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You’re beautiful, amazing, smart, sexy, fun, mysterious and so worth it.

I appreciate what your energy brings into my life and if nothing else happens between us, you changed my life.

I don’t understand it sometimes but honestly, it’s your energy. It’s powerful and encouraging. It feels safe, secure, wild, free, fun, adventurous, wholesome, family oriented, bold and courageous. It’s wonderful and I just want to celebrate you and spend time learning everything you’ll allow. And all I want is to be my very best self.

I haven’t even wanted to not. It’s not been easy but I’ve never not wanted you for a moment. I just don’t want to get hurt. But you’re worth the risk.

Well maybe not just horny

I sometimes get this insatiable lust for orgasms near my period.

So maybe my period is coming.

But also I was listening to a reading and the reader said “your person wants you to know you are theirs. They said you’re mine.”

And my entire body felt an electric charge and I felt the tingle that announces the wetness. I’m so wet.

But she’s more than that

It’s like she’s hardworking

But she’s more than that also

I like that she’s wholesome

Not sure if she’d agree with that

I like that she’s mysterious

But sometimes I wish…

Then I remember, she is a mirror and everything about her, I also love about me.

That’s the truth. I appreciate her. I’m inspired by her. I have so much love for her. I am in love with her. I hope so much for her. I am so excited to see her grow and discover authentic romantic love that feeds her soul… even if I don’t hold the spoon.

Emotional management.

I think I missed that class.

So I’ve thing is true

Even when I’m insecure about it,

I still want it so bad.

Does that mean it’s on its way?

I have secret hope it is.

That means it wants to scream from the mountain tops how much I … am crazy about her.

But I know better. She’d prefer I fill the bedroom with rose petals and sexy lingerie for her to see me in.

How do I know

I have had a crush on her since like November 2024

right after my dad died I remember she posted something about snap out of it and while I can’t imagine why she’d be talking to me, I accepted it as a message got me.

It worked. I chose to not allow grief to take over. I chose to make healthier choices. I began to choose me. I do relate to her as muse. She does inspire me to want to be my best because it’s attractive to be completely focused on healthy living versus codependency or struggling.

So here we are in 2026. I’ve decided to keep focusing on me, building myself after being married for two decades and trusting that if there’s another romantic relationship in store for me, ok. If not, ok. I get to travel and experience the world with me and… I am amazing, with high standards so the experiences will be luxurious and peaceful.

Omg I’m excited. I love me so so much. I really do want her but if she’s not the one, I still am.

I told that girl who likes to pretend she likes me that I’m not interested in being her friend anymore.

She wants to have the last word. Ok.

She wants to be above me. Ok.

She wants me to feel small. I can’t but ok.

I feel free.

I feel happier.

I feel… empowered.

I don’t know if there’s a next time

I’ve never done that before about a stranger.

I hear her voice andI want to submit to her completely.

She’s younger than me.

She’s a Scorpio.

She’s beautiful and handsome.

Part Asian part Black.

Strong and good with her hands.