jules manticore

maybe the pain was supposed to help me be the man my dad wanted me to be but i think when he saw it for the first time he saw a weakness in me

its kind of crazy how we all feel so alone yet here we are.....together on this app deep down, we all think we're super messed up and no one could understand but scrolling through certain tags i realize some people do understand. not the same life i live but the same theme. maybe if we all sat down under those parachutes youd have in music class things wouldnt feel so daunting

how are some people already getting suspended on mastodon bro

why do the best posters always get t4rm3d so quickly tumblr why did you become corporate and evil

oh and about my last post TW: $H its weird to think about but lots of people kind of assume guys dont do it. i had kids in my school find out a couple years ago and they were super surprised i guess despite me displaying obvious signs

TW: $H im kind of jealous of people who can do it on their arms because i would get caught so fast. same with most of my thighs cause i have shorts for my work uniform as soon as i move out bro im going crazy

more nigthmare talk uhh had a dream of being tormented and then taken in by someone who seemed to actually care with these pet rats but he removed my lower body to leave my spine exposed and i couldn't really do much tbf

i am yelling out into the void and the only response is my own echo that echo is me liking my own posts

geniunely gonna get my shit rocked if my parents find out anything about my life also ive had awful nightmares since last time i posted but a more recent one involved FAKE TUMBLRE THIS IS A FAKE STORY babies and puppies getting run over and i lowk just had to watch and when i could move i died and felt everything and stayed smeared on the pavement until i woke up

i can barely focus on my real life when each time i go to sleep im just tortured

sometimes i dont feel sick enough to even be called sick