I didn’t even have that much to do. But being the first day back from a two month vacation of just sleeping and doing nothing related to this type of work. 

I will focus on the small simple task, one at a time, and ask myself if I can do it. Can I take out my lap top? Can I email myself these documents? Simple stuff. 

embrace living at home - it won’t always be like that

When I turn thirty years old, I will read this post. 

My goal is to make the best out of these four years. What makes the best? Well, for now, the best is 1. live an exciting life 2. embrace experiences with different people 

That’s what I can tell for now. Because, one can argue that I already have the career. I’m helping people and making good money where I can travel the world, buy a house, and buy a fancy car. So it makes me put my attention and focus else where.

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there’s a cold hard fact to recognize. 

time moves really fast, so with that being said, if you don’t intentionally set smart goals, you will fail at whatever it is your goal is.

Now, because life and time only go in one direction, college is done. I’m back home with only my family and life has come full circle.

Felt so good growing up

Had the world at the palm on my hand

Made decisions that I regret

Would go back and do it all over again

How can I go back to that feeling?

Like the world is my oyster

Lately I feel lost and incapable in the world

I’m laying in bed and looking at the ceiling. I think to myself that one day I will have a family and eventually I will disappear. Would I have done everything I wanted to do? Would I have seen everything I wanted to see?

I thought to myself that I’ve become the opposite of what I’ve dreamt of. I could barely be a good person. I have no friends. I have no goals. I have no dreams that I am chasing or accomplishing. 

Why am I living like this? Why am I allowing this life I have go to waste? Why am I just existing? Why am I just eating, shitting, and talking?

You only have one life. The life you live is yours. You will give birth to children and they will have their own lives. Therefore, one should take full advantage of chasing their dream.

In my prime, when I would sit down and study with another person. I could tell what kind of grind they were on, instantly.

That’s cold.