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tags list: (because I am inconsistent!)
#juni.doodles -> drawing
#juni.drabbles -> writing
#juni.essay -> BIG yap/complaints
#juni.translates -> translation posts
#juni overanalyzes -> deep dives
#juni.screaming -> rants. block if needed!!
#juni.rambles -> non-fandom related stuff, mostly. ideas. imagines.
#inbox fed! -> asks
in addition to fandoms, here are some things that I like a bit too much:
history
sewing
reading. so many books.
typewriters
photography
also some things I will be complaining about
School (IB)
Uni
the government (all of them?)
the economy.
swim 😖
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Mentioned that Tarou, Jirou, and Saburou are like the most Generic Japanese Names you can give your sons and
I wonder
Would that be skmethjng that happened if they were idk orphaned or something???
Born off record or they were found after some disaster that took their parents, too young to know their names and their names weren't noted anywhere, something like that. . .so the authorities just went 'First Son, Second Son, Third Son' in order and those were their names from then on. (Or they only had Zenji's name on record because idk of the three he was old enough for school, so they just continued the pattern. Something like thst where their generic names aren't necessarily a product of tradition but just. . .Default.)
Like we know they were super poor so like. Idk if 'orphaned and cared for by someone else or a temple or skmething' would be a possible backstory with them. Like zenji never mentions other family or anything. And jiro mentions never having cared about having a home or clothing or food so like. . .maybe they just Did Not Have One? No parents no family no home, but fortunately they were fostered or adopted out(and subsequently returned) together? Or just stayed wherever they were raised together as orphans.
Idk. I don't know the like. Protocol in Japan wrt Orphans That Have No Family Or Names or something haha it just occurred to me that naming your kids 'first second and third' could just be like. A generic thing thrown at them by the state or the hospital or something.
I mean yeah I got massive unsupervised children vibes from them but also. Kirisaki isn’t a super popular last name? so the Orphanage/Institution either had an epiphany or their last names remained.
or their parents just weren’t creative lol
in China big families will often assign numerical nicknames to their children for example 张三 (this is the Chinese equivalent of John Doe btw lol) means (literally) Zhang 3, or third-born child of the Zhang family
So I’m wondering if instead of having it be a nickname they made them like. actual names. and maybe they all had nicknames like Zenji colloquially.
it’s not super uncommon for parents to kind of give up naming their children something creative in a big family but it’s two kids.
naming them tarou and jirou feel like naming them Thing 1 and Thing 2 so.
if they really did end up in an institution that assigned them names i’m wondering how their last name survived if their first names did not 🤔
WELL YEAH OBVIOUSLY THE MORE LIKELY THING IS JUST THAT THEY JUST USED GENERIC NAMES FOR THEIR KIDS but i was just exploring another possibility lol they were most likely just extremely poor and/or homeless with either Traditional Naming Senses or they were. Not creative/lazy lmao. "We know we want more than one kid so let's just keep count of them."
But yeah my thought with them being orphaned was like 'whoever named them knew the family name but not the kids' names so they just kinda went "uuuh one two three okay done 👌🏾"'
As for how their family name survived my thoughts were mostly things like finding documentation in the wreckage or the neighbors knew a couple named Kirisaki lived there(but they didn't know the kids.) Also I believe there are like government records of people's addresses and you can get them from like city hall so. I imagine in a case like "yeah we found three young children here after this accident" or something similar they'd have to check the records of the address and family, see if they can track down any extended family to hand the kids off to. Maybe they insisted on home births and as a result slipped under the radar with their kids until they were discovered.
Zenji said he came up with his penname himself I believe! So I'm pretty sure that he wasn't Zenji before he became an adult. Plus in the flashback Zenji uses 'Jiro' to address Jiro, so they probably didn't have nicknames either.
Shion and SM where they meet each other and he gets pissed that she isn't reacting to anything he does and ultimately ragequits because she's incapable of feeling fear
Mentioned that Tarou, Jirou, and Saburou are like the most Generic Japanese Names you can give your sons and
I wonder
Would that be skmethjng that happened if they were idk orphaned or something???
Born off record or they were found after some disaster that took their parents, too young to know their names and their names weren't noted anywhere, something like that. . .so the authorities just went 'First Son, Second Son, Third Son' in order and those were their names from then on. (Or they only had Zenji's name on record because idk of the three he was old enough for school, so they just continued the pattern. Something like thst where their generic names aren't necessarily a product of tradition but just. . .Default.)
Like we know they were super poor so like. Idk if 'orphaned and cared for by someone else or a temple or skmething' would be a possible backstory with them. Like zenji never mentions other family or anything. And jiro mentions never having cared about having a home or clothing or food so like. . .maybe they just Did Not Have One? No parents no family no home, but fortunately they were fostered or adopted out(and subsequently returned) together? Or just stayed wherever they were raised together as orphans.
Idk. I don't know the like. Protocol in Japan wrt Orphans That Have No Family Or Names or something haha it just occurred to me that naming your kids 'first second and third' could just be like. A generic thing thrown at them by the state or the hospital or something.
I mean yeah I got massive unsupervised children vibes from them but also. Kirisaki isn’t a super popular last name? so the Orphanage/Institution either had an epiphany or their last names remained.
or their parents just weren’t creative lol
in China big families will often assign numerical nicknames to their children for example 张三 (this is the Chinese equivalent of John Doe btw lol) means (literally) Zhang 3, or third-born child of the Zhang family
So I’m wondering if instead of having it be a nickname they made them like. actual names. and maybe they all had nicknames like Zenji colloquially.
it’s not super uncommon for parents to kind of give up naming their children something creative in a big family but it’s two kids.
naming them tarou and jirou feel like naming them Thing 1 and Thing 2 so.
if they really did end up in an institution that assigned them names i’m wondering how their last name survived if their first names did not 🤔
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HAVE YOU EVER WANTED TO SEE THE BROKEN UP PARTS OF THE LIVE2D SPRITES BUT YOU CAN'T RIP THINGS YOURSELF AND DON'T WANNA ASK ME OR SOMEBODY ELSE WHO CAN
Well I remembered how Bulk Rename Utility works so I could rename all of the files and I finally uploaded ALL* of the Live2D sprites to the archive! Now you too can look at a bunch of torn apart pieces of your favorite characters--mostly gore free!
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do we have any idea why taiga writes his name with the Latin alphabet?
he's not from a country that primarily uses it like luca, elias, or romeo, & it seems like more trouble than he'd want to go to just for pretentious flair like leo or kaito. plus that handwriting looks like mine. he is NAWT trying to look cute he is barely looking at the paper lmao
(side note, jfc ritsu, I don't think that's any earthly writing system at all)
actually, now that I'm looking through, like half the fucking cast writes their name in latin letters, what is going on. leo, kaito, and rui make sense bc of their specific quirks, but why jin and tohma?
anyway. jin spent so much time learning western languages i’m not surprised, tohma probably because it was a requirement of his job and just adopted a western signature? idk
do we have any idea why taiga writes his name with the Latin alphabet?
he's not from a country that primarily uses it like luca, elias, or romeo, & it seems like more trouble than he'd want to go to just for pretentious flair like leo or kaito. plus that handwriting looks like mine. he is NAWT trying to look cute he is barely looking at the paper lmao
(side note, jfc ritsu, I don't think that's any earthly writing system at all)
actually, now that I'm looking through, like half the fucking cast writes their name in latin letters, what is going on. leo, kaito, and rui make sense bc of their specific quirks, but why jin and tohma?
anyway. jin spent so much time learning western languages i’m not surprised, tohma probably because it was a requirement of his job and just adopted a western signature? idk
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(established relationship MC x Subaruuu)
We all know that Subaru has empathy towards anomalies,right? Soooo what iff MC and Ssubaru got into an argument because of itt?? ( ・∇・)
MC and Suba encountered a seemingly harmless anomalie during a mission.
Suba dosent want to capture or destroy it believing it is harmless but MC has a gut feeling that the anomalie isn't as harmless as it appears. They get into an argument (angry Subaa♡) and eventually MC reluctantly agrees to let the little guy go, on thier way back to the express train the anomalie followed them in and that's where the facade fell and it attacked MC. with Suba's guard down he was unable to react fast enough, MC was able to dodge just far enough to avoid a critical hit(still got hitt! We love an injured MC)......blahblahblah Subaru defeated the anomalie and him and MC apologized and made up!♡♡♡
Fighting with Subaru
An abandoned former anomalous institute.
They once advertised themselves as one of the greatest anomalous research facilities in the world. Safe environments. Ethical treatments. Goals of Preservation.
Yet all around you are rusted cages. Large padlocks. Used needles and shattered vials.
You expected Jabberwock. Not something that reminds you of Ultio.
Subaru stands unusually still. His fists clenched white.
You know what he’s seeing.
Lyca. In a dark cell. Cold walls. Two years.
Two years of being treated like something dangerous before anyone ever gave him a chance.
Your chest tightens as you rub his back to soothe him.
Ultimately, you decide to carry the search alone to give Subaru some time. The quicker you leave, the better for him.
You check each room and cage carefully.
Empty. Empty. Empty.
Until–
You open another door.
A putrid smell hits you immediately.
The heavy scent of blood.
Yet there’s not a single bit of red in sight.
In fact, the room is spotless. It’s clean. Too clean for an abandoned building. Too clean for this putrid smell.
A tiny squeak interrupts your thoughts. You head toward the sound cautiously. Behind a fallen cabinet sits something small. A plant anomaly.
It looks familiar so you pull out the file and flip through some pages.
The image matches.
“Exterminate immediately” Is stamped on the left corner.
Strange. You’ve never seen this before. Usually Darkwick prefers containment.
But when you lowered the papers, the anomaly stared back at you. Calmly.
It doesn’t have any claws or visible teeth. It’s even small enough to fit in your hands. Anyone would argue that it’s harmless. That it couldn’t hurt a fly.
And yet, even after multiple raids, it has survived. Out in the open.
Its eyes move down slowly. Studying you. It only stops at the scrape on your knee. At the little blood that seeps out.
Your stomach twists.
You’ve been in enough missions to know.
Something feels wrong.
You step forward.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper.
You draw your blade.
You raise your hand–
Shling.
Subaru stands before you. Holding your arm.
“...Suba?”
His hand trembles against yours.
“What are you doing?”
You blink.
“What?”
“Has it attacked you?” HIs voice comes out thin. “Has it threatened you?”
“No, but look.” You hold up the file. “It says exterminate immediately.”
He glances at the paper once, then drops his gaze.
“So just because it says that, you were going to do it?”
“Subaru–”
“We don’t know anything about it yet.”
"Yeah, but don't you smell the blood too?"
Subaru doesn't answer, he simply kneels down.
“You need proof? I’ll show you.”
The moment Subaru’s eyes land on the anomaly, it starts shaking. As if the temperature dropped suddenly. Like it’s scared all of a sudden.
He reaches for it.
“Subaru, wait.”
But he doesn’t stop.
“Talnandio.”
After a few seconds, Subaru’s eyes snap open. His face goes pale.
You immediately crouch to steady him.
His fingers curl. His voice cracks. “...They hurt it.”
Your stomach sinks. Because you know that look.
He isn’t seeing the anomaly anymore. He’s seeing Lyca.
“It’s just…scared.”
You know where he’s coming from. You've seen it all with your own eyes. But that icky feeling…it won’t go away.
You speak as carefully as possible. “Subaru.” He looks up. “...Your stigma only shows fragments.”
His glare hardens. At you now.
“...What are you saying?”
You swallow.
“I’m saying neither of us know enough.” You see it in the corner of your eyes. His hands shaking into fists.
“For now, we should take it back to the Darkwick and–”
“No.” His voice shakes. “They always do the same thing. They decide something is dangerous.” His shoulders tense. “They lock it up. They don’t listen.”
He’s looking at you. But his eyes don’t feel focused.
“The institute never listens.”
Your chest tightens.
“But I’m not them.” His gaze wavers. You continue. “I trust you…But I want to trust my instincts too.”
His jaw tightens.
For a second, you think he understands.
Then– his eyes drop.
“...You think I’m wrong.”
“No.”
“You think I’m being emotional.”
“That’s not what I said!”
He stands up abruptly.
“Then why won’t you believe me?!”
You freeze. Not once has Subaru ever yelled at you like this.
He opens his mouth, lips trembling. As if he knows he’ll regret what he’s about to say.
“You’re just like them.”
This time, his words are only a whisper. And yet, they pierce right through you.
Realizing what he’s said, his face drains. His eyes widen. He looks at you. At the hurt he’s caused.
“How...How could you say that?”
You stand to your feet, tears in your eyes.
He opens his mouth. But nothing comes out.
You sigh bitterly.
“You know what? Fine.” You turn. “Do what you want.”
Subaru watches silently as you make your way to the exit.
Then he takes out his scarf. The one he usually puts around your shoulders.
And wraps the anomaly before carefully placing it into his bag.
____
In the Galaxy Express.
You sit a few seats apart from him. Arms crossed.
The argument replays in your head. The yelling. The hurt.
But you hate seeing that look on his face. Like he might burst into tears at any moment.
You knew this wasn’t either of your fault. You were given a mission with little explanation.
You wanted to protect Subaru. Subaru wanted to protect the anomaly.
He’s still holding the bag tightly against his chest.
“...MC.”
You stare out the window.
“MC, I–”
Squeak.
Your eyes snap open. The bag starts to tremble until it shakes violently.
“Subaru! Let go!”
You rip the bag out of his hands and throw it. But it’s too late.
Vines explode outward. Fabric tears into smithereans.
Subaru jumps back. But you were closer and not fast enough.
Squelch.
Sharp pain flashes through your body.
A choked gasp escapes you as you look down. A vine has torn across your side. Warm blood drips onto the floor.
Subaru stares at you with eyes full of terror. His face goes white.
It got you. Bad.
“MC!”
Subaru tries to run to you but the anomaly attacks again.
He brings out his artifact, spreading the parasol open as a shield.
The stems slam against it. Again and again.
“Just–” He yells through the barrage of attacks. “Just stay there!”
You’ve never seen him move so fast.
He dodges. Redirects every attack while making sure none reach you.
Slash.
He rips through the anomaly.
It drops to the ground.
Slash. He slices through it again. And again. Until he’s certain it’s no longer alive.
Subaru pants, staring at the limp creature for a second before turning to you.
You’re sitting against the wall. One hand pressed against your side. A pool of blood spilling out under you.
“MC!” Subaru is immediately at your side. His hands hover over you, like he’s afraid his touch will make it worse.
His breathing is more uneven than yours.
“We’re almost there.” His voice cracks. “Just hold on.”
You nod weakly.
His shoulders start shaking.
“This is all my fault…”
“Subaru…”
“I’m sorry.” His head lowers. “I’m so sorry.”
His apology disappears beneath the sound of the tracks.
“I thought I was protecting it.” Tears spill down his cheeks. A drop lands on your cheek. “But I was just protecting myself. I wanted to be right. I wanted so badly to believe it was innocent.”
He presses into the wound harder. “I kept saying nobody listened to me.” His shoulders droop even further. “But then, I didn’t listen to you. And I said such hurtful things.”
You look at him. At the tears. And how hard he’s looking at your wound.
You lift your hand and cup his face. He flinches at your touch.
“Subaru. Look at me.”
“I-I can’t.”
“Not the wound. Me.”
Slowly, he does.
You brush your thumb under his eyes.
“Subaru. It’s true. You made the wrong call.” His face crumples. “But wanting to protect someone isn’t wrong. If anything…that kindness is why I fell for you.” More tears spill down his face. “But next time…can you trust that I’m doing my best to protect you too?”
His expression softens at that.
Finally, he leans into your palm. And nods.
“...Okay.”
“And.” He looks at you attentively. “Don’t give your scarf out like that. That’s only for me.”
He lets out a tiny laugh.
You do too. Then wince.
“Ow.”
“Meow. Meow. Meow. Our next stop is Darkwick Academy.”
Subaru finally lets out a breath and presses his forehead against yours.
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