Things

And that’s a problem.

So I moved like 6 times in the last year, all for the sake of my career.

I indeed succeeded in making a lot of money, like a shit-ton of money, relatively speaking.

And I’m sort of trying ot figure out what I want NOW and its really difficult.

I could probably afford a house by myself now, and the job is agreeable for the moment, but I don’t like the hours. 6:30 to 3, so I get little time to wake up.

Everything feels a little weird now, like I don’t have what made the the most happy, routine, friends that I care about.

Now I’m thinking about getting my TIME back, like, just having my friends and time again, equilibrium with time/money/love is all that I need, and the last bit has been entirely absent in my life, how do people do it? I mean it’s like almost a narcisism in people to peacock around enough to find someone, and it doesn’t make me happy trying to mold myself in to some kind of prince for some other persons benefit.

Can’t we just share intimate moments and happy afternoons once in awhile?

Can’t we just eat together?

My happiest moments have always been with my friends, but I can’t marry any of them, they’re all fucking married now anyway.

It's quiet 

The view is plain 

People walk by with critical eyes 

Moment by moment 

Alone again

You're arms are open 

The peripheral glance 

They don't pause

Longing to be seen 

Your unjust cause

We are an aging populace

 A geriatric prison 

A Museum Mausoleum 

Photos on the wall

Paintings from the past

We are people left in the dust 

Too defined to be known