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I want to wake up with you beside me in the mornings. I want to spend my evenings looking at you across the dinner table. I want to share every mundane detail of my day with you and hear every detail of yours. I want to laugh with you and fall asleep with you.

idk why you be wasting my time again. Repeating this cycle of coming back and go. I don’t got time to be wasting on you.

its been a while, its crazy just a few months ago I was just a newly hired working hard from 8am-11pm closing deals and handling compliances for the firm. now running a team of 10 and slowing building up to direction position. alot od sacrifices especially personal life. But it’s all worth it, at least due to you I was able to go to law school and push myself.

Had a rough start of 2021, ended my relationship and cut off my family Due to toxic environment and stress. I already been to the hospital twice this year. had kidneys stone and other health issues. I packed whatever I was able to take. I was about to get a loan to finish the last semester. Managed to land a job at one of the top 10 law firms. Just recently signed My own apartment in the city. Felt like I hit rock bottom, but lucky I was able to move up instead of down. hopefully things would get better this year as time goes by.

Wasted my time my time with you at least it's over now. knowing that you care to much about other peoplesopinion and what others see of you. All the negatives have driven me to the point of feeling lost and confused with myself. Feeling undervalued when we argue.

moving back is always hard, old memories good and bad. At least something has changed. People come and go. At least ur happy now.

it seems like everything is doing well for you. even thought I feel ambivalence whenever the topic of you is brought up.

There is a difference in caring for someone that meant something to you. Even thought were in different parts in our life. Even if were not close anymore. I would never talk badly of you or let anyone talk down on you. I still care, respect you and wouldn't do anything that would cause distress emotional and physically. Even if you don't want to talk to me it's fine. I Understand, I've made mistakes and it was wrong of me. But if you really knew me. You would know that I wasn't the type of person to just end things when things got tough. I always have patience when it came to you.

Sometimes I think about you. I wonder how you're doing now. And what you're going through. The last time I saw you