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âOf course I knew I had a choice, I chose it,â Ainsley snapped back, more hurt â no, more disappointed than she had expected that Amelia, of all people, didnât seem to understand. Edgar had; was it wrong to have assumed Amelia would, too? Of course Ainsley hadnât meant that she hadnât had a choice; sheâd meant that she hadnât had any other choice she could have chosen. How could Amelia not understand that? She would have made the same choice for Edgarâs sake, Ainsley knew that â or would she have? Edgar, surely, would have; that was why he, like Ainsley, had always gone to such lengths to keep his sister out of the war. Ainsley had assumed that both Bones twins felt the same, butâŚmaybe she had assumed too much of Amelia.
Ainsley had done a fair amount of that lately.
Her tangled, tortured heart sank lower in her chest as she stared at the witch she had once â for one beautiful, blazing, brief moment â entertained the mad, wild thought that she might have been able to fall in love withâŚand was now disappointed by. They were all of them so much less than they should have been.
âNessieâs not involved.â Ainsleyâs voice was low, soft â but her grip on her wand was tight and hard as stone. âNessieâs never been involved â not in any of it. Not the Order, not the Death Eaters, none of it.â Despite the ragged, tearing pain in her chest, she forced herself to meet Ameliaâs eyes head-on. This, above all things, she needed Amelia to understand. Because this wasnât about her aching heart or the oozing pain of a might-have-been. She wasnât staring at Amelia now as a lost chance for â well, for something that sheâd tried hard not to let herself think about. And now wasnât the time to think about that either, because whatever she and Amelia had been and might have yet been to each other, right now what mattered was that Amelia was part of the Wizengamot â was part of the law. And Ainsley needed her to understand that Vanessa Abbott was innocent. She had been the impetus for Ainsleyâs crimes, yes; but Nessie herself wasnât part of this war. Never had been. Never would be. Ainsley had sacrificed everything to ensure that; she wasnât about to see her sister charged for the crimes that Ainsley had willingly and wittingly committed in her name.
âAs far as I know, Jayesh isnât a Death Eater either.â That was harder to say, and the words came out bitter; it was unfair for the Rosiers to have allowed one of their own sons to slip the noose that theyâd knotted around Ainsleyâs jaw â but if (when) she left her sister, she might at least not leave her alone. And it would hardly be fair for Jayesh to be arrested simply on the presumption of his family name, either. So as much as the fact of his potential innocent annoyed Ainsley, she still had to say it. âThat doesnât prove anything â Iâm hardly trusted enough to be privvy to secrets â but I donât know why theyâd bother hiding it from me if he was, either.â She shrugged, curt and callous. âI hate him for tangling Nessieâs heart up in all of this, for being the reason weâve ended up where we are â but he didnât do it to us. He didnât tell her to lie to his family; as far as I know, he still doesnât know we did.â That was the biggest loose end left that worried Ainsley about her potential (inevitable) absence from her sisterâs life: how would Jayesh react when he eventually did find out the truth? How much of a blood-supremacist was he, at heart? But there was nothing Ainsley could do to save Nessie from those repercussions; a bitter potion to swallow, but there were limits to Ainsleyâs abilities. Sheâd trapped herself behind that silver mask to save her sister; she couldnât squirm free of it now no matter how much she wanted to find a way out so she could stay around to continue shielding Nessie after.
âSo yes, Amelia,â Ainsley said, her voice limp and toneless with disappointment, âIâve kept her safe and happy. As safe and happy as I can make her, anyway. We donât all have the luxury of sitting behind the solid walls of the Wizengamot while other people take the risks that will win â or loose â this war on our behalf, you know.â
Amelia understood; of course she did, she would be a fool not to understand what one would do for their sibling. After all, Edgar was her other half, a part of her she couldnât live without, a part of her soul. She had joined hte Order with him, after all, seeing the goodness though the laws they were skirting and breaking, because they were doing the right thing, and because Edgar was there and she trusted him and his judgement. Would that mean she would follow him into the darkness, if need be? That she would have become a Death Eater if she had to, in order to keep him safe and living? Of course.
The only difference was that she refused to believe her twin would be stupid enough to fall in love with someone that would put them into that situation where she would have to choose that, without letting her pull him out of it. She had to believe that heâd let her pull him out of that situation, love be damned, if it meant keeping the both of them safe. Sheâd pull him back, just like she should have done for Ainsley, just like Ainsley should have done for Nessie. Did the girl even understand what sheâd done? How could one pick such love of some man over that of a sibling?
But Amelia couldnât just say all of that to Ainsley, she could only hope that the tears and broken expression would be able to do that for her, as the other met her eyes and continued to speak.
âI understand you say that,â She finally spoke then, âAnd for her sake, I hope that itâs true. once heâs defeated there will be a full investigation into everything, a fair one, where if all the evidence proves sheâs innocent, proves theyâre both innocent, theyâll be fine.â She wasnât going to just protect Vanessa simply because Ainsley said so and because she was Ainsleyâs sister, although that was a tempting though, and she wasnât going to force charges on her for destroying Ainsley, although that was a slightly more tempting thought. She also wouldnât push for charges simply because of their last name, she would be fair and look at all the evidence, as was her job. Because it was the only way to do this, because it was the law.
âDidnât lie to her family?â That made Amelia curious, wondering what exactly had been lied about, and wanting to question how then it was that Ainsley was ensnared in this web, but Jayesh had stayed free of anything. It all felt so stupid and so wrong, and frustration boiled under Ameliaâs skin; even more so when Ainsley continued to speak and mention the âluxuryâ of sitting behind the walls of the Wizengamot. She grit her teeth, raising her wand just slightly at the other, narrowing her eyes.
âIâm here, arenât I? Does this look like sitting behind the wall?â She snapped then, âAfter you left... I joined The Order. I took a stand, because I couldnât just sit back and not know what was happening, and I couldnât keep losing people. And now? Iâm fighting.â She shook her head and looked around, making sure they were still alone. âYou know who all is taking risks? Who is here? Edgar is here. My friends are here. The man I--I might...â There was a sudden hitch in her words and she froze up, both realizing what sheâd been about to say, and even worse, who sheâd been about to say it in front of. Her heart thudded in her chest and she shook it off and quickly continued, hoping that Ainsley wouldnât realize what sheâd been about to admit.
âPeople I care about are here fighting, and Iâm doing what I can to help them. If any of them are hurt tonight, I promise you that whomever I find has evidence and is convicted of helping your Dark Lord will never know another nights peace for the rest of their lives,â She had added that about evidence and conviction because it was the right thing, and she needed Ainsley to understand that... but she was sure the other woman also understood that if anything happened to Edgar, all bets would be off at that point.















