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THE STRUGGLE
── .✦ CHAPTER-6 : Candle Knight
SUMMARY : Adjusting, finding a task for yourself, encountering reliable figures on the way and a solution to arms. (4.6k words)
CHAPTER-5 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-7
Your eyes feel rather heavy.. never did you think you'd have to mourn a death that occurred right infront of you..
You feel oddly calm. The calm after the storm metaphorically.. but in this case, the actual storm outside hasn't ceased in the slightest.
There's a lot of movement around, murmurs of voices and the occational shouts over the indistinguishable muffled noises- a slight guilt crawls up your spine for being rather passive while other students seemed to have adapted to their role and were making a difference by now..
The gun holster digs almost uncomfortably into the back of your thigh now.. you didn't exactly know how to wear one- perhaps it was supposed to face the front? Though, you didn't really want any other student catching sight of it..
Even if they were made aware of 'self-defense' and whatnot.. you don't really think you're equipped to handle it without supervision.
For now you've just been carrying it around in your inventory without even knowing whether it was on safety lock or not. And now the realisation was gonna haunt you until you recieved answers.
Should you ask one of the transfer students Isagi-san mentioned..? He said they'd gotten field training..
Though you'd have to locate them first.
Unconciously you scan around for Hyoma.. he'd let you catch a breath and take a break in the top floor auditorium floor where everyone had started clearing the room to lay down gym mats.. probably for everyone to sleep on for the night-
Hyoma said he was going to help Mikage take a headcount of the students to help ration the food.. you're not sure how exactly they planned to do that with everyone scattered around campus doing the respective jobs they picked up..
Perhaps the communications were set up again. That would definitely make such a task a whole lot more manageable.
And Hyoma did mention 'lazyass' or in other words, Nagi Seishiro- one of the school's most gifted students in the technological field.. was helping Hiori-san with that, so it's only a matter of time before comms came back into commision.
An older girl gently shifts you aside by the waist to crouch and lay down a mat near you- you shuffle away with a murmured 'sorry'
For a while you awkwardly hover, you definitely feel more level-headed now.. but you think you're rather out of place in the system that had developed while you and Rin were being stupid..
"Is anyone free of workload?! The generator might go off at anytime!! Could someone try to find emergency lights or candles?? Any kind of light source!" A loud voice booms over the scattered commotion, the murmurings minutely quieting down to process his words
You perk up, that's something you could do- usually they kept candles in the physics lab, and you're sure the chemistry lab has some of them too- you've definitely seen a lighter around there.
"I'll go!!" You call out, earning a raised thumbs up from said man
You step out of the auditorium, it had been rather cold since the room was quite large.. the hallways weren't much better, but the rush around made you feel much more comfortable..
Unfortunately you can't see any familiar heads in the rush of crowd, you catch sight of some classmates now and then who acknowledge you with a wave and polite smile before straying to complete their assigned tasks
It's a lot darker than before.. so you start to quicken your steps- the laboratory wing wasn't as populated as the open corridors, but you did see a few students hurry in and out the computer lab..
You pause in front of the door, unlatching it from outside and using your body weight to push the heavy door open-
This section is much darker but you decide not to turn on the lights and drain the generator even faster.. after opening the door a few inches wider to let the light inside, kneeling to fling open the supply cabinets
You snatch all the matchboxes you can find, stuffing them in your shirt pocket.. it would've been much more convenient if you had a skirt pocket though, you should've taken a bag or something to help carry everything you were planning on bringing back to the auditorium.
Maybe you could find something in the lab.. a simple cloth or plastic bag would do- perhaps they were near the newspapers..
After a few minutes of scrounging you come across one of those huge jute sacks that you usually associated with carrying grain
It'll do.. now just some candles and any other light source you could find, you're kind of just eyeing the bunsen burner though.. unfortunately they're not the portable type so you have to settle on taking a mini lighter instead
Just incase anyone else was as hopeless at lighting matchsticks as you were..
Your eyes adjust to the dark slightly and you rummage through the bottom cabinets for candles, you had to be pretty quick with this.. the light from outside is slowly starting to dim futher and from the angle the shadow casts- you can't really see what's inside at all..
Instead having to blindly move your hand around on search of something reminiscent of a candle.
To your luck, you only manage to find old record notebooks and some chemical stained cloth.. and you slowly stand, hoping to atleast find an emergency lamp..
That's probably what you should've looked for first actually- with the amount of light you have to work with, you really hope you don't run into or knock over any vials or beakers
You catch the shine of light from outside reflecting on one of the metal tables, and debate whether or not to try light a match.. though you're not particularly tempted to waste them- they probably wouldn't give off much light on their own anyway..
And besides, you didn't think you could trust yourself with a lit match in the middle of the chemistry lab.
This was proving to be quite the hassle.
Why did the candles seem so intent on hiding from you..?
The physics lab would've been a better location to start with..
Your hip hits the edge of a counter you didn't notice was there, knocking over something metallic- the low clang sound seeming much too loud in the confined space, causing you to wince slightly
After the loud dies down, you murmur an apology to.. why were you apologizing to inanimate objects exactly..?
Perhaps you have lost your mind.
You feel over the object in the dark, trying to make out what it was..
You didn't really know what equipment could be shaped like this and be made of metal- atleast it wasn't glass though, you have already witnessed one too many broken windows.
The top part has a buldge upwards and you trace your finger over it before the realisation strikes-
It's a spirit lamp.
One you've been caressing for over 3 minutes.
Where have your priorities gone..
Quickly you rummage through the sack you'd been dragging around.. it was big enough to fit a body, and finding an index-sized lighter was a little more time-consuming than you expected.
After fumbling to adjust the wick and checking for spills, you flick at the lighter- bringing the flame closer to the wick and hoping the lamp had ethanol on it already
The wick catches and you let out a soft, excited 'yes!' under your breath.. the light didn't illuminate much but it was a good source until you found the candles.
You click the lighter off- and hold the lamp in your hands.. you should take an ethanol bottle too.
Holding the lamp carefully with one hand, you hesitantly let it hover near the reagent shelf.. looking through the labels and pulling out the ethanol, tightly closing the top just in case and shoving it into the sack.
In the time frame of 20 minutes, you've managed to do everything but get candles.
Thunder rolls nearby in the backround and lightly rattles against the windows, causing the curtains to flutter against the wind slipping through the window frames.
You wonder if the teachers are back yet.. some guidance and knowledge of what could possibly be happening could prove to ease your nerves.. or ignite them.
Ego wasn't the reassuring type.
You adjust your grip on the jute sack, bunching it up and holding the spirit lamp in the other hand.. it was kinda inconvenient to carry and rather warm. You would've preferred a lamp or flashlight.
But it's still a source of light so, who were you to complain?
You think you've ransacked the place enough to conclude there were no candles.
Which is rather stupid.
Orr you just missed some really obvious spot.
The spirit lamp was dying out and you still didn't have a candle!
And there's also the fact that you couldn't fill it up again immediately after, you had to let it cool for safety purposes..
With a rough sigh and a little more urgency to your movements- after placing the lamp on the counter above since the heat was starting to make your palms clammy..
You rummage through the drawers.. sweat running down your skin from the proximity of your face to the fire.
The flames flicker and you lean back, sliding the lamp closer and opening the last drawer at the edge of the counter.
And there.
Finally.
Who decided it was a good idea to keep an important item like candles in an utterly impossible location to find.
A part of you acknowledges that storing it there wasn't exactly out of the ordinary- but c'mon..!
The spirit lamp burns out and you sigh quietly, ripping the candles open and fishing for the lighter- guiding it to the wick and letting the flame catch.
The wax at the bottom of the candle is still cold.. you use the source of light to find the candle stand- securing it and holding it carefully..
You didn't think the flame would survive outside the lab with all the currents still roaming around the campus.
After double checking you had everything, you shove the candles into the sack and roll it up for a better hold positioning the rough fibre to be between the lamp and your fingertips.. you didn't want to place it along with the matchboxes and alcohol since it was still quite hot.
God did you feel incompetent.. atleast the job was done though, and it seems the generator hasn't given up just yet since there was still light emitting from the computer lab
The light dims a little and you wince, ah.. seems like you spoke too soon.
Or rather.. thought too soon..?
You decide not to acknowledge the semantics.
The force of the wind blows the candle out and you sigh, deciding not to relight it for now. It would probably just blow out again anyway.
Clumsily adjusting your hold on the bag, lamp and candle, you secure the latch to the chemistry lab- You could still hear murmurs and discussions from the computer lab..
Maybe you should warn them about the power going out soon- if the comms are up then they could probably inform everyone scattered on campus not to panic and slowly head for the auditorium.
Quietly you push the door open, the sound of wood creaking seeming wayy too loud admist everything.. there's something heavy in the air and you don't know what to make of it.. the talking ceases, and a senior smiles at you and motions you inside- rolling out a chair for you invitingly
You shyly smile back and shake your head, feeling a little bashful at the offer.. though the smile felt more like a grimace and attempt at reasurance than anything.. you're not sure for what, but something tells you it's important.
"Hi.. are the comms up? I think the generator might go off soon- if we could inform everyone then it might save from the panic.." you murmur, catching the attention of a few people gathered around one of the systems
"Mm.. generator down..? Sounds like a hassle.. we haven't tested the intercoms but we've gotten the radio to work.." Nagi-san pipes up, shoving his thumb at the device to his side
"Ah.. kouhai! We were just discussing bout the powergrids.." Another familar face exclaims, and you register Hiori-san with a slightly relieved smile
You'd sort of forgotten Hyoma mentioned he was working with Nagi-san.. they were an unlikely duo for sure but you could see their dynamics were pretty compatible.
"Hiori-san..! Thank you for the umbrella.." you mention with a slight grin, bowing slightly in gratitude.. that umbrella had definitely done way more than it's intended purpose.
"Mm? Don't mention it, was just a lil' hunch to lend it to ya" he states with a loop-sided smile, eyes focusing on you for a second to register the sack you held before straying right back to the screen
Suddenly you remember you'd left the umbrella on the ground floor.
Well.. you'll get it back eventually.
"Did ya find your friend, hm?" He asks softly, tilting his gaze just enough to catch your shake of the head
"Ah.. well more like he found me?" You mumble sheepishly, earning an amused nod from him followed my a soft sigh once he realised you purposely let the conversation die
"The radio's problem was the amplifier, m'not sure bout intercoms but the cctvs work just fine cause they're local.." Hiori-san commented, leaving the system to Nagi-san when he seemed to have a mild breakthrough with his thought process.
"Soo.. was it the storm that messed with it?" You ask, a little fascinated as you watch Nagi-san connect his system to some kinda panneling..
"Mm.. just Electromagnetic interference. Would've been static if the main panel wasn't reset.." Nagi-san mumbles, idly twirling around in his rolling chair as he waited for the panneling to connect to the main one
A senior whistles lowly and claps her hands slowly, impressed by his competence.. followed by a few other scattered claps that Nagi-san just scratched his neck at and acknowledged with a murmured thanks
The panel connects and Nagi-san's fingers move with rapid precision, isolating and rerouting an audio network
"Cool huh?" Hiori-san hums, resting a palm on the back of the rolling chair.
Nagi-san quickly stands once his work was done, taking the headphones with an attached microphone off and immediately handing them to Hiori-san
"Quick. Announce. The panel is slow- the generator will probably go off in a few minutes at best." Nagi-san blurts out, tapping the mic to let the screech echo- indicating the audio was clear now.
"O-oh? Giving me the more social task, are we..?" Hiori-san states with an amused smile, holding the mic up to his lips
"Attention all, the generator will be goin' out soon. Head to the auditorium as quickly as ya can before the lights fail, navigate if possible or wait till we start a search" he announces, the echo of his voice indicating the intercoms were working perfectly
"If any staff are listenin' the radio kept informin' to not take government pil-" it's expected but sudden. A static scratch follows and the audio cuts off, and soon does the computer system. Quickly followed by the lights, engulfing the room in darkness.
You hear the sound of a soft, annoyed click of the tongue.. someone plugging out a system? And another gathering something that sounded like a CD case.
Then your role clicks and shove the spirit lamp to the nearest person- blindly dig into the sack for your lighter, quickly lighting the flame and holding the candle out for someone to take.. a soft sound of realisation is heard and the candle leaves your fingertips but you just dig for another one, lighting it up as well and handing it to the next nearest person- which happened to be Hiori-san.
"Ah.. thought I heard the lab openin' it was you huh..?" he states, holding it at the bottom carefully since this one didn't have a stand.
The senior that invited you in, helps you with the sack while you pull out another batch of candles
"Shield it from the wind outside btw..! The school's quieting down but there are still currents" you call out, voice carrying over the silence illuminated by candle light.
Quickly you pass a few sticks around and close the lighter, keeping one to yourself and shielding the flame with the plam of your hand
The senior holding your bag walks ahead, and you quickly follow behind cause she wasn't holding a candle
Hiori-san follows quietly, and you catch sight of the radio someone took up from your peripheral.. as well as Nagi-san slogging behind a little with the candle held way too close to his face for warmth
"Could we light the spirit lamp?" A voice asks, and you blink.. only then realising you had parted from it in your urgency
"Oh sorry.. is it cool now?" You ask, feeling rather sheepish for shoving a hot object into unsuspecting hands
"Yeah? Only the cap is a bit hot.." the voice mumbles, shuffling near you once he registered where your voice was coming from
"Maybe we could save that for going on a search party, the candles ain't that bright.." Hiori-san pipes up, pairing up with said guy to share the light source
"Okay senpai.." he acknowledges, you decide that's dealt with and join the senior with your bag again that seemed intent on navigating back to the auditorium..
Why was it that you were so bad at asking for names..
Well, you weren't really in the mood for a conversation so perhaps you'll just refer to her in your head as nice senior.
Weird guy and nice senior.
You wonder what kind of spectrum you're on.
Somebody locks the computer lab from the outside and you stand near the railing, catching sight of a flashlight beam from the ground floor.. Ah. The staff must be out.
"Guys! I think the teachers are out" you comment, and nice senior leans next to you- eyes flashing with recognition as she nods
A few other do the same and there's a shared relief in the air
"We needa tell Ego-sensei bout what we heard on the radio.. and they'll probably look to guiding students up too" Hiori-san mumbles in thought, still shielding his candle from the light breeze
"Let's just get back to the auditorium.. we'll work out what to do from there" Nice senior states, gently tugging you close to her with her free hand
"Mm.. they were setting up gym mats on the floor when I was there" you comment, holding the candle to illuminate the path ahead just enough to watch your steps
Nobody speaks after that, only the rhythmic sound of footsteps and the occational filtered currents fills the space around.
There isn't anyone in the hallways like before, they probably would've headed for the auditorium after the announcement.
You wonder if Hyoma and Mikage made it.. and Rin as well. You feel like Sae-senpai would've taken initiative to find out more information.. there was a possibility he could've been with the staff as well.
Your mind drifts to Ego-sensei. Hiori-san said they needed to inform about something they heard on the radio.. maybe that's what has the room so tense when you came in.
You heard the world 'government' and immediately thought of Kaname Mirai's uniform.. Toharu Corporations. That was the name of the delivery sevice..
They had government contracts and we're usually deployed to supply approved vaccines to public institutions.
'Govenment pills' would make the most sense.
Thunder rumbles through the buildings walls, sounding too close for comfort.
There wasn't even any moonlight.. could it possibly a no moon day? It wasn't something you would've ever thought of if not for the situation at hand.
Curtains brush against your frame and you unconciously hold the candle away from it.. wouldn't want it catching on fire..
Wax drips down the candle and you adjust your grip to avoid it from dripping onto your skin.
Nice senior's footsteps halt, soon followed by everyone else.. you stop as well, curiously looking up at her for an answer.
"The auditorium is just at the end.." she says, handing the sack over to you and taking the candle from your hand, motioning another girl with a candle to stick close to you before gesturing the stairs
"Go and set up there, we'll split up over the lower floors to find students" she states, a few people nodding and grouping with her
"Huh..? Okay.. be safe!" You call out, clutching the sack that had been deposited in your hands again..
Hiori-san and Nagi-san are among the few that didn't leave, holding the radio and monitor respectively with their free hands.
"Hopefully they'll be back soon.. if the flames die out then we might needa search party for the search party.." Hiori-san comments, earning a small amused smile from the girl you were sticking to
"Yoriko-senpai would rather die than let herself become unreliable.." she hums, positioning the flame a little away from your sack..
You perk up, slightly elated that you finally got a name for 'nice senior'
"Aha.. don't doubt it in the slightest! But accidents happen no?" He hums back, sticking by the guy with the spirit lamp while Nagi-san lagged a little futher- seeming to be in his own line of thoughts
"Did you see Reo?" He suddenly asks, and you blink.. not having expected him to address you.
"Not in person.. but Hyoma said he was gonna help him with headcount and organising stuff.." you reply, trying to think of any location in particular he mentioned
"I think he said they'd start at the cafeteria.. I dunno after that?" You offer a little weakly, but Nagi-san just nods.. quietly mulling over your words.
The door to the auditorium is slightly open and you can hear loud voices as well as muttered conversations.. you didn't want to just barge in and suprise anyone, so you loudly knock first before opening the door further
Some conversations quiet down and people register the light before they register you.
"Finally..! C'mere.. we can set up the candles on these plates!" A loud and slightly familiar voice calls out- ah.. it was the same guy that lent you the task in the first place.
He lent a hand out to help you over the mats while the girl with the candle hovers close behind, standing at the edge of the mats.
Hiori-san sets up his own candle near the doorway and motions Nagi to set up the monitor in the nearest plughole which connected to an oscillating fan
A few other members start passing their candles and matchboxes to the other ends of the auditorium where they were placed near the sills
"What did you bring Ethanol for?" Task guy asks confused as he holds open the sack
Spirit lamp guy-
Sigh.. This was starting to get quite old.
He shuffles a little closer and passes the lamp to the girl who passed it forward again to task guy
"Spirit lamp.. used it when I couldn't find the candles and brought it along" you explain, still occupied with lighting and passing along candles to students who had already started settling down on the mats because of the lack of room to stand about now..
He hums in approval and quietly uncaps it to refill it with ethanol, lighting it up with a matchstick since you were occupied with the lighter..
The spirit lamp burns bright and he passes it to the centre so it could illuminate more ground.
You stare at the matchstick.. feeling a little dumb for not thinking of it sooner. Ugh.. You really should've sent Yoriko-senpai with a matchbox or two!
What are the chances you could find them if you went now..
"Senpai..! Yoriko-senpai and a few others went to the lower floors to try lead the others here" you blurt out- and task guy just blinks.. urging you to continue
Candle girl.. lights up, seeming to get your line of thought immediately
"Oh! The matchsticks! I'll see if I can find them- give me a few boxes" she asks, intent on darting outside
You blink but nod anyway, gathering around 4 boxes and depositing them into her hands.. a frown overtakes your face when you notice the wax grip, and you tilt her grip against it
"Oh thanks" she smiles, holding it away to keep it from dripping on the mats..
Task guy noticed and immediately takes out a cut portion of a cardboard box- coaxing the candle from her and wrapping it to prevent the wax from dripping onto skin
"Here.. it's not fool proof so be careful. And stick with the staff if you find them. They should be making their way up now.." he comments, dusting himself of the cardboard and pausing to survey candle girl
"If you can't find them it's alright okay..? Just come right back" he states, ruffling her hair lightly
Candle girl huffs with barely concealed annoyance, unable to do much with her hands full
"Yeah yeah.. don't patronise me.." she mumbles, sending you a light wave with match-box filled fingers before disappearing beyond the auditorium door..
Chatter quietly starts again and you think you can hear snoring admist it too..
What was the time..? You never really got the chance to stop and check.
The gun presses into your thigh again when you sit down at the edge, and you wince- immediately stranding up again.. the last thing you wanted to do was set it off in a room full of students.
Task guy looks a little alarmed at your wince, setting his hands on your forearms
"Whoa.. hey? You good?" He asks, scanning over for any injury
"Huh? Yeah uhm.. not hurt! Just.. uncomfy?" You squeak, you didn't want to reveal the gun just yet.. he seemed like the over worrying type.
He hums, unconvinced.. raising a brow for anything else you could offer.
"Are any of the transfer students here..?" You ask quietly.. and there's immediately surprise on his face from the sudden line of questioning
"Uh.. I think I saw Loki-kun recently..? They uh.. came back with weapons..?" He trails off after a few seconds of debating whether to tell you.. he'd told Loki to keep it from eveyone in the room just in case it stirred panic
You perk up, and task guy has absolutely no idea what to make of it.
Weapons.. weapons vault.
Did he came by Ego-sensei by any chance? And for what reason would he get a weapon of he didn't know how to use one.
Loki didn't really sound like a German name- so you assumed he wasn't the one Isagi-san was talking about..
But then again.. it didn't sound like a typical spanish, french or italian name either.. well- you guess you'll find out soon enough. Names these days weren't really a good way to establish someones nationality.
"Okay. Where?" You ask immediately, feeling your body thrumming with energy despite feeling depleted close to an hour ago.
"I.. behind the stage I think, I don't think he and his friends moved since the lights went out.." he pieces, holding a lit candle out to you since you seemed interested on meeting the guy
"I'll be here if you need me.. the bottles are in that box and if you wanna eat something the-" his words do not register cause you're already parkouring over the edges, a few students sharing a laugh at your random burst of energy
"Kids these days.." task guy murmured in exasperation to the nearest person who would listen
"Shut up old man."
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CHAPTER-5 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-7
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A/N : Why is half the chapter just finding candles. Anyway.. Sorry for the OCs, I know for a fact that I don't like reading them in most fics so there's a chance it's the same for some- but.. it's kinda hard to only work around bllk characters & I definitely want reader to interact with more women. I don't have plans on involving any OCs with blue lock characters romantically- just platonic interactions and conversation initiated purely by the situation.. I'm kinda getting attached tho, so maybe there could be some backround romance between sm of the OCs.. ionno- how bout, nice senior x task guy? They lwk mom and dad heheh- I'm open to names btw, nice senior has been named but candle girl (did you catch the pun I hid??), task guy and spirit lamp guy don't have names yet!
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Okay wait. why does he look so damn fine here..
THE STRUGGLE
── .✦ CHAPTER-5 : Rationalisation
SUMMARY : Waking up disoriented, piecing together facts and realisations, sharing the burden of loss with a loved one (4.1k words)
CHAPTER-4 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-6
The first thing you register is that your head hurts.. like a lot.
You try to roll on your side to get more comfortable.. and immediately end up crashing to the floor- a loud hiss escaping your lips as you clutch the arm that had taken most brunt of the fall.
A chair scrapes and somebody laughs, there's talking and you sit up on your elbows.. the first face you register is Hyoma, he's smiling as he pats your cheek- then moves to support your elbows as you stubbornly try to stand
"Hey, missed me?" He asks while you use the tables you'd been placed on for some support before plopping harshly onto the hard surface
"Yes. Where the fuck were you?" You grumble, trying to piece together the last things you remember
"Long story short, your boy's got a bow" he says with a low hum, pointing to the bow and quiver strapped onto his back
You quirk a brow at him and he shrugs
"I went to the top floor, the new transferred teachers from abroad were explaining bout the people in the garage and their state of altercation or something.." he explains, watching your brows furrow
Huh.. Ego mentioned it as well.
Biological distortion.
The word sends a shudder through you and Hyoma pauses to survey you completely.. making mental notes of your appearance.
"That doesn't explain the bow.." you huff staring at the upper end peaking out from his back
"I interrupted Prince's speech and got my ass handed to me." He says dryly.. you stifle a laugh, tilting your head to urge him to give out more details.. preferably about the whole situation. But the bow story intrigued you as well.
"Most the third years are given tasks like stocking up food from the cafeterias on all the floors, barricading the windows on every floor except the ground.. Ego-sensei and Anri-sensei along with most the staff are there- the students have strict orders not to go near there for now.." he explains while holding eye contact, your wet form was worrying him.. but he was still waiting for you to start talking on your own will.
"The second and first years got an explaination a while back.. some of us just eavesdropped on the third years instructions tho.." Isagi-san pipes up with a sheepish laugh, Bachira-kun hums near him.. giving you a peace sign when you make eye contact
"Hello.." you greet with a small nod, turning back to Hyoma right after.. there were still so many unanswered questions in your mind.
Ego's gun.
The weapon's vault.
The need to barricade the place.
And stocking up? How long was this really gonna last..
Rin.
"Where's Rin?" You blurt out, a headache forming with the amount of alarm that stimmed up out of nowhere
Hyoma frowns, gently resting a hand on your shoulder.. you feel the urge to flinch.
"Easy girl.. you're okay. Rin's resting as well. Sae-senpai is with him if that puts you at any ease?" He asks, cautiously observing your breathing
"Anri-sensei carried you here, she said you'd been running on adrenaline for awhile.." Isagi-san offers, handing you a water bottle from one of the large stock packages
You accept it and stare at it for awhile, relaying the words in your head and trying to connect it with your latest memories
"Okay.. was it the same for Rin?" You ask, popping the cap open and gulping down like half the bottle.
"Yeah.. Ego-sensei carried him up.. Anri-sensei advised us to keep you both in the same room, but Sae-senpai stole him away to the adjacent classroom" Hyoma says waving the thought off, watching you get a little more relaxed at knowing Rin's exact location
"What floor are we..?" You mumble, finding the thought of Ego carrying Rin to be a little off-putting.. Sae-senpai you could sorta get past despite the height difference, they were brothers after all.
"2nd..!" Bachira-kun pipes up after realising he has been quiet for too long
"Another window broke on the 1st floor- so Icchan and I were deployed to investigate! Then we saw Ego with Rinrin and helped carry him! Thenn he said where we'd find the storm shutters, so we fixed that and came here again!" he concluded, hovering on one side when you moved to stand-
Hyoma clicked his tongue quietly but didn't stop you despite the disapproval in his eyes
"I leave you for 10 minutes and you get yourself involved with Rin of all people? Where did all your braincells disappear off to?" He asks, knocking your forehead like he expected it to be hollow
"Rin's impulsive for sure.. a gut feeling tells me you two ran into an 'infected'.." Isagi-san murmurs, watching you to gain any sort of confirmation
"Geez.. my girl just woke up- stop questioning her" Hyoma huffed, shooing the two away to the other side of the room..
"Yeah.. we did.." you mumble, patting your abdomen and sighing in relief when you felt the pistol was still where you'd left it
Hyoma exhales sharply, and you can see the pained worry on his face before he reluctantly started explaining..
"Anri-sensei scolded Ego-sensei for giving you that.. but decided you'd panic if you were parted it from it after.. whatever happened.." he grumbled, handing you some kind of strap
Bachira-kun and Isagi-san curiously eye it and the bulge at your waist that they hadn't noticed before
"A gun holster..?" Isagi asks with a soft sort of awe before running a hand through his hair
"Noel Noa did mention something about weapons and learning how to wield them.. the two German transfers already have some sort of field training under him.." Isagi-san trails off but- Bachira-kun before cuts him off and inches closer, observing you strap it on your thigh with unblinking eyes
"I was listening in on Lavinho-sensei's lecture! He's got a really cool fighting style and kept going on about self-defense.. Some dude named Bunny was showing off his scars! He's apparently been in infiltration schemes and stuff-!" Bachira-kun gushes, moving into some pose he remembers Lavinho doing
"Wielding weapons..? Self defence..?" You mumble, eyeing the bow strapped onto Hyoma's back with a little more caution
Hyoma knew to use it, you know that. But for targets. Not humans. Or rather..
Infected. You'll strictly refer to those creatures as infected from now on.
Kaname Mirai.
The man you killed?
Or the infected you killed..?
You shake your head and focus on Hyoma's voice.. it was soothing, familiar.
"Chris Prince went on about his specs.. he was only really intrested in making us feel safe in his presence than anything like those two.." He says with an annoyed huff
"I called bullshit of course, like I want to be idle and 'protected' when the world around me was collapsing.. and he used me as an example for 'misplaced arroagnce'." he grumbled, tucking his hair behind his ear a little moodily
"Mikage took my side and asked how students could take initiative, while spewing his own theories.. so he caved and went over our specs and gave some pretty good advice on gearing us.." Isagi-san seems a little intrigued by the gearing up part, and you are too- did Prince-sensei really just hand Hyoma a bow??
Though.. you suppose it's a little hypocritic.
Ego did leave that gun on the ground like a particularly tempting offering.
"Then he let us go with a scolding after realising me, Mikage and lazyass were second years.. Then I went back to your classroom to find you-" he huffs, you catch the annoyance in his tone and can't help but be defensive
"What? I went looking for you" you huff back, loosely crossing your arms.. a bit thankful that your limbs felt much more agreeable now.
"I've heard.." he says dryly..
"Hiori-san huh? Where's he now then..? And Rensuke? They both are volunteers right?" You ask.. idly flickering your gaze to Isagi-san, but he just shakes his head and raises his hands up in surrender.
"Kunigami and a few other volunteers are grouping students up to take action and keeping them calm.. I think Hiori-kun and lazyass are working on comms- " Hyoma answers while checking his nails, before meeting your gaze pointedly
"I came down to get a bow from the archery room and instead saw you being carried in Anri-sensei's arms and got a near damn heartattack." He states, glaring at you like it's your fault for fainting and making him worry
"Sorry.." you murmur flatly, what else could you say for yourself anyway..?
He seems sceptical of the apology and quirked a brow for you to explain yourself further..
When you don't say another word, he sighs.. deciding to finish his part of the story first.
"I helped set this area up.." he says motioning the benches pushed together.. the one where you laid on and the other empty one where you assumed Rin had previously laid in.
"She explained your condition and four eyes gave the holster to hand to you when you woke up.." he completes, staring down at you and crossing his arms to mirror your pose
You notice Bachira-kun and Isagi-san hovering a little awkwardly at the tension in the room and decide not to make a scene with Hyoma like you wanted to..
"The bow?" You ask for like the third time now.. and Hyoma rolls his eyes, more amused than mad now
"The room next door..?" He states like it should be obvious, but your brows furrow.. hah.
Didn't he say Rin was in the room next door..?
"The other room." He deadpans, as if reading your thoughts.. and you blink, more than a little lost.
Isagi-san takes pity on you and jabs a thumb to the left wall, the one that shared it's wall with.. another classroom..? Or- given the context, probably the archery room..
"Yes the archery room" Hyoma nods and you realise you might've voiced that out loud..
"I wouldn't know that.. I just woke up here- and all I know is this room is on the second floor!" You grumble defensively but Hyoma just rolls his eyes again like he has every right in blaming you
The door clicks open, and Sae-senpai stands there.. a little surprised by seeing you awake, before taking a water bottle like he planned to do when he came in
"Sae-san.. Did Ri-" Isagi-san starts, but Sae-senpai huffs quietly so he zips his mouth shut
"Rin's awake, he asked to know if you were alive" he says casually taking two bottles between his index and middle
"I'm alive.." You say a little awkwardly, shifting your weight onto the other foot to just affirm your body was still yours to control.
"Wait- how's Rin!" You call out before he left the room, he hovered near the doorway and didn't look back.. just made a motion for 'come along' and started walking again.
You glance at Hyoma hesitantly.. but he just raises a brow and walks ahead, leaving you to trail behind
"We'll group up with the others if you don't mind? I think they'd probably need more students helping with preserving food.." Isagi-san comments, picking up a water bottle stack with Bachira-kun's help
"Mhm.. We'll see you and Chigirin later! If ya need to find company, there are still loads of people arranging the top floor!" He calls out
You nod, stepping out the way for them
"See you.. oh! And for water, there's still the gallon dispensers on each floor..!" You remind, getting a thumbs up from Isagi-san and a loud shout of 'good idea!' from Bachira-kun..
You've always liked Hyoma's friends.
They're nice.
You bump into Hyoma's back, not having realised he was hovering outside the door
"Easy there.. you feeling dizzy or anything?" He asks shifting to loosely rest a hand on your lower back
"No.. just wasn't paying attention.." you mutter, stepping inside and immediately making eye contact with Rin..
His shoulders relaxed a little at your presence, he looked kinda tense before and there was still a tick to his jaw-
Your eyes flickered to the unfamiliar guy beside him.. he was probably a senior if he hung around Sae, and uh.. his hairstyle screamed of eccentricity. not to mention the.. unique. eyeliner..
"This your girlfriend Rin-rin? She's too pretty for you" Weird guy complains, hands tucked deep into his pant pockets as he shifts his weight back and forth on the balls of his feet.
"She's not his girlfriend." Hyoma quips immediately and the weird guy's attention shifts to him instead
"Oh-ho~ princess eh? Didn't know you hung around with juniors" he comments with a wide grin, about to egg on Hyoma futher- but fortunately stopped by Sae-senpai who smacked the back of weird guy's head without any preamble
"Shut up demon boy. Rin, Rin's classmate. Explain whatever happened properly" Sae-senpai asks.. well- more like demands.
Rin has been unexpectedly quiet the entire time and you really didn't know where to start with everything..
"The front door was open and we figured that was letting the wind in and tunneling through the corridors.." you start.. that's how the expedition started anyway.
"And the two of you decided it was a great idea to go close it in your own?" Sae-senpai asks with clear disapproval to his tone, and you kind of want to wilt a little..
Rin seems to have regained his spunk cause he glares up at Sae, shifting to sit up a little straighter
"If no one else did then it was just gonna end up breaking more windows." He states with a low scoff, about to say more to defend his point
"You two had absolutely no business taking on tasks like that on your own." Sae-senpai immediately interrupts, and you have half-mind to blame Rin for the way half those events transpired..
But.. you'd kind of been an accomplice anyway, and the storm shutters were your idea in the first place.
"Wasn't like there was anyone else.." Rin grumbles, but it sounded more like he was trying to remain defensive despite having already accepted the flaws to his outlook.
"Okay look, leave the scolding and drama for later-" Hyoma snaps, before sending a pointed look to you "I want to know two things, how did you meet an 'infected' inside the school? And what exactly sent you two into such long-term flight or fight?" He lists with two fingers up, awaiting an explaining to put them down.
Sae-senpai and.. weird guy. immediately grew a lot more tense after the word 'infected' left Hyoma's mouth and Sae-senpai seemed to be on the verge of shaking the answers out of Rin at this point while weird guy seemed oddly contemplative..
"Let me get this straight, either one of those things from the garage somehow managed to get inside the campus and we have a huge problem on our hands.. orr- the two of you had the bright idea to go outside, which one was it?" weird guy asks with an oddly amused look to his face
"You can literally tell by their clothes." Sae-senpai grits out, a large tick growing on his jaw as his gaze flickers sternly between the two of you.
And right now..? a teacher seemed like a much better option than Sae Itoshi's scrutiny..
"For the record. Ego-sensei asked Rin for help in bringing Sa- an infected. body inside for.. 'research purposes'" you quote, not liking the term associated with Saburo-ojisan..
An infected huh..?
Will those bodies soon become nameless and faceless to the world?
Nothing more than a mindless creature wearing the face of another's beloved.
Ojisan wouldn't even get a proper burial..
"Mm.. and she used the gun under Ego's supervision anyway, if anything he's to blame for the second part.." he quickly follows up when he notices you go quiet, shooting a glance at Hyoma who raised an eye-brow and slowly put down the second finger.. too quiet for your liking, he was probably stewing in rage.
That was a lot of information dumped and you can practically see the room around you process everything, trying to figure out what to address first..
"Gun." Sae-senpai asked.. or more like stated. orr rather threatened. Yeah whatever his intent was- you feel very threatened under his gaze right now.
"Ego shot.. an infected. who tried to hurt her through the broken windows" Rin informs, loosely gesturing your lack of tie
"Okay. And then why did he give it to a student in the first place?" Sae-senpai asks cautiously scanning your figure in search of said gun
"Holy shit kouhai, you shot someone?!" Weird guy suddenly pipes up after a moment of realisation, you catch Hyoma cringe at the words being pieced together like that..
Well. you think he's being a little too sensitive honestly..
Killed would be more suitable.
"Yeah.. A delivery guy- Kaname Mirai, he turned the corner when Ego-sensei and Rin were bringing in.." you trail off again, throat constricting.. fuck. Why did it hurt so much to call him Saburo-ojisan..? Kaname-san came easily enough..
"The infected Ego shot" Rin completed without looking at you, eyes trained completely on Sae.. only really interested in his reactions.
"In this downpour..?" Hyoma asks a little baffled by how that could've played out
You and Rin just shrugged, and you mentally remind yourself to thank Hiori-san for the umbrella.. it was quite frankly the MVP for that entire series of events- it's only relatively close competitor being the mop.
"Okay we have more pressing matters at hand, we now know that the 'infected' have no qualms in hurting a human. From the cctv, they aren't hurting eachother tho so perhaps their intentions are similar to the zombie movies Rin watches.." Sae-senpaintrails off, unperturbed by Rin's drilling gaze on him
"Oh.. well- I saw Kaname-san approaching through one of side windows, he paused and looked through it but didn't go into an attack-craze.." you recalled, hoping that piece of information could help somehow
"Huh.. maybe they don't rely on sight.. their eyes looked pretty unfocused through the footage, could you describe them?" He asked focusing his eyes intently on you..
You can kind of feel Rin's gaze boring into you now, it's a little bitter you feel and you don't know what exactly it stemmed from
"Uhm.. like you said, their eyes were kind of far away.. vomit and bile kept spilling out their mouths, their movements were kinda raggity? Like not coordinated at all.."
"They smelled of rot." Rin added quietly.. you kind of didn't notice at the time, you thought the foul smell was from all the body fluids
"And they didn't react much to pain.. the.. infected Ego shot. deliberately dislocated his elbow to try reach me.." you murmur quietly, Kaname did the same. reaching for you even after his chin roughly met the pavement
The room was still when you'd finished, nobody daring to voice out their thoughts on the matter completely.
"Can we assume their brain-dead then?" Sae-senpai murmurs, loosely resting a hand on his hip
"We'll get the whole view from bowlcut, won't we? They did take the body in for research" weird guy states, plopping down on one of the askew benches
"Mm.. you." Sae-senpai pipes up, turning to you with something in mind "Did you kill or just shoot the other one?" He asks bluntly.
The tension in the room increases by a few notches and you hear Hyoma's hitch in breath admist the roar of your own heartbeat in your ears
"I killed him.." you confess quietly..
You feel Hyoma's hand come to rest on your shoulder from behind, it's shaky but firm.. Weird guy whistles quietly, not mocking. not impressed either.. just processing.
"He would've hurt her otherwise" Rin murmurs, testing his feet by standing up
"Even in his last moments of consciousness, he reached for her leg. Those things have an instinct to cause harm." He states, quietly cracking his neck
Sae-senpai doesn't say anything to Rin's observations, mulling over his own..
"If there's more of these things outside the garrage then even if the storm stops, it wouldn't be safe to go out.."
"That's what you're worried about?" Rin snaps "Going home?" He huffs, loosely crossing his arms.
Since he's woken up, his shitty brother hasn't even asked once how he was feeling.
Instead his focus had mostly been on you since the gun was brought up.. and he literally had to insert himself in cause Sae fucking Itoshi didn't care to ask HIM for input.
"I'm rationalising. Four eyes and the new teachers are already convinced this is gonna go on for long if they're introducing the idea of self-defence." Sae had been with Lavinho for the explaination but left when Bunny picked up the mantle since Lavinho didn't have much interest in actually teaching as compared to showing off.
The animosity hangs in the air and you hear Rin's low tch under his breath, while weird guy uncharacteristically stays quiet-
Well.. it's kind of a blasé assumption to make for the few minutes you'd known him, a part of you thinks he's probably used to it though.
Hyoma's tightening grip snaps you out of your musings and he wraps an arm around your shoulder to steer you through the door
"Where are you two going?" Sae-senpai demands, tone icy enough for you to feel a spike of fear
Hyoma is either fearless or has no respect for his life cause he turns and glares at Sae-senpai head-on.
"Me and her want no part in that. Sort it out with your ototo, I'm giving her therapy." He states bluntly, leading you out.
Nobody protests.. but you're a little uneasy with leaving the conversation like that.. Sae-senpai was a respected figure in the school, and hearing his observations and theories on the situation made it a little easier to think.
"Shut your mind girlie, I can hear you over that blocky head of yours.." Hyoma huffs, walking with you through the corridor.. heading for the steps.
If you didn't love the boy as much as you did, you would've smacked his pretty face already.
"You know you don't gotta be strong with me right..?" He asks quietly, and you're a little thrown by the change of topic..
The familar safeness you associate with Hyoma blooms in your chest and you nod, willing away tears you didn't know you'd been holding in at all.
"Mhm.. yeah.." you murmur, voice a little shaky as you bite your bottom lip to stop yourself from letting out a pathetic sob..
You want Saburo-ojisan back..
Why did the world take him from you.
Hyoma paused in his steps and loosely dropped his hand to hold your wrist
"C'mere.." he murmurs, eyes softening when he meets your glossy gaze
"Hyoma he's dead.. he's dead and I killed someone..! I killed someone and yet Saburo-ojisan's the only one I'm thinking about..!" You sob, reaching to bury in his chest.. fisting at his shirt and muffling your cries against fabric
You hear him swallow, a breath catching in his throat as he slowly reached a hand out to tangle in your hair.. tilting it up just enough to meet his own teary gaze
"Saburo-ojisan.. our.. Saburo-ojisan..?" He asks, and you can feel his heartbeat under your palm.. possibly willing away a voice crack.
"Ego shot him.. h-he just.." your words cut off with a sob, finding yourself hiding in his chest again.. wrinkling the fabric and staining it with your tears.
You can hear Hyoma's own quiet sobs course through his body, his head slowly moving to press his face onto the top of your head
You clutch him tighter and he sniffles into your hair, threading his hands through your hair to soothe you as well..
Soon your sobs fade into hiccups and Hyoma just closed his eyes as he melted into the embrace just as much as you did
Saburo-ojisan was loved.
He died loved.
.
Kaname Mirai was probably loved too.
Was it a mercy that the people who loved him didn't know..?
Or was it a curse. Waiting on someone who wasn't going to come home.
.
You feel sick..
Rin's justification over your actions felt relieving in the moment.. he truly would've killed you if you didn't first..
..It was merely self-defense right?
Your eyes feel heavy.. the crying drained you of whatever little energy you managed to save up from your slumber.
Hyoma's heartbeat is steady now, and the rhythmic thump puts you at ease..
.
How would Hyoma have reacted if you were the one to wind up dead..?
.
.
..Maybe you could learn to forgive yourself.
CHAPTER-4 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-6
TAGLIST : @vyxeen (Open <3)
A/N : Sorry for how long this took to come out! My exams start from tomorrow and end the same week, I might stress write but prolly not post it till the end of the week.. This chapter is more of world-building and exposure than anything, and reader finally had a proper emotional breakdown! I lwk love writing her interactions with Hyoma.. 😭 Things to mull over cause I've been trying to drop hints :P 1. What's the relationship between Sae & Bunny? 2. It's pretty obvious ngl and I've even tagged him lol, but who's weird guy? 3. Biological distortion, the concept of it and what exactly Ego & Anri could've found out about it in the autopsy.. Check out the PROFILES btw!! I've updated with more info that could piece a few things together about the characters
THE STRUGGLE
CHARACTER PROFILES
Highschool - First Years
READER
First Year - Course : Biology
Strengths lie in application, innovative ideas, fighting with long-range melee weapons
Very little flight or fight instincts, a curious soul who tries to follow rules yet disregards them in face of her own logic
RIN ITOSHI
First Year - Course : Biology
Strengths lie in close combat, strategic play, on-the-spot planning
Huge adrenaline junkie, tells himself he doesn't enjoy killing and it's only for survival.. but the look in his eye definitely says otherwise.
Highschool - Second Years
CHIGIRI HYOMA
Second Year - Course : Design
Strengths lie in pragmatism, emotional intelligence, agility, archery and track
Pretty impulsive and has rule breaking tendencies, knows to use a sniper but has trauma behind it so he sticks to bows
HIORI YO
Second Year - Course : Computer
Strengths lie in quick thinking, ability to take rational decisions under pressure, electronic enthusiast, has great reflexes
The type of guy who has absolutely nothing but himself to lose, is quite thankful to be stuck in school rather than at home..
ISAGI YOICHI
Second Year - Course : Statistics
Strengths lie in spatial awareness, strong mental aptitude, long-term planning and great at adapting mid-situation.
Pieces logic together at almost terrifying speeds, he's a calm presence but could easily nit-pick anyone that doesn't strike him fancy.
BACHIRA MEGURU
Second Year - Course : Psychology
Strengths lie in his unpredictability and willingness to act without hesitation, knife play, flexibility and good at evasion.
Has never felt guilt in his life, knows facts about the most absurd things, gets easily distracted but also weirdly committed when something catches his interest.
Highschool - Third Years
SAE ITOSHI
Third Year - Course : Physics
Strengths lie in throwing weapons at pin-point accuracy, analytic thinking, dexterity
Has a single-track mind, hates working with people who need every single detail to be explained to them, prefers the high ground
SHIDOU RYUSEI
Third Year - Course : Arts
Strengths lie in crazy stamina, creative ideas, close-combat, karate and using nunchucks.
Has a whole fandom in the school for his artistic creations- he stuck onto Itoshi Sae as his first muse and eventually they become an unlikely duo.
International Students
FRANCE
CHARLES CHEVALIER
First Year - Course : Geography
Strengths lie in unpredictability, ability to retain information, perceptive but mostly relies on instinct
Loki took him under his wing since he thought Charles's decision making and ideas would prove to be useful as a military tactician.. Charles has only one wish in life and it's to use a cannon.
JULIAN LOKI
Second Year - Course : Kinesiology
Strengths lie in ability to command respect and take over leadership, high athletism and fencing skills
Golden boy. Noel Noa took interest in him as a potential rival for the future.. he's already taken basic military courses and will immediately enlist as soon as he completes highschool.
VIVIAN HUGO
First-year cadet - Course : History
Strengths lie in analytical capacity, incapitating self-defense, dystopian tactics
Has absolutely read Art of War and takes inspiration from it-' reads' blank books to visualise tactics on paper, believes his destiny is to die serving the country with Loki by his side.
GERMANY
MICHAEL KAISER
First-year cadet - Course : Psychology
Strengths lie in sheer strength, endurance, combat technique, on-the-spot tactics and rifle wielding
Became Noel's apprentice after being bailed out of jail by the government, he's slowly earning a name for himself as the face of the french military- Accepted the transfer
ALEXIS NESS
First- year cadet - Course : Anatomy
Strengths lie in acrobatics, balance & coordination, observation, wielding a stilleto dagger
Kaiser's resilience and principle of doing the impossible became his inspiration to enlist and he quickly rose the ranks and claimed his place as Kaiser's right hand man under Noel Noa.
SPAIN
BUNNY IGLESIAS
Second-year cadet - Course : Philosophy
Strengths lie in infiltration, incapitation, withstanding torture, wielding a navaja
A one-man army, most commonly deployed in infiltration missions and extracting information- he was initually denied the transfer at first but mildly threatened his handlers and got it issued.
ITALY
DON LORENZO
Second-year cadet - Course : Economics
Strengths lie in unpredictability, defanging, evasion, wielding spears and machine guns
Was taken in by Snuffy and trained as his apprentice, mostly works undercover with him and takes out common international enemies as something like a vigilante
Staff Members
SABURO TAKEUCHI
Role : Gardener
46 years old, An uneducated but loyal employee, having served the instition for over 19 years.. he has 2 daughters, the eldest being 8 and the youngest being 5.
JINPACHI EGO
Role : Chairman/Self-proclaimed dictator
Has a military backround that he doesn't like to disclose, but the lifestyle hasn't really left him behind and paranoia still haunts him like a vengeful ghost.
ANRI TEIRI
Role : Principal/Reformer
Completely helped change curriculum and education in the school under her reign, let's Ego take most administration-related decisions but her ideas fuel the initiative.
International Staff
NOEL NOA
Role : History Teacher
A war veteran, he's infamous for the operations he's commanded.. retired after a more peaceful era commenced and become invested in taking a future generation under his wing to challenge his title.
MARC SNUFFY
Role : Logistics & Strategy Teacher
Has earned the reputation due to his exploits and overall contribution to the military defense sector, retired after Mick died in an unprecedented internal attack and instead went under cover on his own accord.
CHRIS PRINCE
Role : Marine & English Teacher
Holds a one-sided rivalry with Noel Noa, requested the transfer with an opportunity to have a rematch of sorts.. doesn't teach much and rather spends most of the class flaunting his achievements.
... More to be added
STRUCTURE
Students at Blue Lock High have an advanced course they specialise in apart from their main subjects
ELEMENTARY & JUNIOR HIGH
Students occupy the floors from ground till fouth, their system of timings is completely different from high schoolers
HIGHSCHOOL
First and Second years occupy the fifth floor where they coexist and share the laboratories and other facilities
Third years completely occupy the sixth floor, having more advanced equipment in their specific laboratories and focus more on individuality rather than coexistence
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New character profiles!!
10 characters // 10 fandoms
rules: list 10 favourite characters from separate fandoms/media, then tag (10) people
tagged by @typhra :3 hewwo thank you
Team Rocket trio - Pokemon (i literally cant separate them. theyre all my favs)
Darrell - Ok Ko!
Space Boyfriend - Omori
Bonnie - In Stars and Time
Marceline - Adventure Time
Beast Boy - Teen Titans
Shadow the Hedgehog - Sonic
Cynder - Spyro
Nephrite/ Centipeetle - Steven Universe
Bec Noir - Homestuck
tagging: @bpdvulpine @galaxywarp @biocrafthero @bugmoment @caramel-bites
@knuckledust3r @voxbots @siffrin-enthusiast @branchifers @undeadpsychic
beloved mutuals!!! come hither posthaste!! a game for thee!! (if you want)
alright here we goes 1. Dirk Strider - Homestuck (if youre surprised by this you do not know my vast expanses 2. The Scout - Team Fortress 2 3. Kris Dreemurr - Deltarune 4. Clementine - Telltale's The Walking Dead 5. Buddy Armstrong - LISA 6. Arcade Gannon - Fallout: New Vegas 7. Cuno De Ruyter - Disco Elysium 8. Wilson P. Higgsbury - Don't Starve 9. Chell - Portal 10. Ethan Winters - RESIDENT EVIL
taggin': @kiir0c0re @ivorytistic @kawanyanya @tenmillionmice @yanoharuhito
my psionic mutuals! seal this fictional character within the earth!!! i command you!!!!
YAAAY OK-
1. peri fairywinkle-cosma — fairly oddparents
2. sebastian solace — pressure
3. shadow milk cookie — cookie run kingdom
4. reese kelly — scarlet hollow
5. pest — regretevator
6. fizzarolli — helluva boss
7. waldo — have a nice death
8. kallamar — cult of the lamb
9. the emperor — baldur’s gate 3
10. dread — doors
@demonkey @doctorfishyz @beachhouse2000 GO MY SCARAB!!!
SCREAMS
1. Basil - Omori
2. Bonnie - Five Nights at Freddy's
3. Muichiro Tokito - Demon Slayer
4. Amanda Young - Saw
5. Princess Luna - My Little Pony
6. Flowey - Undertale
7. Bob Zanotto - Psychonauts 2
8. Sebastian Solace - Pressure
9. Tiffany Valentine - Child's Play
10. Clawdeen Wolf - Monster High
@not-so-ori-ginal HIIIIII
i've been tagged??? joyous day!! :3c
[in no particular order.... except the first one]
Handsome Jack - Borderlands
Soldier - Team Fortress 2
Smoky Quartz - Steven Universe
Car - Garn47
Nikku - Hotline 024
Leshy - Cult of the Lamb
The Narrator - The Stanley Parable
Peppino - Pizza Tower
Okarun - Dandadan
Kumoko - So I'm a Spider So What?
and tagging tagging uhhhhhhhhh @fuj0!! and @snazzi-strawberri!!!! and @biggielean why not :3
Yay! :D
Kaoru Sakurayashiki — sk8 the infinity
Wei Wuxian — Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation
Johnny Rayflo — Vassalord
Shen Qingqiu — Scum Villain's Self Saving System
Max — Sam and Max
Grell Sutcliff — Kuroshitsuji
Discord — My Little Pony
John Blanc — Mistrick
Professor Venomous — OK K.O.!
Alexia Maccon — Parasol Protectorate
I have so many favorite characters, it was actually hard to pick lmao... I think I'm pretty satisfied with the list, though!
Too scared to tag as usual, but if anyone wants to join then go ahead!!(EDIT: WAIT WAIT WAIT ACTUALLY. @galewindstudios ? :^)) No pressure, though!)
B) Hey bestie I am so in-
1. Nick Valentine -- Fallout 4
2. Kakuzu & Hidan -- Naruto Shippuden
3. Archie -- Pokemon
4. Ganondarf -- Twilight Princess
5. Harvey --Stardew Valley
6. Herobrine -- Minecraft (Creepypasta? Technically?)
7. Konro -- Fireforce
8. Hellboy -- … Hellboy (?)
9. Choso -- JJK
10. Jake -- Adventure Time
:D Thanks for the tag Nik!! AND UHM IDK IF I KNOW 10 PPL who are into fandom?? @snazzi-strawberri @julesnull (maybe?) @theferalsquirrel
No pressure btw!
Thank for the tag, @galewindstudios
Prussia - Hetalia
Makoto/Sailor Jupiter - Sailor Moon
Jareth - Labyrinth
Hunter - The Owl House
Discord - My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Dib - Invader Zim
Erik/The Phantom - The Phantom of the Opera
Shizuo Heiwajima - Durarara!!
Armit Arlert - Attack on Titan
L - Death Note
I dunno if I know ten other people here who follow my main blog who are into fandom, sooooo....
@legendtraineremily
Okay, okay, I’ll get in on this. These are in no particular order.
1. Penny (Pokémon [Scarlet & Violet])
2. Yang Xiao-Long (RWBY)
3. Seven of Nine (Star Trek)
4. Rapunzel (Disney)
5. Magma/Alison Crestmere (Marvel [X-Men])
6. Rey Skywalker (Star Wars [Deal with it])
7. Liliana Vess (Magic: The Gathering)
8. Eowyn, Daughter of Éomund (Lord of the Rings)
9. Mjoll the Lioness (Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim)
10. Mile/Adele von Ascham (Didn’t I Say to Make My Abilities Average in the Next Life?)
Thanks for tagging me, sis! People I think I can tag would be @obsessingoverl @justgoji @gay-mormon-wizard @bookish-bi-mormon Continue if you wish
Jason grace (heroes of olympus)
Anakin/ahsoka dynamic (clone wars [yes I know that's not one character])
Anna (disney)
Teen (agatha all along)
nick (heartstopper)
Soda (the outsiders)
Legolas (lotr)
Angel dust (hazbin hotel)
Quentin (genie lo duology)
Apollo (trials of apollo [leave me alone])
Open tags cause I'm too tired for this
It's hard to pick just one in some fandoms bc I like several characters.
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1) Ferbs "Ferb" Fletcher (Phineas and Ferb)
2) Willow (Don't Starve)
3) Miles "Tails" Prower (Sonic the Hedgehog)
4) Dung Defender / Second Sentinel (Hollow Knigth / Silksong)
5) Annie Bell (AntonBlast)
6) Black Spy (Spy vs Spy)
7) Stocking Anarchy (Panty & Stocking with Garterbelt)
8) Patricia "Peacock" Watson (Skullgirls)
9) Waldo (Have a Nice Death)
10) Lorenzo "Pumpkin Rabbit" Waterman (The Walten Files [Mysterious House series] )
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@alextydaisuda123 @lacmuss-art @onelittleornotthing @fleeglefazbeagle @i-loveapples @milk545 @creat0rstudi0
+Open tags
Okay, let's go
1) Eric Cartman ("South Park")
2) Ferb Fletcher ("Phineas and Ferb")
3) Vergil Sparda ("Devil May Cry")
4) Barely Lightfoot ("Onward")
5) Zane ("Ninjago")
6) Reiner Braun ("Attack on Titan")
7) Reigen Arataka ("Mob Psycho 100")
8) Brett Hand ("Inside Job")
9) Roboute Guilliman ("Warhammer 40.000")
10) Iida Tenya ("My Hero Academia")
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@ginnywings @ersik-ti @jades-absolutesawg @oreopilled @cloversofsouthpark @evyluvskenman @mikumikubeeaaam @a-hungruy-alien
LET’S GOOOOOOOO!!!!
1. Judeau (“Berserk”)
2. Chilchuck Tims (“Dungeon Meshi”)
3. Kakyoin Noriaki (“JJBA”)
4. Lawrence Oleander (“BTD”)
5. Hero (“Omori”)
6. Daisuke (“Mouthwashing”)
7. Shane (“Stardew Valley”)
8. Ivan (“Alien Stage”)
9. Knuckles (Sonic universe???)
10. Belaf (“Made in Abyss”)
@hirochan08 @comfortlycanthrope @shadrell @yanasolyah0310
ok here we go!!! thanks for including me!!
adam/he-man (masters of the universe)
puck (berserk)
tetsuo shima (AKIRA)
k9999 (king of fighters)
kazuma kuwabara (yu yu hakusho)
shep (interstella 5555)
millie thompson (trigun)
scorpia (she-ra and the princesses of power (2018) (technically also motu but shush))
rufioh nitram (homestuck)
takashi “shiro” shirogane (voltron: legendary defender) (:/)
@kan3dalverreincarnated @sk7r99 @clarenecessities
OH BOY i actually wrote down every single media i could remember that i've been to so HERE I GO:
1. eikichi onizuka (great teacher onizuka)
2. daniel molloy (interview with the vampire 2022)
3. dimple/ekubo (mob psycho 100)
4. tetsuo shima (akira)
5. katsuki bakugou (my hero academia)
6. j.d. (heathers)
7. kyle broflovski (south park)
8. leeloo (fifth element)
9. yato (noragami)
10. ray (the promised neverland)
thank you rufioh for including me💥💥 not sure about tagging 10 people though
@mrwizrdstar @sloykassirom @grib-maryam-art @exceptionallyunexceptional @anchouspng @b0x3d0ff
woahh i just got back online what’s up
light yagami (death note)
2. megumi fushiguro (jujutsu kaisen)
3. yoshiki tsujinaka (the summer hikaru died)
4. edward cullen (twilight)
5. mike wheeler (stranger things)
6. sebastian michaelis (black butler)
7. rock okijima (black lagoon)
8. can i say bakugo too? katsuki bakugo (my hero academia)
9. tsubomi takane (mob psycho 100)
10. tara chambler (the walking dead)
thanks for tagging me cy, this was prety fun…um, i’m also not sure about tagging 10 people lmao
@carlgrimesbf @totalxnostalgia @lesbianvampyrfromouterspace @dewberty
woahhh whats up party peopleeee erm i’m not reading the other people’s ones, just my goats, so, sorry if there’s copies
sneaky link (one wheat mark)
2. Velma (scooby doo)
3. sigma (bungou stray dogs)
4. yoshiki (the summer hikaru died)
5. rinn (vocaloid)
6. sae (blue lock)
7. harvey (stardew valley)
8. alex (minecraft)
9. usagi (chiiwaka)
10. tung tung tung sahur (brainrot)
tags: @cybrozee @deusben @hikarucide @cringefail-loserfail2?? @the-real-fukouna-girl @damsel-understresss @finla2 @yurigoblin @princessbunnyyyyyyyy @x-kangelkawaiii-x
ohhhh yeah
1 will byers (one wheat mark)
2 mitsuri kanroji (kimetsu no yaiba)
3 near (deathnote)
4 power (chainsawman)
5 kimika (subahibi)
6 my sweet piano (sanrio)
7 hikaru (the summer hikaru died)
8 rodrick (diary of a wimpy kid)
9 till (alien stage)
10 sailor neptune (sailor moon)
took me so long to think of fandoms .. @stqrrin @moefur @mo0rbiiid @pretty-guardian-jirai @vampbuni @kache-chan @nyancvtt @bloody------snow @bottleangels @cutecafekitty4 + open
Dazai Osamu (Bungo Stray Dogs)
Maomao (Apothecary Diaries)
Arya Drottningu (Inheritence Cycle)
Giyuu Tomioka (Demon Slayer)
Rachel Elizabeth Dare (Percy Jackson)
Ayame Sohma (Fruits Basket)
Sakura Airi (Classroom of the Elite)
Nick Wilde (Zootopia)
Todoroki Shoto (My Hero Academia)
Kyoya (Tougen Anki)
@dazaistealingchuuyashat @dazai0s4mukun @dazaisbaldspot @komisdiaryofbugs @casbwahahaha @thesmunch @ryuwantsrevenge @cranberrie-juice @smoresxd @ayane-chan-loves-water + other mutuals and open tags
okey :p
osamu dazai -bungo stray dogsˎˊ˗
wanderer - genshin impactᯓ★
phainon - honkai star rail⭑.ᐟ
pierrot - the freak circusᝰ.ᐟ
bachira meguru - blue lock.ᐟ.ᐟ
luka - alien stageᯓ➤
yoshiki - the summer hikaru died<𝟑 .ᐟ
baek cirrus- lost in the cloudᯓ♪
yuta - jujutsu kaisan ── .✦
trapped with jester - jestyn ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
@cmd-shift4 @minicatknife @g0d0fcha0s @mayando @red-snow-phantom (i know u tagged me in this but deal w it <3) @dazai0s4mukun @whyarealltheuserstakenwastaken @b3an-i3 @dazaistealingchuuyashat @doyoulikewafflesandchips (tagging moots i rarely talk to cause uhh im curious 𓁹‿𓁹)
yay yay yay!!
Alexis Ness - Blue Lock
Fuu Orostor/Zanka Nijiku - Gachiakuta
Sua - ALNST
Kenjirou Minami - Yuri!!! On Ice
Columbina - The Freak Circus
Kaedehara Kazuha - Genshin Impact
Tadokoro Yuuki - The Summer Hikaru Died
Kozume Kenma/Osamu Miya - Haikyuu!
Hiragi Kashima - Given
Aiki Hirose - Go For It, Nakamura!
I consume queer media at rates never seen before in human history.
@rosesradio @livelaughalexisness @mayando @jovei @violet-ness @command--shift3 @erosamor992 @michiesque @myosotis-elinora @sentient-stove @sentient-stove
THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME WAHAHA!>3
Ness (blue lock)
Olruggio (witch hat atelier)
Kuroo (haikyuu)
Muzan (demon slayer)
Michael jackson
Sukuna (jujutsu kaisen)
Felix (miraculous ladybug)
Niki(enhypen)
Namjoon (BTS)
Ivan (alien stage)
SISTERS RISEEEE!!! @xbl0sstea18 @flowerformeguru @kvzumeberry @theghostk3lly @boba-rama.
ANYONE CAN JOIN WAHAH!>3
Ty for tag
1. Nagi Seishiro blue lock
2. Rintarou suna haikyuu
3. Giyu tomioka demon slayer and akaza
4. Mafuyu sato given
5. Luka alst
6.zanka nijiku gachiakuta
7. Dazai osamu bsd
8. Euhyun low tide in twilight
9. Choso jjk
10. Shinei nouzen 86
Tags: @ivytheweeaboo @ratg4n @thetwinkims @yujisdreamgirl @yumyumcherryy @i-yonakaruz-i @izzy21507 @jxxbtx @xxxanimesimpxxx @cherrychaiii @cashcoyote + who wants
Thanks for the tag Kelly! 🫶
Rin Itoshi - Blue Lock
Luck Voltia - Black Clover
Oak Green - Pokemon Adventures
Mikasa Ackerman - Attack on Titan
Minato Namikaze - Naruto
Akaashi Keiji - Haikyuu
Rumi Usagiyama (Mirko) - My Hero Academia
Yoruichi Shihouin - Bleach
Willy - Stardew Valley
Elizabeth Afton - Five Nights at Freddy's
NP TAGS!! @thefetusfoggy @aveeniexoxo @kingkimtootuff @sleepybibliophilee @yayamrata @kaiaasecho @woneazy @alonelyartist1432 @supermahibast @katsmihya <3 + anyone else who'd like to join!!

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C/W : Roomates! or.. something along the lines.. Hugo is a touchy man who knows what he wants.
၊၊||၊ CHARACTER : Vivian Hugo
The skies aren't clearing up just yet.. the sound of coffee stirring is the only thing that echoes inside these comfortable walls.
"Morning.." a soft voice greets you from the counter, his movements stilling to just take you in..
Thunder rumbles in the backround and you absentmindly glance at the balcony panels to view the condensation coating the glass
He huffs quietly due to the lack of your acknowledgement.. lazily throwing the coffee packet from the other end of the counter in a pathetic attempt to hit you.
You tilt your head at the sodden packet lying in the middle of the table, amusement lighting up your eyes as you rest your elbows on the counter and your chin on the palm of your hand
"How did the coffee offend you?" You ask with a quirked brow.. not acknowledging the way his shoulders minutely relaxed now that your eyes were trained on him..
"Not the coffee.. you." He murmurs quietly into the rim of his mug, gaze never leaving yours as he sips.. quite annoyingly.
"Mornin'.. s'that what you wanted..?" You ask leaning forward to pluck the packet between two fingers
"Mhm.. yes.." he mumbles almost satisfied as his fingers drum on the counter in a familar rhythm that resonated with the patter of rain outside..
You stalk to the other side of the counter.. depositing the packet and comfortably finding yourself grabbing a cup and hip-checking him, taking a packet for yourself and operating the coffee machine
He exhales quietly into his coffee at your action, free hand reaching out to cage your hip- the side of his palm resting casually on the edge of the counter
"You feel asleep on me last night.." he starts conversationally, placing the half finished cup down just to rest his chin on your shoulder
"That's crazy.. you aren't the comfiest thing." You state off-handedly, the weight of him on your shoulder was becoming quite a common habit.. this man was as touch-starved as they come.
"You wound me.." he mumbles into the fabric of your shirt, deeply offended that his favorite companion seemed to find his physical presence to be undesirable..
You pull the coffee out and lightly push at his cheek, sighing under your breath despite the smile that graced your lips
It was easy to coexist with Vivian, at some point of time..
It had almost become as simple as breathing.
"Don't stain my shirt with your coffee lips.." you comment before sipping your own coffee with a content hum..
He lets out a soft sound of acknowledgement, settling on just invading your personal space for now.
"Your coffee's gonna get cold.." you remind, lightly placing a hand on the side of his mug to test the heat radiating off it
After a pause, he places his hand over your own- engulfing it and bringing the cup up to take a light sip
"It's still hot.. might be your magic touch" he comments, trapping your hand against his and letting the cup hover near his lips
"Ah-ha.. très drôle.." you huff, trying to wriggle your hand out of his hold
He adjusts the hold on the cup and let's go easily enough, a little disappointed when you finish your coffee and move away from him to clean your mug
"Hey. Leave it, I'll wash it later" he calls out, following after you and gently pulling you back by the waist when you'd rolled your sleeves up to wash it
You blink, involuntarily letting out a soft squeak as he suddenly hooked his arm a little tighter against your hip- rendering you airborne as he lifted you up and deposited you on the other end of the kitchen, far away from the sink..
You glare up at him for the unprecedented manhandling, but he just flutters his lashes at you while taking a sip of his coffee with the over hand.. squeezing your side with his forearm pressing against your stomach
"Do you enjoy throwing me around like a ragdoll?" You ask trying to push his arm down, squirming against his grip- he lets go with a fleeting drag of his fingers across your stomach, moving to place his cup in the sink and rolling his own sleeves up to wash the cups
"Did you just ignore me..?" You ask a little offended as you move to hug his waist from behind, pressing your face against his back
He hums lowly under his breath but doesn't pause his movements..
"You can coffee stain me all you want!" You huff into his left shoulder blade.. quite discontent with the idea of him giving you a cold shoulder.. even if his shoulder was kinda warm-
"I do not wish to do that.. it was a lapse of judgement in my desire to be close to you" he states lowly, and you can't help but nuzzle a little closer at the admission
"Yeah..?" You hum while he places the cups down and wipes his hands, immediately turning to engulf you in a tight hug
"Yeah.." he confirms, pressing a kiss into the side of your neck and resting his forehead against your shoulder
The steady patter of rain fills the silence that follows, his warmth is both suffocating and safe, a sigh escapes your lips as you cling a little tighter..
At some point of time,
He'd become everything you've never imagined and everything you can't imagine without.
A/N : Happy Birthday to this guy..! 🫶 très drôle means 'very funny' btw!! ♪ PLAYLIST
Decisions, decisions..
I'll probably do all of em' but I'll let you guys choose which one I should finish first..! Lemme know if ya wanna be tagged for any of them aswell
Pick your poison!!
1. Rogue Fantasies (ft. Rin Itoshi)
2. That Girl is a Gun (ft. Vivian Hugo)
3. Lose My Mind (ft. Bunny Iglesias)
1. ROGUE FANTASIES Rebel!Rin kidnapping princess!reader to use as a bargaining chip with the king.
2. THAT GIRL IS A GUN ▷ Vivian Hugo entranced by criminal!reader and taking efforts into running into her more often.
3. LOSE MY MIND ▷ Police!reader chasing down doubleagent!Bunny who starts doubting his loyalties mid-escape.
Guys.. I've been on reddit. And holy shit, you will not believe the amount of Rin slander I witnessed.
Let's play have you ever never with moots
rules- say have you ever never and something u tried
And tag your moots or people
They must answer that question and make new one
I'll start
Have you ever never stayed up wholr night for no reason just bcs you want to?
Tagg- @flowerformeguru @ivytheweeaboo
@violet-ness @xbl0sstea18 @ratg4n
@yumyumcherryy @i-yonakaruz-i
@jxxbtx @lunathetunaaa @cashcoyote
@cherrychaiii
Nope, I have nott done that deliberately at atleast-
For tha mooties! never have I ever.. brutally lost an argument but kept arguing jst cause you didn't want the other person to have a clean win
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GARNETTE VERNE
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I love french. Hugo slips into his mother language whenever he feels the need to express something with deep emotions✌️ Loki usually switches up here and there when scolding Charles!
Chutoteuse de sheep - Sheep whisperer Impoli - Impolite Belle âme - Beautiful Soul Hors de ce monde - Out of this world Tu es la favorite du destin - You are destiny's favorite
Also- Isagi accepting his students to be his kids.. 🥺 he's becoming such a great father after adopting little sheepo! and oml- the French trio definitely think reader's wedded to Isagi!! (Ehhe that's how I justify the accident use of Mrs!)
Bachira love!! He's jst a silly guy! AND RIN APPEARANCE AFTER LITERALLY 9 CHAPTERS!!
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C/W : Established relationship, Reader is a bit of a brat, manhandling, makeout, slight mention that they made love, suggestive
၊၊||၊ CHARACTER : Michael Kaiser
The door slammed way too loudly, the sound reverberating through the apartment and you couldn't help but roll your eyes
A familiar tattooed hand gripped the edge of the doorway, and you could've sworn the wood cracked- his other hand gripped his phone, turned to face you- showing you the source of his frustrations
"When did I give you permission to post about me on your social media."
You lean against the counter unphased, even making a show of slowly chewing on a chip..
"Who says I needed it? It was a cute post nonetheless, right?" You ask smugly, finding slight satisfaction in the way his jaw ticked due to him clenching his teeth
"I look pathetic." He spits out, stalking across the room to tear the chip bag away from your hands, tossing it far away
You huff, at the loss of your poor chips bag and also his dramatics
"C'mon.. it isn't that bad.. there are surely worse crashouts.." you waved off, glancing over his shoulder catching sight of the chip bag and start walking away from him..
That is untill, his hand shot out to grab the back of your shirt, immediately shoving you back against the counter you were leaning against
A soft grumble escapes your lips at being manhandled like a pup by her parent
Your beloved boyfriend's eyes are dialated, and you couldn't help the thrill that ran up your spine as you looked up at him
Michael.. of course noticed- and let out a soft snort removing his grip and instead hoisted you up on the counter by your left thigh. one-handed mind you.
His sharp gaze locks on yours again, a frown still plastered on his face
"You. Made me a meme." He hissed, still not over the whole thing that started this. Your stupid post.
You smirk, the post was up for barely 24 hours yet it already had the algorithm on its side
"Be grateful I didn't use the missed magnus shot, crashout pic.."
"Oh Schatz you wouldn't dare." He grit out through clenched teeth, and your thighs tremble from his grip on them
"Do you get off from making me mad or something?" He hissed out, smacking your thigh.. lightly in his standards but enough to make your bottom lip tremble.. partially from the sting and partially in excitement
"How do I deal with masochists like you, hm?" He hums out, tapping your chin up and cupping it between two fingers- forcing you to hold eye contact
Your legs swing from your place on the counter, your head tilting into his touch
"Just shut up and.." your voice trailed off at him tightening his grip enough to squish your cheeks together
"And what..?" He coos, a small smirk gracing his lips as he pulls you closer to the edge and hooks your leg over his hip
You scoff, hands moving to hold the back of his neck as you impulsively pressed your lips to his.. wanting to kiss that infuriatingly pretty smirk off his lips
He just smiled against your lips trailing a hand up your neck then fixing on the back of your head, forcing you back into his mouth
Your little sounds against his lips puts him into a better mood than before, and he scoops you up from the counter
"Infuriating woman.." he scoffs pressing a lingering kiss under your jaw, your hands move down to rest steadily on his shoulder
"Does this mean I'm forgiven?" You ask, hooking your ankles together on his lower back- an action which you just knew got his knees weak
"Not a chance.." he near purrs, pressing his lips back to yours as he stalked to your bedroom and threw you onto the bed- caging you to the soft sheets
His hand tangled with both of yours, holding them gently over your head..
You're left breathless as he breaks the contact between your lips, pulling away to just admire your dazed expression
"Cute.." he grunts out with a slightly loop-sided grin
"Shut up..!" You scrowl out, trying to break away from his grip on your wrists
"Ah. ah.. you're the one who started this." He reminds flicking your forehead with his free hand
You pout sweetly and his smirk widens, hand sliding smoothly into his backpocket to take his phone out and snap a picture of your expression
All wide-eyed and glossy and so so pretty. just for him. Lips slightly puckered out because of him. Always just.. him. with you, wasn't it?
"Trying to test my patience here, dear?"
"Oh hush.. M'not trying to test anything.." you grumble out, slightly embarassed by the photo he just took
"Adorable." He hums out.. placing his phone on the stand, his thumb moving to smooth over your bottom lip
Your cheeks flush and suddenly the ceiling was a lot more appealing than his face
Okay no- who were you kidding, you folded almost immediately at hearing his soft chuckles, gaze needily flickering up to catch sight of his own amused gaze, eyes twinkling with mirth.
"You're obsessed with me"
"As are you so shut up..!"
"Don't think I will, Liebevoll~" he drags out, moving closer to slowly trace his nose down the side of your face
You grumble turning your head to try meet his lips
"Impatient.." he sighs, clicking his tongue in mock disapproval
However, he does cup your cheek meeting the retrot at the tip of your tongue with his lips instead.. the bed slowly creaks with the movement of him ontop of you-
"You think you can just kiss it better huh..?" He asks breathily against your lips
"It's working..!" You shoot back, hands gripping at the collar of his shirt to pull him down against you again
"You're gonna have to do better than that for me to forgive you, love."
Lwk one of my favourite works and I don't even like this bastard tht much..
THE STRUGGLE
── .✦ CHAPTER-4 : Burden of Guilt
SUMMARY : Dealing with emotional and physical collapse, learning the skill of avoidance yet still falling prey to your own mind. (3.6k words)
TW : graphical descriptions of hysteria, panic attacks as well as hallucinations towards the end.
CHAPTER-3 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-5
"I fixed the shutter.." Rin states, his index and middle loosely holding onto your wrist as he leads you to the nearest restroom
Your brain screams at you to turn and see the mess of blood you'd left behind.. you ignore it, instead focusing on the steady patter of rain.
You admit to yourself you'd miss it if it stopped.
It was grounding in a way.
Soon, your gaze stays trailed on Rin's back..
He was grounding in a way too.
"Thanks.." you murmur into the quiet.. he acknowledges it with a slight tilt of his head but doesn't still his movements
"You're not gonna ask for what..?" You hum.. feeling oddly in a teasing mood. Usually you wouldn't even dream of talking to Rin in a casual manner.
"For what..?" He asks, humouring you a little and a small smile breaks across your face
"I don't know." You say bluntly, and if he feels an annoyance- then you can't really tell from any of his mannerisms.. it's a bit weird seeing him all docile, but people processed trauma in different ways you supposed.
Your way was avoidance.
'I don't know' was quickly becoming a phrase to utter whenever you were forced to put something into words.
Perhaps bringing it up with Rin was some kind of acknowledgement to yourself..?
You still.. and it kind of doesn't work cause Rin keeps pulling you along by the wrist.
A tendril of annoyance seeps in, and for some reason you're rather pleased by it than mad.. you open your mouth without any words in mind, just wanting to keep the conversation going and spill whatever popped up in your mind first.
Rin sighs. it's a ragged thing.. one you'd expect from a seasoned war veteran, not a classmate.
Though you'd always supposed Rin was an old soul..
"We'll address whatever you want to say in the restroom. I don't want blood on my hands any longer.." he exhales and suddenly you're smacked in the face with guilt
Ah. You've been rather self-absorbed haven't you?
He's been on his feet since the whole thing started.. having run to the top floor and back without any break, soon then exposed to another emotionally burdening task.
You don't know the details but Saburo-ojisan and him had a close relationship as well..
Ojisan was loved.
You feel a spike of hatred for Ego-sensei.. what if there was hope of saving him and that shot took it all away..?
It's a bit odd he had a gun on his persona at all to be frank. And weapons vault? Why the hell did the school even have one??
A soft exhale leaves your lips.. maybe you'll get answers when you get back.
Although, you're not too sure you want them.
You wonder how Rin felt while lifting ojisan onto the assembled bed.. atleast Anri-sensei was there. she would have talked him through it, you're sure.
A small part of you registers you're in the gent's restroom if the mini urinals are anything to go by- and you're suddenly reminded that this is the elementary floor again.
Everything's mini actually, Rin feels even more of a giant than usual in this setting.
He coughs and your focus directs to him entirely.. before your name could leave his mouth, he lurches. kneeling at the mini sink and throwing up everything he's been holding in.
His breathings unsteady and you let out a low gasp before kneeling beside him, turning on the water and rubbing circles into his lower back..
He grips the edges of the sink like a madman.. absolutely heaving.
The sight of water compels him to wash his hands.. they're shaky. your heart aches a little but you're not sure how to help.
Soon he rubs.. then rubs a little faster, he gags but nothing comes out- he just rubs.
The blood was bothering him.. you realise and quietly take some water from the faucet, using your bare hands to clean the sides where he'd gripped it and bloodied it..
Pink coats the sink as well as his hands. He retches again, and this time it's bile. Not solid.
You clean your hands on another sink and resume running circles on his back again.
The tiles dig into your bare knees but it barely registers.. he keeps his hands under the flow of water, gaze locked intently on them but atleast his breathing was starting to steady
"Your hands are pink from the blood flow.." you remind when he tries to rub them again, he doesn't pause at your words but the obsessiveness to the rubbing fades a little
He coughs again and you rub the circles a little higher on his back- finally he cleans his mouth and gargles, spitting out a mixture of saliva and whatever body fluids had stuck to his teeth while vomitting.
You notice his eyes are bleary as they look up, and he quite promptly freezes when he looks into the mirror. You follow his gaze and your breath hitches as well.
Right. His uniform is bloody.
You think you caught the exact second he started hyperventilating. His breathing goes shaky again- but this time it's more volatile, you catch it in the way his shoulders quiver as he clutches the edges of the counter holding the sink up.
You can practically feel his heartbeat despite your hand resting on his back and you feel your own heart rate spike as well.
A moment of helplessness takes you as he stares into the mirror like he doesn't recognise himself.. smashing the mirror would do more harm than good right now.
"Look elsewhere..!" You order, hesitantly patting his cheek to look at the wall onnthe other side instead
He doesn't look anywhere but the mirror.. infact he barely registers the movement, his gaze is locked and you register his tongue lolling out as his breathing gets heavier.. bile drips out his mouth again but suddenly he trashes.
You scoot back a little lost before mind-numbing fear grips you..
Could he have lost his humanity..?
Over the sound of your heartbeat, you hear him choke on a cry and the fear settles down just a little bit.. he claws at his shirt, his whole body shivering as he tries to rip the collar off.
You scramble to sit up again and glance at the pipes, getting a rather messy idea..
Well.. you were damp from the rain anyway.
You duck and use your foot for leverage as you disconnect the pipe from the sink connections-
The water rushes out at high speed, soaking you further before you can redirect it at Rin
Rin stills as the cold water hits him at full force.. he's still on his knees but he settles a little more comfortably than the rigid position he had been stuck in before.
You hesitantly draw a little closer, water aimed at his chest and arms while his movements steady- the grip on his collar loosening before it limply falls at his side.
You redirect it to his face and watch him splutter and close his eyes, his jaw contracts from its stiffness and his eyes grow a little clearer.
Soon, you drop the pipe.. the water around him a diluted pink, you reach to nudge his jaw close and he slowly retracts his tongue inside.. bringing a hand up to push your hand from his jaw.
His breathing doesn't still entirely and there's still something like panic in his eyes.. but there's coherence.
"Hi.." you mumble, letting your hand linger in the air before dropping to kneel infront of him.. the cold water still rushing out and cooling your bare knees.
"Mm.." he acknowledges, bringing the pipe up to his frame and scrubbing the dried blood off his shirt.. the pink persists at some parts. He might've just pushed the blood inside the fabric with the way he was scrubbing it from the front.
But when he glances at the mirror, you're relieved to see the spark of recognition in his eyes before he riggedly tries to clean his shirt again.. you catch the exhaustion in his movements but it makes him feel so human that you almost want to bawl your eyes out.
Relief floods your entire system- at some point you register his need for privacy and choose to turn to stare at the ventilation.. satisfied that your own heartbeat was settling as well.
Seeing that your back is turned, he strips the shirt off and scrubs it against the tile- directing the cold water towards it..
He checks his upper body for any blood stains and finds himself rather clean, cracking his neck after registering how strained it felt
You stiffen when you hear the sound of his belt unfastening and he pauses as well.
"I want drinkable water.." he says throwing the wet shirt on just for namesake really-
You nod, turning to find the door- avoiding looking at him at all, just stepping out to give him some proper privacy and to save yourself from the discomfort.
You're alone now.. and as much as you'd like someone beside you right now- being alone didn't bother you as much as you originally thought it would, infact you feel rather calm.
With the task of getting water in mind, you let your feet lead you to the water dispenser on this floor..
Thankfully there's a metal cup, so you fill it to the brim.. then place the cup down to cup some water in your palms and drink it from there.
You didn't realise how thirsty you were.
The water chills your throat but you feel a lot fresher and coordinated with your mind than you did before..
You grab the cup.. unfortunately spilling a little from the top, you decide to be a little more careful and just walk slowly.. Rin probably wasn't in a rush for it anyway.
He was probably cleaning his pants.
You didn't want to think of a mental image so you shove the thought out entirely.
It's still foggy inside you realise, batting at it with your free hand.. well- you knew where the bathroom was so it wasn't a problem, but it was still weird it didn't settle yet.
The bathroom arrives a lot faster than the water dispenser and you stare at the door for awhile.. hearing sounds of him whipping the shirt or pant you guessed- to get it to dry.
Soon it stopped and you hear ruffling instead..
This feels very embarassing right about now so you focus on the window infront of you instead.. perhaps you should suggest the idea of putting storm shutters atleast on the ground floor to Ego-sensei.
The sharp sound of zipping cuts through your thoughts and you take the cotton out from where you hid it, to shove into your ears to tune out any other incriminating sounds you'd rather not associate with Rin.
Storm shutters. Yes. Haha.
You wonder how Ego-sensei and Anri-sensei are getting on with.. well- they never explained what they were gonna be doing.. Rin had said something along the lines of research before they went to get the body inside..
A feeling of unease hits you.. would they disect it..? Take tests like dealing with the result of a failed experiment.
Would they look the same as when you last saw them..?
The door swings open.. and you turn- quite startled.. his presence registers and soon you notice his hair is wet as well- a little frazzled too like he'd tried drying it with something.
You hold the cup up and he accepts it without asking or any sign of gratitude, he quite practically gulps it down- some spilling past his lips and down his chin..
After everything that occurred.. why is the act of him drinking water the thing that disgusts you the most?
He hands you the cup back and you just hold it with a look of apprehension on your face
"What did you want to say?" He asks fastening his tie.. the uniform is still damp, and you probably would see things you aren't supposed to if you look anywhere but his chin.
"Thanks for not letting me lose my mind" you say simply.. a hint of exhaustion creeps into your voice and so he doesn't push, quietly including his head.
"Did you drink..?" He asks, internally a little guilty for how quick he drank that without leaving some to offer you
You nod, still holding the cup in hand.. not quite sure where to keep it..
"Mhm.. drank.." you affirm, suddenly a bit concious about your own disposition.. while you were pretty clean already from the pipe incident- you did want to freshen up and wash your face on your own obligation.
Rin moves aside after your affirmation, there's something sheepish in his posture as he gestures the pipe you pulled out
"I don't know how to fix it.." he admits.. the pink water wasn't spread across the floor anymore.. Rin must've opened the drains then.
You hadn't been thinking much when you pulled it out- but you did want to use the sinks so perhaps you'd atleast try.. hence kneeling beside it to connect the end from where you'd pulled it out..
The pipe fit- but it was loose and water still got out from the outer edges.
Well this sucks.
"Where's the supply valve.." you grumble, letting the connector pipe loose.. the water immediately soaks your lap again and you shiver this time, the cold water was absolutely chilling.
Well- atleast your senses were finally catching up.
You redirect the pipe and stand up, the chill following for awhile as you look for the valve.. finding it behind the pipe connection and quickly turning it off.
The water slows until nothing drips out.. the drain nearby soaks up the excess water and you sit down again to see if you can fit it..
Rin moves to sit beside you, looking as lost as you felt with the pipe in hand- but he also a little confused at your effort
"We can leave right..?"
"I wanna fix it.." you grumble stubbornly, shoving the pipe inside again and lining up the threading.. it definitely feels tighter but you wanted to test with the water
You look at Rin who's closer and he quirks a brow but leans forward to open the valve again.. he did it with much more ease than you and you're again reminded how easily this guy gets on your nerves by just existing.
A spray of water hits you straight in the face before you can redirect it so you pointedly ignore the amused look in his eyes to focus on tightening the locking nut on the pipe end
There's no leak again so you stand and open the sink a little.. it drips. and you open it a little more- half expecting the pipe to break so you step further from it.
The flow comes out steady and you exhale, registering Rin standing up aswell
"I'll wait outside.." he informs, heading out and closing the door but not entirely, leaving it with a small open gap.
You cup the water in your hands and spray your face with it.. the water is chilling- probably cause of the rain.. but it's also rather refreshing, you blink at the mirror- rubbing your eyes.
Water trickles down your chin and dips into your collarbone, you shiver at the cold.. gaze still trailed on the mirror as you take yourself in.
The dried blood on your shoulders catches your attention first and you decide to deal with that, bending to wet your sleeve and turn it inside out to scrub it off from the inside.
Saburo-ojisan's blood. Your mind supplies.
Your movements don't cease.
There's no pink stain..
You don't know how that makes you feel, you reason that you're too tired to make sense of it.
The position is uncomfortable but you'd rather not burden yourself with the task of taking it off and putting it on again.. the school waistcoat also added to burden of undressing.
You clean the other shoulder without problem as well, rubbing your neck to ease the discomfort and just staring at yourself
The damp cloth still clings uncomfortably and you feel rather disgusted by wearing wet socks.
It'll dry.
It'll all dry.
Your hair is only wet at the ends- but you do look like you'd just gotten out of bed..
God.. Hyoma would kill you if he saw you right now.
The thought makes you smile before you can help it..
He'd probably claim he didn't even know you.
You think dryly, while pulling your hair out of the hairstyle you'd donned in the morning..
After combing your fingers through your hair for awhile.. it was a bit wet at the tips after everything but you're not too concerned about it, just styling it a little neater and staring at yourself again.
You're clean.
That's enough for now.
You wash your hands again without any specific reason in mind and walk out.. finding Rin picking out the dried blood from his fingers tips.
As soon as he caught sight of you- he went inside again, you hear the sound of the tap turning on and turn to find him scrubbing under his nails..
You find yourself self-conscious and check your own nails, but thankfully there's nothing.
He stares at his a little longer after washing, having turned the tap off. Then he wrung his hands and joined you outside.
"Are you okay?" You ask when he fails to meet your gaze, he walks ahead and you trail behind him.. it's oddly awkward you realise.
"Mhm.. are you?" He fires back and you find yourself pausing
"No.." you murmur honestly.. you didn't know how you'd react if you saw the bloodied hallway again.. if you remembered the shot. if you remembered the way he blee-
"Stop." he orders, and you still.. mind in the process of rebooting after that abrupt stop to your thoughts.
"You think out loud.." he says, watching the way your brows furrow in confusion
"Or maybe you're a mind reader.." you grumble, almost suspicious.. were you that easy to read? Well- according to Hyoma, you were easy in general.. but that's completely different!
"Maybe" he offers, and suddenly you're offended at the mere thought.. you're gonna have to start filtering your thoughts around him if that's the case- atleast you'd kept out the embarassing thoughts of him naked.
You immediately backtrack again, cause what.
You've definitely had more incriminating thoughts than that so why did you feel so embarassed.. are your cheeks flushed? You hope not.
Your hopes and dreams wither when Rin snorts. snorts. you did not think he was capable of doing that actually- it seems so un-Rin like and suddenly you're assaulted with the thought that you know Rin enough to classify what he may or may not do.
Well- Without taking into consideration your lack of accuracy in this particular scenario atleast.. the point still stands!
"Are we friends..?" You ask suddenly.. the word feels wrong to use with Itoshi Rin of all people- was he capable of friendship? perhaps you could classify your relation with him as trauma bonding.
"No" he says bluntly, and you're not really offended cause you didn't expect anything else
"Do you even have friends?" You grumble with a slight eye roll, his shoulders are relaxed.. a small part of you is really glad.
"None of the NPCs at this school are worthy of my companionship.." he states, shoving his hands into the pocket of his pants.. they're a darker shade of blue than usual- so he did wash them.
"Uh-huh.. how does one become worthy of your grace, lord Itoshi?" You ask with a quirked brow, was this guy a serious narcissist or just plain autistic.
"For one- I can't tolerate annoying people, and you're definitely top of the list." He states matter of factly, and really- kicking his family jewels seems like a really attractive option right now..
The Itoshi legacy can continue with Sae Itoshi.
You doubt Rin would be a good father anyway-
Not that.. you'd ever want to find out.
What's with the mortifying thoughts around Rin today?! And how did you stray from kicking his balls to that.
"Oi. You spaced out.. thinking of that guy again?" He asks evenly
Atleast mind reader theory is debunked. You're sure he would've run away after that particular train of thought.
"Huh..? Yeah. My.. first kill.." you murmur quietly, first kill huh. when had you accepted there would be more than one..
"He gave you the pistol.." he murmurs.. for some reason you think you catch a hint of sourness to his tone, so of course you latch onto it to annoy him.
"Mhm.. you jealous?" You ask.. wanting to do something cool like twirl the gun around but like.. if something went wrong- that would be a very stupid way to die.
He lets out a low tch, glancing at the weapon tucked in your skirt still
"Hm.. he just probably knew you couldn't defend yourself otherwise" he states while looking ahead again, his walking pace slowing slightly
You're a little offended but let it slide.. mostly cause he's kinda right- you didn't have his raw strength.. nor could you fathom roughhousing an adult or someone with a bigger build in general.
Not that you wanted to kill someone with your bare hands.. kill.. kill. Was that really gonna be a regular part of your vocabulary now?
Your head hurts again.
"Ego-sensei.." Rin greets with a discrete bow, you pause scooting to the side and offering a bow of your own
He paces around the hall infront of the classroom Anri-sensei had choose for sterilization..
There's no sign of acknowledgement for both of your return.. he's fiddling with a key in one hand and he was sweating a little, a part of you guessed his mind was racing a mile a minute..
Where was Anri-sensei then? Maybe she could relay something useful or advice to get some rest- you just wanted to cuddle with someone and sleep like a log..
The hallway is clean.. you're glad.
"Oi. Four eyes..!" Rin calls out and you reach your hand out to smack his arm, cause seriously?? Did that man seem approachable to him right now??
"Ow you bitch.." he hissed, kind of lightheartedly you realise-as he loosely swats your hand.. you can't muster much heat in your glare, but a glare is a glare okay?
Your brain feels a little fuzzy.. did Rin put the shutters on properly or not? Your vision started to get a little foggy..
"Shut up brats.. I'm having an epiphany." Ego-sensei snapped, pushing his glasses up and muttering to himself like a madman
Rin mumbles something snarky to himself but you don't question it cause it was aimed at Ego not you.. Actually, you were having similar snarky thoughts about the man- but atleast you had the courtesy to not voice them out loud.
An annoying sort of pain spreads over your forehead and you bring a hand up to touch it..
Ugh.. a fucking headache.
You were kinda overdue of one anyway.
Dizziness hits next and you decide you really want to lie down now.
Rin nudges you and you stumble, his mouth moves but you're not able to make out anything. Did he ask something?
For a second you look forward, you didn't want to crane your neck to look up at the bastard..
Your eyelids feel droopy and you briefly register your limbs feeling much heavier than usual.
A part of you realises you might faint.
Your vision clears a little, and you open your mouth to inform Rin that he might have to hold you up..
The hallway is clean.
Then suddenly it isn't.
The water's red. Why's there water? It's red.
There's a body.
A gunshot wound..
Was he human?
Did you kill him..?
Your name.. somebody's saying your name.
You want to hug Saburo-ojisan.
He has the nicest hugs.. you feel jealous of his daughters sometimes.
You hope the body infront of you isn't his.
You take a step forward.. is somebody scolding you? You feel the urge to sneeze.
The face becomes clearer.. and you feel relief course through you.. not Saburo-ojisan.
Then who's this..?
You can hear your heartbeat.. it's loud. You can't hear anything else.
Kaname Mirai.
Oh.
Why did you forget him?
THE MAN YOU KILLED IS NAMED KANME MIRAI.
Would you forget Saburo-ojisan too?
THE MAN YOU KILLED IS NAMED KANME MIRAI.
Would you one day have to kill Rin?
You remember Rin's breathing.. he's heaving. his tongue is out. something drips from his mouth.
Was he human still?
Would you forget him as well..?
.
You won't.
You won't forget.
.
The man you killed is named Kaname Mirai.
CHAPTER-3 << ಄ >> CHAPTER-5
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A/N : I honestly love writing this series and am so thankful bout not having to worry bout the word limit <3 Anyway, please leave comments ppl- 😭 I jst feel like I'm screaming into the void sometimes! Also damn- This chapter is pretty heavyy I hope it's understandable for now, I love making teenagers act like teenagers and rn? These two desperately need therapy. Ego is not fit to be in the presence of children and poor Anri isn't paid enough to babysit a whole school + Ego's ass. Andd I also hope you guys like reader's personality honestly, I dunno how I feel about it myself but it's fun to write!