personal blog for a space gay

I've decided that rocks are cool and irdc for superheroes rn and I still don't feel like me like terry feels very far off and unknown. I'm gonna post some more rocks now because I don't care

hello my name is I have no clue because I am not terry right now and idk what that means I jus feel like a different person tbqh but I don't feel upset anymore just sort of numb but I also don't feel like I know anyone that I'm supposed to interact with not even the person I'm dating. I don't know what's up but at least I don't feel like dying anymore.

tbh its jus an inner mantra of I wanna die and if I was f on my phone u couldn't probably read most of this I'm v upset idk what triggered it but I'm having another episode and it's not fun and I want it all to end tbqh

fuck I feel so bad and I kinda wanna die real bad. still not gonna talk to ppl about it lol

tbh I'm glad no one looks at this blog even tho I gave them the URL bc I can still break down and I won't worry anyone idk jus random thoughts. in other news I'm having a really not good time so I'm gonna sleep maybe I'll feel better afterwards. I know I won't feel happier but maybe. I'll feel number idk

fuck im gjsut so tired i sjjust wanas leep forever im getting worse and not betetr and i fucking hate this and i wanna die nd i dont wanna bug any one an be a nusieance and i dont know how to spll tha towwrkd but at this point i font even care im just so tired i wna t to die.

fuck I'm gonna die shit I hate this just kill me already I fucking hate feeling like this I feel awful but I don't wanna reach out bc then others would feel awful a n id jus be a burden and ppl would get tired of me and drop me like they all shoulda done a long time ago fuck fuck god I hate this I. hate me fuck I want to die

fuck fuck I'm falling again this random sad shit is makin me not good again I'm fck I don't know what to do I wanna talk to someone but everyone is having a good time rn and I don't wnna worry anyone or ruin their good time and I jus feel awful and self destructive and the thoughts are back and I've been disassociating real bad all day and I just wanna cry and tell and hurt myself bc I deserve it probably bc I'm an awful person for being so selfish and I don't know what to do fuck fuck god damn shit

fuckc im sorhy im jsu tnot good im sorry

no one woulld car eprobabbly

i wanana go home but i am homse but it doesnt felel ike home and i jsust feel sick

god i feel sick  id ont wwant to d this anymre but i dojnt have the courage either

i menan i coulld do i ti had th e new bottle of pain meds i bought tlast week bcc of headaches its almost full i evvvn opented it walire befor i closdd it an broke down shithi im soru shit fuck im jsut so itiredd

hosnntestly i jjust wwant to doie i dont twann abe here anymore im so tireddd imm juss i wanna give in to thee thghts ive been having gfor months becausse im so tired and i dontt wnna annoy annyone fuck

tfw sudden suffocating hopelessness and numbing sad uvu