Decisions Define Destiny.

As a person, I’m a little bit perfectionist. I want things settled by my ways but it’s reasonable. I’m starting to hate them when I see imperfections that were already known when I left them and since then, there were no solutions at all.

Sometimes, I tend to think if it is really true that Filipinos are really the problem of our country... but ofcourse the government is obviously one. But how to go on with this stressful life? Do I have the right to complain because I kinda have an okay life??? Maybe because people will judge you right away. Hehe.

However, in my darkest moment... I believe there are people who experience bigger problems than me. I shrug it off whenever I think I’m having this... hmmm how do you call it... Midlife Crisis? Adulting Problem? I don’t know what to call it.

Hmmmm... but at the end of the day, it’s me... to create solutions on how cope up, how to solve it and how to move on. Maybe... it’s true that our distance before really matter. We did not have any relationships because it was just formality. Wait? Formality on what? Because they were a family? Maybe? I don’t know.

I’m not a morning person.

I don’t usually function as normal every morning, I don’t usually have that energy every morning, I really don’t talk as usual, my brows always meet in the middle and I easily get in trouble every morning.

Since I was a kid, I’m not that kid who’s up every morning and go for morning play, I could still remember na I usually sleep at 12 midnight since grade yata? And every morning, in school, no one would have the intention to talk to me, since kilala nila ako na I’m really moody. Maybe mga twice a month lang ako na sa mood pag umaga.

Until college, even my bestfriends do not talk to me every morning until 10 am, pero pag ako una kumausap, meaning I’m really in the mood but when I don’t talk, that’s it. Kaya lagi ko sinasabi sa ibang tao na, text or greet me a “good morning” para good vibes ako because when I was in my 3rd year college, I usually get good messages so lagi ako nasa good mood. Tsaka I tried changing myself so medyo good mood na ako lagi pag morning but it is very hard to be consistent ah?