Gene

whenever i feel lonely I always think of something happy.... although sometimes memories comes sadness in the end.. but in the end it’s all in you whether you get back up or you get back down... 

earlier in the day I was riding a jeep with a signage PUSH! funny how I read it because of the meaning that comes with it. the signage says....

P- pray U-until S-something H-happens

great right?? that made day! I never thought that simple word can make my day.. I only thought that one day I will come to talk to someone who can share my laugh, my anger, my feelings, sadness and everything...... someone who will care for me. someone who will not easily give-up on me.. especially someone who will share with me the rest of her life...

1. Tight Hugs - ung halos ayaw mo ng bitawan yung kayakap mo

2. Long Text Message - prang nobela na ung cnabi nya pero bbsahin mo pdin.

3. Pinching a Girl’s Cheek - squeeshy tpos mapintog ung cheeks nya!! hayy heaven!

4. Taking Care of Someone - ung checheck mo kung kumain na siya, naligo, nagtootbrush, at everything.

5. Kiss on the Forehead - khit na hndi ko to naramdaman prang namimiss ko nmn gwin to.. feeling kc nila secured sila pag gnawa to.

6. Making someone Laugh - khit down na down siya mkakahanap k pdin ng paraan pra mpatawa sya.

7. Going on a Date - although hndi ko to mxado nagawa pero I think that first and last time is special.

8. Looking someone in the eyes - seriously this one way of showing how you love a person.. hndi dahil nkatitig k sknya ng mtgal kundi nkatingin ka sknya kc gusto mo mramdaman nya na importante k sknya.

9. Eating with someone - I remember everytime na kakain sila tuwing 8 p.m. at matatapos siyang kumain ng 9 p.m. kc sobrang bagal nya kumaen.. haha

10. Having Super Late Night Calls - sigurado sa lahat ng bagay eto ang pinakanamimiss ko.... naalala ko pa dti quarter to 4 na ng umaga pero mgkausap p kmi tpos nung me nrinig kami na bumakas na pinto gling sa kwarto ng parents nya bigla kaming nanahimik at inintay kung anu mangyayari and after that nagtawanan lng kmi then nag goodnight na! XD 

this doesn’t mean anything to me and her. I only put this because I miss this times. I surely miss a lot of things... but I know I will feel it again someday. maybe not now but eventually..... 

it’s been a while since I last open this account..... I read all the things on this and LAUGHED so hard thinking how the fuck did I became okay... seriously how did that happen....

hi bestfriend tumblr! I’m back!  ready to listen to my new stories?? Haha it’s so good to be back. 

Para sa bestfriend/baby/ or babylove at kung anu-ano pa maraming salamat sa lahat ng bagay na pinadama mo sakin akala ko wala ng magpaparamdam sakin ng MAHAL nila ako as I am at hindi bilang kaibigan. pero meron. me isang tao na  na pinakita sakin na SPECIAL ako sa iba.. na hindi nya kayang mabuhay ng wala ako, hindi siya sasaya ng hindi nya naririnig  ang boses ko, at makukumpleto ang araw nya ng hindi kami nag-uusap..

You made me special.. para bang everyday kailangan mong  mabuhay kasi kailangan ka niya.. Ung tipong kakamulat mo pa  lang ng mata mo cellphone mo na agad ang titignan mo kasi baka me text o call na siya.....Tapos lagi mong babantayan ang  cp mo baka kasi magtext o tumawag siya... basta napakasaya pala magmahal sa taong mahal ka din..

Wala akong pinagsisihan sa bawat araw na nagdaan samin... konting asaran, kwentuhan, harutan at lalo na ang lambingan. paglumalaki na yung butas ng ilong nya dahil sa selos. yung  titignan nya ako sa malayo para malaman kung nasaan ako. at ung kukurutin nya ako kapag naghaharutan kami.. 

nangako kami sa isa’t-isa na hindi kami maghihiwalay at kami  ang magpapatunay ng “FOREVER” sinabi ko sa sarili ko na  siya na talaga. at wala na akong hahanapin pang iba. Mahal  na mahal ko siya at alam ko din na mahal na mahal nya ako. akala ko mapuputanayan talaga namin ang FOREVER pero hindi pala....

napagod at nagsawa na siya... dahil hindi na daw equal ung  love na meron kami... humigit na daw yung pagmamahal nya sakin kesa pagmamahal ko sakanya.. 

iniwan niya ako kasi sabi nya hindi na siya masaya. hindi ko  na tinanong kung bakit dahil hindi kakayanin ng puso ko. hindi ko na sinabing ituloy pa natin kasi hindi kana masaya. at ang gusto ko lang naman ay sumaya ka. 

napakasakit malaman na wala na siya.. wala na yung babeng  halos 3 taon kong inalagaan, iningatan at minahal ng buong  puso. nawala na lang ng parang bula.

maglilimang buwan na simula nung araw na iniwan niya ako sigurado ako na masaya na siya ngayon. at kung me iba ng  nagpapasaya sa baby ko.. ipagdadasal ko nalang na sana  hindi siya ulit masaktan at lumuha.. 

siguro nga hindi na ako nageexist sa mundo nya ngayon. at siguro nga hindi na din ako importante sakanya. ganun pa man ayos na din ako.. basta nalalaman ko na masaya siya at nasa maayos ang kalagayan hindi na ako kikibo o sisiksik  pa sa buhay nya...

31 months sure is long... and i thought we can make it further more but i think it’s enough.... but I will FOREVER be here..  promise is a promise.. I will wait that’s a PROMISE.

sigurado ako wala naman makakabasa neto... pra akong tanga  nakausap ang sarili ko.... alam ko maraming beses ko na din  sinabing susuko na ako... kung kaya ko lang matagal ko ng gnawa.. pero hindi ata. hindi ko ata kayang kalimutan ang  tao na nagparamdam sakin na SPECIAL din ako sakanya.. for now I will take a moment of silence.. hindi na ako magstalk ng profile, iiwasan na din ang ibang bagay na madalas naming  ginagawa at pipilitin sumaya araw-araw...

A friend who will put you first in everything is worth having... even the smallest thing he/she do means so much to you.. a friend who will put his life on the line to save you.. a BESTFRIEND who will take you in all of your dreams.. more especially a BESTFRIEND who will never leave you alone...

I’ve been wandering... how in the world will I know if she has somebody who can make her smile, laugh, and happy all at the same time.. 

I’ll be a fool to say that she needed me to feel that way again. but now I know.. What I see and what I hear from it.. My greatest fear happened. You have someone who can make you feel special besides me.. 

It’s breaking my mind, my soul, and my heart just to know that you have someone you can rely on. You have someone who will make you first in his priorities. 

“what i have waited in 1 year he get it in months... and I think.. That’s more than enough”

right now I’m giving up on you... not because I don’t Love you anymore but because you got something better than me... all my life all I ever wanted was to make you happy and now someone is doing it for me...

and “That’s more than enough for me to give up” 

I want to face the facts. I want to see the future.. I want to believe in miracles.. and I want you to show me that but even if miracles are real I can’t even feel it without you that’s why I’m waiting... waiting for you.... My Greatest Miracle. If you are not here.. If you are not there.. I will always be right here waiting for the stars to lead me back to you

I can smile a fake smile.. I can laugh a thousand times  but no happiness can make me forget how you make me feel so special

I know forever is too much but when I’m with you, forever is real The way you look me in the eyes and  the touch of that soft lips...

with that I think FOREVER is real..

to hear your voice every morning was the alarm of my sleeping heart your lasting smile that can change my day and your warm embrace when it’s cold at night

it’s been 3 months since that night and I haven’t accept till now but I want to feel special again... I want someone who can stay by my side

but I’m scared... to love again and get hurt I’m scared to left alone again all that I love left me alone and Pain is all that is left......

kaibigang tumblr last ko na to... hihi next tym nlng ulit tayo magusap.. if something special or bad happened to me.. bbalitaan agad kita... haha 

Even if the whole damn world is against me from loving you.... 

“I will still continue to follow my dreams”