taks!!

PLEASE READ: reminder that rpf/rps is fiction! please remain respectful of people's personal and private lives, and do not write real person shipping unless they have expressed being comfortable w shipping (like the smosh cast).

THIS TOO: im not very familiar w fandom culture, suck at social cues, am still a bit unsure of the social etiquette/unspoken rules of fandoms/tumblr mechanics, and rarely check my inbox. sorry if i come off as rude and pls correct me if i do smth wrong !!

• i'm taks, i use he/they, i'm an xntp-t and a SEAsian-american (🇨🇳🇹🇼 specifically)

• i started watching in 2023 through macdoesit but only became a part of the fandom in may 2025 after reading a spommy fic. it was the first fic i've read in years and now i'm here (i was less engaged w smoshblr in early 2026 oops)

• i love tommy, spencer, courtney, damien, arasha and angela. shout out to chanse, shayne, ian, amanda and olivia, so basically i love all of them. my favorite dynamics aside from spommy are shourtney/shourtcer/shourtmien, bowcrary, arangela, TOMMIEN!!!!, ianthony, trevrasha, oliviangela, trevor and the girlies, tommy and the girlies, etc but really i love any duo!!)

• aside from smosh, my fandoms are HEATED RIVALRY (incl. the game changers book series), SFAWDTE/DAWDTE, and VOCALOID/PROJECT SEKAI. i also enjoy the life series, other stuff in the sphere (hermit, vsmp, POW stuff, etc), jet lag: the game, dan and phil, macdoesit, conan gray, chappell.

• my non-fandom interests are embroidery, rarely art/animation, fic reading/writing (duh), botany, petrology, and native history/culture!!

• my main tags are taks talks (random stuff) and talks boards (mood/songboards, not much)

• one last note! personally, i don't like and don't write/draw smut in general, but esp not of real people. if you do that's cool ig, but don't comment/reblog smth weird on this blog please. jokes are generally fine!

my main social media (for fandom-related stuff at least) will always be tumblr! but i do have some others. most of them are empty lmao

ao3 account (same user)

tiktok account (same user) (dead ngl)

bluesky account (jstanothrspommyfan) (dead too i fear)

discord account (same user) (mostly dead)

if neither hell nor heaven are real, tell me then: is there anyone left to judge our reality's sin? but in the end, i breathe my last lie: "let us meet again."

天国も地獄も無いのならこんな泥塗れの現実を誰が裁けるの 透過、「また会いましょう」

とても素敵な六月でした (it was a very nice june) - eight english lyrics - elke sage portrayed - trevor evarts, arasha

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i finally got around to this! yay! this might be the favorite one i've made so far :D i lurve this layout (it took so much trial and error to get 😭)

"We are capable of suffering with our world, and that is the true meaning of compassion. It enables us to recognize our profound interconnectedness with all beings. Don't ever apologize for crying for the trees burning in the Amazon or over the waters polluted from mines in the Rockies. Don't apologize for the sorrow, grief, and rage you feel. It is a measure of your humanity and your maturity. It is a measure of your open heart, and as your heart breaks open there will be room for the world to heal. That is what is happening as we see people honestly confronting the sorrows of our time."

- joanna macy (???)

“God is Change— Seed to tree, tree to forest; Rain to river, river to sea; Grubs to bees, bees to swarm. From one, many; from many, one; Forever uniting, growing, dissolving— forever Changing. The universe is God’s self-portrait.” "All that you touch You Change. All that you Change Changes you. The only lasting truth is Change."

- octavia butler, parable of the sower

more below (not quotes just rambles)

(no he's not dead he just won't be there. also said birthday will be within the next month bc i don't wanna give the exact date)

(sorry this is so out of pocket. he's just been getting on my nerves so much my entire life and i finally realized i could literally just. not let him be there. i'm trying to cut him off as much as i can. i never talk to him or exist around him one-on-one, only in group settings where the rest of my family brought both of us. his presence makes me feel worse, heavier. his voice drains the fucking life out of me to the point where i'm straight up lethargic and zombie-like. by the end of whatever we're doing i'm just a lost walking corpse trying to find anything familiar. he doesn't deserve any of my sympathy for how fucked up he made me and i'm so proud of myself for being able to do this.)