Krystal-Leigh Attenborough

Dissociate for 1 hr smoke 10 cigarettes and drink a litre of vodka

Or is your mental health stable and your job not physically, mentally and emotional damaging?

I don't even know how to deal with things anymore.

Luna ✖

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I was rarely drinking, could go weeks without a drink, didn't care for it, I don't endulge or drink to get drunk, but honestly, I need to come home to a single glass of wine these days just to bring myself down to a level that feels normal.

Im scared to leave home

Im scared to go out

I've become a recluse again

I have some many people here for my fiances birthday and I just want to be alone

Im not ok

Im not well

Im actually at such a low point

Now imagine being in a group chat with all of them where they plan to have a drink up the weekend the restrictions ease.

Now imagine this planning has gone on for a week and not once have you been invited even though you've read every message.

Now imagine the drink up theme is halloween / spooky and its the one thing you're known to love, live and breathe.

Now imagine its a Friday night and you've been working so hard everyday for the last 6 months, back and forth from home and work, day after day, been having a really rough time, feel so separated from your social group, been struggling with life's ups and downs, then feel so forgotten.

2 hours of sleep and a 9 hour shift

Goth Juice 🖤

And Orange Juice 🧃🍊

Coffee is my blood type

Did I just spend $25 on 2 pairs of socks?

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