see you sneaking these between classes."

he noticed that? your heart swells at the thought of you being watched. . .wait, should that concern you? no. no. he's pretty, it doesn't matter.

you give him a soft smile, pulling the candy out and popping it open. "thank you, that's so sweet of you" god. you just wanna pounce on him for a bag of candy. you hate him for making you so weak.

you and satoru settle on the bed once he starts the movie. close, probably too close, you can smell the exact cologne he put on. sauvage by dior.

the little things you notice are cute. how his fingers rub against each other during the tense scenes, how his eyes focus in when it gets to a fight scene.

"they're preparing to confront the galactic empire." satoru whispers, eyes not leaving your television.

you can't hold back anymore, you're wet alone from watching his hands, his fingers and seeing the veins in his hands bulge out more than they do in class.

"have you ever fucked a girl?"

oh. that really did just come out like that.

satoru blinks before turning his head to look at you. "what?"

well, can't go back on it now. "have you ever had intercourse. . .with a female?"

"uhm-"

you trail your fingers along the hem of his collar, leaning in enough that your breathe fans over his lips. "y'know, sticking your cock inside of a girls-"

"i know what you mean." satoru chokes out, cheeks glowing red in embarrassment of being put on the spot. "uh- yeah, i have."

you blink, truth be told you're a little surpised and satoru can see it all over your face.

"satori," he starts, already regretting the story before it starts. "he hooked me up with one of his friends before coming to college. . .im clean, i mean- i promise."

why are you not surpised at the fact satori would do something like that.

"you haven't had sex with anyone since then?" you ask him, not wanting to embarrass him any further but leaning in more boldly to place light kisses along his neck.

"uh- no, no i haven't"

"do you want to?"

satoru's answer doesn't come in words, just him grabbing your face to pull your mouth onto his. everything heats up quickly after that, tongues fighting for dominance while broken moans are shared between bitten lips.

satoru pulls back from the kiss, looking you in the eyes through his now tilted frames. "are you sure you want to? with me?"

you bite your lip before grinding your hips into his. "yeah, i only want you 'toru"

that's all he needs to hear before he's removing his glasses and slamming his lips back onto yours.

you reach down tugging on the end of his shirt before he's pulling it off in a hurry and you doing the exact same in return, you didn't bother with a bra after your shower, leaving you bare chested in front of him.

his breath catches hard the second your bare tits press against his chest. skin on skin after all the layers feels obscene in the best way. satoru’s hands are everywhere- greedy, reverent, shaking just enough to betray how badly he’s been thinking about this.

“fuck,” he breathes against your mouth, “you’re so- you’re perfect.”

"so are you."

one palm slides up your spine, fingers splaying wide like he’s trying to memorize every bone of your vertebrae, while the other cups your breast, thumb brushing over your nipple once, twice, then pinching just hard enough to make you moan and gasp into his kiss.

you can already feel how hard he is through his jeans- thick, insistent, twitching every time your hips roll against his. begging to be freed.

the movie in the background long forgotten now, just the barely heard sounds of light sabers clashing, ewoks screeching- but it might as well all be static to you in this moment.

your fingers fumble only for a second at the button of his jeans before it pops open.the zipper comes down with a soft rasp that feels deafening under the muffled blaster fire and john williams score leaking from your tiny dorm tv. satoru’s breath hitches when your knuckles graze the straining outline of him through the denim.

he lifts his hips to help you- impatient and greedy and you drag both jeans and black boxer briefs down his thighs in one rough motion. his cock springs free, thick and flushed dark red at the tip, already glistening with pre-cum that beads at the slit and slowly slides down the underside of his cock. the sight makes your mouth water and your core clench around nothing.

“fuck,” satoru exhales, voice cracked. his hands flex against your hips like he’s trying not to grab too hard. “you’re gonna kill me, baby.”

you don’t answer with words. instead you wrap your fingers around him- hot, velvet-hard, pulsing- and give one slow, deliberate stroke from base to tip causing his whole body to jerk forward in motion.

“shit- wait, wait- ” he gasps, but his hips buck into your fist anyway, chasing the friction.

you smear the leaking pre-cum down his length with your thumb, circling the sensitive ridge under the head until his abs clench and his thighs tremble. he’s so responsive it’s addictive- every twitch, every choked sound, every time the pretty blue of his eyes goes glassy and unfocused.

you never would've guessed.

you shift forward on your knees, straddling his lap properly now. the damp heat between your legs brushes the underside of his cock and he whimpers, actually whimpers, high and desperate.

“‘toru,” you murmur against the shell of his ear, letting the wet tip of him nudge at your folds, slipping through your slick without pushing in yet. “you’re shaking.”

“‘cause you’re fucking dripping on me,” he grits out. one hand flies up to grip the back of your neck, keeping your foreheads pressed together. “can feel how wet you got just from jerking me off. you want it that bad?”

you answer by rocking your hips forward, letting his cock slide along your slit, coating him until he’s shiny with your juices. the head catches on your clit with every pass and you both moan- yours softer, his broken and loud enough that you’re suddenly glad your roommate is away for the weekend.

“say it,” he pants, voice gravel-rough, different than you've ever heard from him. “tell me you want my cock inside you. right now. while Luke’s out there fighting jabba’s goons.”

you laugh breathlessly, but it turns into a whimper quickly as you flip the both of you over, notching him at your entrance and starting to sink down.

the stretch is filthy- slow at first, then faster as your body remembers how much it wants him. inch by thick inch he fills you until your ass meets his thighs and he’s buried to the hilt. you both freeze for a heartbeat, breathing each other’s air.

satoru’s hands clamp onto your waist like he’s afraid you’ll disappear. “oh my god,” he chokes. “you’re- so fucking -nghh- tight. warm.”

you clench around him on purpose just to hear the strangled noise he makes before you start moving.

slow rolls at first- lifting until only the head is inside, then dropping back down, feeling every vein, every ridge drag against your walls. his eyes roll back; long fingers dig into your ass, spreading you open a little wider like he wants to feel even deeper.

“harder,” he begs after only a minute. “please- baby, fuck me like you mean it.”

you plant your hands on his chest for leverage and start riding him as requested- hard, wet slaps of skin on skin that drown out the movie. his cock hits that spot inside you over and over until your thighs burn and your rhythm stutters.

your moans filling the air, the smell of sex becoming an overpowering smell.

satoru suddenly sits up, arms banding around your back, mouth crashing into yours in a messy, open-mouthed kiss. he thrusts up to meet every downward grind, fucking into you with sharp, hungry snaps of his hips.

“gonna come so fast,” he warns against your lips, voice wrecked. “been thinking about this- about you- for fucking months. you feel too good- too wet- fuck- ”

you reach between your bodies, fingers finding your clit, rubbing fast little circles while he pounds up into you.

“come with me,” you gasp. “please, want to feel you fill me up inside-”

that does it for him.

his rhythm falters, hips slamming up once, twice- before he buries himself as deep as he can go and comes with a long, guttural moan that vibrates through your chest. you feel the hot pulses of him spilling into you, the way his cock kicks and throbs, and it tips you over the edge right after him. your walls clamp down hard, milking every drop while your vision whites out and pleasure crashes through you in brutal waves.

for several heartbeats you just cling to each other, panting, sweaty, still joined.

you both collapse together onto the bed, tangled in the sheets and each other. satoru pulls you closer, glasses still long forgotten, his arms wrapping around you, pulling you closer into his chest like he never wants to let go. his heartbeat thumps under your ear, grounding you in the moment, this moment with him.

"you're amazing," he whispers, his long fingers tracing lazy shapes on your back. "i can't believe this is real."

you smile before pressing a gentle kiss onto the nape of his neck. "it is and it's perfect."

he reaches for the remote, turning the volume up as the end credits roll over the screen with a chuckle. "next time, we'll actually watch the movie."

"next time?"

"yeah-" his tone is warm and his eyes full of promises he would keep. "every time. with you."

your heart swells warmly at his words and snuggle deeper into his chest, content in the quiet warmth with the nerd you've always had the softest spot for. knowing this is only the beginning.

tw: minors dni, bullying, foul language, dub-con, fem anatomy, nsfw, slight dacryphilia, pervert satoru, panty stealing, harassment, use of the word bitch, black mail, non-consensual recording

synopsis: in which nerdjo has simply had enough of your shit and decides to give you more than just your math homework.

The guard guiding you to your cell snorts when you ask if you’ll have your own space. You can’t exactly explain to him that you’re a woman disguised as a man and need your privacy. Perhaps you’re in over your head.

You gulp as you peek around the loud prison. Large men stare as you pass by. It’s clear they’ve made this place like home, clothes lines full of laundry, some playing card games, comfy slippers, lounging on the tables or mingling about.

“Here you are,” the guard stops in front of an open cell, rolling out his hand, “your penthouse suite.”

It looks like a stale dorm room for the most part. Two metal single beds, a metal toilet, two desks. And zero privacy.

Your supposed cellmate is doing pull ups on a makeshift bar in the middle of the room. His large bare, tatted back faces you, bulging arms, baggy sweatpants, and a head of pure pink hair. He’s grunting with every pull up, but they still seem chillingly effortless.

The guard leans his shoulder against the doorway. “Ryomen,” he whistles loudly as if to get a bull’s attention. “Got a new friend for you.”