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some adults aren't so grown up..

also, if ya wanna hear about my trip >_> loooooonnngggg rant ahead lol XD

i think uhb mynlike biggest caviat was that i had two roomates, right? and we spent a lil bit over two weeks toghether, right?

so one of my roomates, leeets call em A, so me and A have met up many times before, A is actually that one ftiend I said I found out lived in a city near mine so I gotnup and one day randomlyl decided to go to it in public yransport alone XD

and we have met up COUNTLESS times in the last year we have known each other, and we are CLOSE. and when i say close i mean that we will lay on top of each other, cuddle to sleep, and they keep biting me, we g8ve ecah other forehead kisses, etc (on the teip one time they even bit my shoulder/neck and accidentally left a fucking mark LMAO) all COMPLETELLY PLATONICALLY! we are just two clingy mfs lol XD

but like the first times we met we were not that close, i think we like hugged once to greet each other as it's custom where we live the first time, it's just that over time we got closer and closer, yeah?

now, the thing is, my third griend, let's call them B, is also rather clingy. THE THING IS. that was our first time meeting up! cus they live IN ANOTHER CONTINENT, kay? so like, there is a humongus divide on hoe confortable me and A are with each other, and how confortable both of us are with B, obviouslly

but like......... B did not.......... rlly get that? ig??

and the rhing is, ok, i don't mind hugs! i love hugs! i am THE HUGGER!!! as i said, i' clingy! but i jsut..... did not rlly feel the want or the confort with B, and B was kinda jelaous ofonhow close me and A were

so it would be an awnkward situation where B would often complain like "I'm not getting my cuddles" as if... they were entitled to it? entitled to being hugged and cuddled and kissed? and oh my gosh they WHINED.

now the thing is, whinning is fine, A whines too lol, I whine, but it was constant, all the time, and when we asked what was wrong? wich we did mutiple times, they would just whine kore, the most i got, because i' closer with B, was someyimes a bit kore whine and a head movement, or rarelly a short reply, and they would not stop

like they would whine and we would pry about it and they would be like "cuddles" at best and i jsut felt ynconfortable.

one time like B touched my rattail, and I expresses my disconfort and tild them to not touch it without asking, so they touched it again, without asking, and i said once more for them to not do that, and touched it again and asked while still touching so i told them no and moved away (and ofc they whined about it)

it was constant, it was suffocating, it was overwhelming, it was annoying, irritating, it was bad. yeah.

oh and also also? that was not all, no no no

so for the first week, the three of us did not go out, it was fun! but we just stayed in, till B started complaining about it

the thing is, okay, B conplains, but then they did. nothing. about it.

they kept constantlly saying "you guys plan ehatever i'll just go", and i get the sentiment, yk being like "i'm not gonna be on the way", but that's not how it came across at all, because hownit felt for me and A was that B eanted us to do everything, wich, yeah, B did

and when A saw me getting overwhelmed andntored of B complayning and not doing anything (even tho I sent mutiple suggestions, many places, museums, parks, etc etc etc, and they did not even react to any of it), A helped (well, A did most of it tbh...) me plan a few things the thing is we also had to plan around that I am hurt and B has mobility issues, so we could not just like go to a park and walk around or smth

and the worst part? on one of those days we had stuff planned we did notngo becaude A was hurting, it was nothing and it passed but A was like in serious pain yk, couldn't go, so I stayed, B stayed too

and on another day??? B complained????? complained about us not goinf when A WAS IN PAIn?????

so in resume B would do much of nothing and then complain and complain and complain about everything :/

and also here is like the biggesr fucking thing yeah? so uhm ok so i' plural, and B considers one of my headmates as a uncle, not gonna go into it, but anoways this headmates is annoying, on purpose, he is fun and charismatic and obnoxious on purpose and he is happy and not hurting anyone, he also has a shit eating grin

thing is first time he fronted? everytime he did smth annoying, like teasing B, B would SLAP HIS FACE??? like not stronglly, it was light, but it lowkey pissed us off lol because the distespect?

there ar eprobably othwr things, but i've either forgotten them cus i lowkey dissociated lol or i don't wanna go intonot XP

still liked the trip tho :3 it was rlly good living toghether with A, I actually wanna live with them fr yk? This was a lot of a test run for us lol ^_^ and overall? we worked toghether rlly well, we r like Jesse and James XP

tho we ordered TOO MUCH FAST FOOD DX cus both A and B have difficulty eith food so yhere was not a lot to cook (i don't tho so if they felt full or nauseous or anything i would wolf it all down nonproblem XP once ate like.... what amounted to a total of 3 burguers and some fties plus juice LOL)

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I'm also shy so don't worry,,, and best friends is the biggest title I can think of for us! the top of the pyramid lulz,,,,

That didn't seem really like a nice trip ESPECIALLY with B.. GET A GRIP B!!! but seriously I'm happy you had fun atleast with A!!! you both seem to have a very nice and comfortable presence with each other and I'm happy you have someone you can be yourself with <33/p for B...

Welp , I don't even know what to say about them... Kinda like a jerk but in that loser way jerk idk how to call it LMAO and if they want to be clingy they can find someone and not you! Like srs,, (⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠)

about the headmate,,, the slap I DO also think it was disrespectful asf especially if they aren't host on co-host, liek???? weird shit,,,,

💛- you’re the best jirai blogger.

💓- you make me happy 

💘- when I saw your blog it was love at first sight 

🤍- I see all of your posts, but I don’t like them because I’m scared you won’t like me 

tbh, i did think maybe a bit too hard about thr "you are my friend/sibling/bestie" ones, idk what i see you as, idk what u see me as, other then yk, anon and blogger, lol, maybe we're just that, maybe we're not, idk :p

whadya think? what do you see me as, buddy? /nf

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- Of course!!! I'd never break contact if I don't sabotage it myself !

- as if you don't make me happy too... hehhehehehehehdhdhxhc✌️ (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) ✌️

- at first sight..? I wasn't blooming as a jiraiblog then.. im happy tho!

- of course I do like you! Don't be scared to interact :p

I see you as an anonymous best friend,,, if that makes sense (⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠) liek we don't really know each other, but know we are best friends for EVER!

🩵 - Favorite colour?

🩶 - Do you prefer listening or talking?

🖤 - Do you have any very specific interests?

💙 - Do you have a favorite number?

🪽 - What's something that you love about someone very intently?

🩻 - What's your favorite organ/body part?

💉 - What's the worst thing you thought of doing to someone?

🌀 - I really wanna int more

🎶 - I wish we were closer

💫 - You're one of my favorite moots

🕸 - I find you interesting

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I will!!!!

- purple..

-i like listening more.

- .... earthquakes...

- 7 , 13 , 9 !

- good question ! I think it's how they can be comfortable around me and not break boundaries that probably everyone has ( liek touching around THOSE parts , mentioning trauma ect )

- killing them? theres probably worse but Tumblr is "nah we ban you bye"

- sure!!! I'm open to interacting :p

- same.. life is cruel (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

- I'm happy you think that!!!

- you're also interesting in your own way sunny.. I'd love to learn more about you

i saw your request blog and it's rlly blooming!!!!! it's going so well! so many requests! and they all look so pretty too!!! good job :D

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thank yoyoouuu!!! I'm trying my best even tho most of the time 0 motivation... (⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠)

i've gotten back home yesterday and OH BOY lol it waz like.... so tiring XP

cuz like remmeber how my ankle is twisted and my other knee is fuked? yeah so, even with that, i was sstill the syeongest of the three XP

so i kinda had to like take the heavy bags and such lol

oh also ( ≖ _≖ ) i have liek XD kinda some to complain ngllll but I'l hold it for nwo lmaoo

aniways hoep you've beenndoing wrll~~ yime to stalk ur blog again (｡ゝᴗ•) ᯓᡣ𐭩

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sunny hey!!! Welcome back!!!!

With all that.. still being the strongest AND bravest... they could help.

nooo I'll hear you out don't worry... I like listening to people even if my responces are always ass

I'm been doing fine too..! making cosplays, rehab ect,,,, and stalking my blog ehehehh,,, \⁠(⁠๑⁠╹⁠◡⁠╹⁠๑⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♬