Sweet & Strange.

May 2022

Ron: I'm an asshole

[lilly is in ron's arms as they are cuddling in bed]

Lilly: So am I

Ron: What makes you say that? [Ron is laughing but Lilly is being serous]

Lilly: Honestly I probably won't text you after this.

Ron: Why?

Lilly: I'm use to this. Plus you were talking about your Ex and how much you miss her. I am use to being used as comfort. I get it. Guys like to talk to me about their problems because I make them feel comfortable. But they don't ever want me as their girlfriend. So were just friends,okay.

Ron: What that's terrible! You shouldn't be treated like that. You shouldn't feel used. [Ron hugs Lilly harder] [Lilly gets uncomfortable]

Lilly: Please don't hug me like that. You're going to make me cry.

Ron: how come?

Lilly: Making me realize how sad my situations were. [Ron lets go]

Ron: We should go out on a date next week!

[Lilly giggles knowing that those are just words]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. Writing out your feelings. I am happy to see how wise you were. I didn't describe much in that post. But I can reassure you that nothing has changed on how you feel about him. I am going to post a longer post about your history with him. but for now just know. That you are a better healthier version that you longed to be. Your are no longer affected by your high school sweetheart. ATM you are putting all the pieces back together. six years have gone by since your heart break with your ex. You have finally communicated with him and felt at peace.

Currently, you have feelings for that man you feel in love with after your high school sweet heart. Four years later you blocked him from all social media. He did confess that he believes that their is this emotional and physical connection. But he wasn't treating you the way you wanted.

So, Emily. My love. We finally developed boundaries. We enforced it on the man we love. In the end. Your one true love is yourself. Even though you spend days thinking about it. Learning that he could be your twin flame. Because of all that's happened between the both of you. Which I will post like I already said, in a longer post about him. Overall, you will reach out when the time is right for you. but at this moment in time. You are going to the gym. Learning to save money to buy land and a tiny home. Getting your UX and social media manager certification. Planning a better future for yourself and whoever wants to share it with. You also stopped drinking alcohol and going out is what you don't do anymore. That is something to be proud of.

You are changing for the better.

I love you,

Look at the sky tonight, All of the stars have a reason.