K-tea: Unfiltered

It's been a while

I am so tired.

Where do I begin?

I need a holiday.

My best friend has left the company we both work for and will soon be leaving the county to live four hours away. Which fucking sucks.

I can't seem to write. As in creatively. Nothing is working.

I'm freaking out that time is going so fast and I'm getting older.

Counselling is good but exhausting and expensive. And I keep spending the rest of my money on stupid shit so I keep panicking about running out of money.

I don't know where my "career" is going.

I feel chunky and gross and the gym ain't doing anything for me.

My skin is a mess.

My teeth are sensitive and I'm shitting bricks about my dentist appointment next week.

I've actually contemplated calling in sick at work just to catch a break.

I want to go see the world but I have a mortgage to pay.

I constantly want to eat.

Urghhhhhh.

I've been having counselling for a while now. It's helping hugely. I understand more about myself and how my past has affected me more than ever. I have a safe place to share my thoughts and feelings and not be judged, or worry they I'm burdening someone.