If I am no longer the "very thin girl," what am I then? Who am I then?

Starting today, I'm eating 100 more calories a day. My therapist doesn't think this is a good approach because it's still about control, but it's the only option I can manage at the moment.

I'm supposed to gain 200-500g per week. But I can't do that on my own.

I don't want to be able to see my shoulder blades in the mirror anymore.

I'm just skin and bones and I need and want to gain weight, but I'm so afraid of gaining weight. How pathetic can you be?

I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder today. And I feel nothing about it.