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i came onto this show thinking i’d have fun while it lasted and then move on with my life unchanged, but i was changed the moment i met you, even if i hadn’t realised it at the time. i’m not perfect either, i’m still learning how to love, still growing, and i know i will mess up along the way. but i’ll always be there for you too, for as long as you want me; your mess is mine, and mine is yours. we’ll figure it out together, you and i.

“ OH, so i foiled your plans, huh? damn me. seemed to be starting my trip off on a bad note. though find me the next time you want to do that, i’d be happy to join. ” even though his words were the opposite of his smile across his face, nixon didn’t mean what he was saying. he was happy to be there and he assumed that the girl was as well. there was a moment that it felt like the girl, jude, was getting closer to him. it caused his own body start to lean into hers at the same time. the attraction pulling them together like it was a magnet. his head tilted to the side as she spoke, lips spreading and nodding along with her words. “ thank you, i was born with it. you can tell my parents they did a good job. ” his eyebrows shot up when she pulled away from him, like the moment was broken between them. it was curious to nix as to why they were doing it in the first place, he just didn’t exactly want it to end so quickly. “ i have no plans. my night is completely free and i’m at the moon’s mercy.  or yours i suppose. if you’ll have me. ”

jude found her grin widening at his offer, at the idea that there was a next time that could be spoken of so freely. “ you’ve got plenty of time to make it up to me, so we’re good. ” she hadn’t taken her eyes off him at all, so his reaction at her pulling away did not go unnoticed. there was something satisfying about knowing that she wasn’t the only one who was feeling the pull. jude was fairly certain she’d kiss him before the end of the night – she always was weak-willed when it came to these sorts of things – but not quite yet. “ hey mr and mrs young, you did a great job naming this one, ” she spoke aloud, gaze finding one of the unmanned cameras mounted on the wall that was constantly recording their movements, and then throwing in a wink for good measure. turning back to nix, she was contemplative for a moment before picking up her still half-full glass and downing the rest of the drink. not that she needed the liquid courage though. “ speaking of the moon, you had a chance to admire the night sky here, yet? because i know a way up to the roof, if you’re interested. the more important question though, is whether you’d rather share a bottle of dark rum, or if we should bust out some wine glasses. ”

“well now you know for future adventures to the beach,” serena teased and quickly followed suit, ditching her clothes on the couch next to jude’s. “nude beaches are becoming more and more normal. i’m sure no one would object to seeing that body of yours on full display.” the flirtatious vibe between the two was unmistakable and serena was loving it. “if they’re good kisses then why wouldn’t i keep you around?” she countered. the playful banter and witty remarks was something that serena was a fan of and was glad to see jude playing along. once the two were undressed, she took jude’s hand and lead her out towards the beach. the sun was bright and the breeze was crisp, a perfect beach day by any regard. “i hope you’re a fan of swimming and not just lounging in the sand. otherwise we’re going to have problems.”

“ think about the children though, ” she retorted, laughter betraying the fact that she wasn’t being serious. “ i wonder if they’re going to censor all the sensitive bits before it actually airs on tv, because i’d hate to have my nudes circulating the internet. i’d like to be able to choose who gets to see me without my clothes on. ” the inflection on the word and her tone in general made it clear that serena was included in her list of people she’d be more than okay with seeing her naked. there was no complaints at all on her end as serena took her hand, letting herself be led towards the beach. the moment she caught sight of the water though, she sped up, now being the one to pull serena along. “ no problems here, ” she grinned over her shoulder, “ it’s not a good beach day if you’re not soaking wet at some point. ” the double entendre had been intentional, mirth dancing in her eyes even as she refused to laugh. they were close to the water when jude had an idea, stopping in her tracks and reaching for serena with her free hand as well in order to pick the girl up. serena was rather petite, so it didn’t take too much effort for jude to run with the girl in her arms, going deep enough that serena wouldn’t be hurt if jude tossed her into the water–– which was exactly what she did. she’d probably pay for that in a bit, but the laughter had finally broke free and right now jude was far too pleased with herself to care about the consequences.

“oh gosh, dont talk about it. i can feel myself getting weak in the knees,” she laughed. she followed the girl and then looked down at a paper that the show emailed her, “103.” she began to scan the room numbers and clapped when she found it, “here it is!” she went and opened up the door, smiling and motioning for the other to come in. her suitcases surrounded the room and as she walked in, she pushed the to the side.

“ i hope that means i’ll be seeing you in the gym sometime. ” jude was on the opposite side of the hallway when alysia announced that she’d found the room, and so she made her way over, walking right into the room that looked exactly like her own, except much neater. her first stop was at the little sitting area, placing the bowls of food down on the coffee table before stretching out the kinks in her arms. “ alright, time to eat! ” flopping onto the couch, jude made herself comfortable, patting the space next to her. “ c’mon, these chips aren’t going to eat themselves. ”

“ drinking alone is a DAMN FINE decision. ” nixon said loudly, his laugh mixing with the words before looking over at the girl. the smile spread to almost a softer one looking at the girl, her features were soft and inviting. like nixon wanted to talk to this girl and learn all her secrets while just looking at her for a few moments. “ you want to join me and you’re drinking a gin and tonic? are you a woman after my own heart? should i be cautious that the show is providing me with a loophole or something? ” he matched her motions, moving in his barstool so that they were just looking at each other. it already felt more like the night was coming alive just from her arrival. “ nixon. young, nixon young. nix if you’d prefer. and yours? or is there going to be some allusion to mystery here? ”

“ i’ll drink to that. ” clicking her tongue once lightly, jude picked up the glass that had just been placed in front of her and tipped it towards the man before taking a nice, long swig. “ just between you and me? ” she leaned forward, dropping her voice to a conspiratorial whisper, “ my original plan was to steal a couple of a bottles and drink in my room. but i have to say, i like the turn the night’s taken. ” jude laughed softly. now that he was facing her as well, she had a better look of his face, and while he’d looked good in profile, he looked even better like this; sharp features contrasted by a soft smile, hair that looked soft to the touch, and oh, did jude want to touch. but she held back. not yet, not yet. the night was young yet and she didn’t want the fun to be over quite so soon. “ i promise i’m not a plant put in by production to mess with you, but even if i was, would it matter? we’re just two young adults having a drink, aren’t we? ” nix, she repeated in her head, realising a beat too late that she’d spoken aloud. “ it’s a nice name, ” she added, briefly contemplating the merits of keeping her name secret before deciding that she might as well be forthright. jude had a feeling that it was hard to be anything but honest with someone like nix; he had a way of looking at people that made them want to tell him everything. and by people, she meant herself. “ i’m an open book. my charm isn’t contingent on keeping secrets. i’m jude. holland, if you’re curious about my last name, but i’m not quite sure what you’d want with that. ” realising that she’d been leaning closer as she spoke, jude drew back slightly, picking up her drink once more for another sip. “ you got any other fun stuff planned for the night besides getting drunk? ”

“oh i would so go there for the view,” she laughed. alysia loved the gym and she thought having a friend to go with was awesome. she noticed the girl’s gesture and smiled, following her, “thanks.”

“ understandable. shirtless guys on the beach or by the pool is one thing, but shirtless guys covered in a light sheen of sweat as they work out? ” jude let out a low whistle before laughing, “ yeah, it’s pretty great. and hey, no problem. the place is pretty big, and it took me a while to really remember where everything is, but you’ll get there. ” it didn’t really take too long to get to the wing with all the rooms from the foyer, and once they reached the first room, jude came to a stop, turning to the other girl. “ what number are you in? i’ll help you look. ”

“someone has to watch out for the poor girl. and it’s not like anyone else is going to do it,” serena defended with a smirk. the dynamic between her and jude was already something that serena could get used to. they obviously had similar views on life and even though they had just met they seemed rather compatible. her appearance was alluring and her personality sealed the deal without question. excited to see jude reciprocate her feelings for spending time together, serena cracked a smile and sat up on the couch. this opportunity was equal or better to a date since there was no pressure for it to go well. after receiving jude’s kiss on her hand she smirked and stood up to be next to her. “rule number one of vacationing at a beach: always wear your swimsuit.” the girl lifted up her shirt to reveal a deep purple bikini along with a decent amount of bare skin. “or you can just forego the swimsuit and get right to the rest of those kisses you promised.”

jude’s gaze followed the movement of serena’s hand, smile growing as the girl lifted her shirt up to show her swimsuit, although jude had a feeling the gratuitous baring of skin was hardly innocent. “ if only someone had told me about this rule earlier. i guess now i’ll just have to go naked, ” she remarked coolly, as if she’d spoken about something no more mundane than the weather. she wasn’t completely serious about swimming naked of course, but thank the heavens she’d put on a cute, matching pair of bra and panties that day that could pass as a bikini. “ where’s the fun in that? and besides, if i give you all these kisses now, you might not have any reason to keep me around any longer, and i certainly don’t want that. ” even as she said that though, jude leaned closer, her lips hovering next to serena’s ear. “ c’mon, let’s get out of here. ” she pressed her lips softly against the girl’s temple with a faintly murmured ‘that’s kiss number two’ before stepping back, her gaze not leaving serena’s as she pulled her t-shirt over her head and dropped it on the couch they’d just been sitting on.

“it’s sweet until you know the entire story. then it’s pathetic,” she said, of course speaking about her own situation. “but i guess you’re right. they could’ve chosen to spend their time with someone else but they chose me.” corrine smiled at the thought and actually took comfort in it. “i don’t think you’re alone in that. i’ve met plenty of people here who don’t seem like the single commitment type. not that that’s bad or anything.” she gave a nervous smile, hoping she didn’t offend jude. “of course i’ll cover. though i don’t know how well i’d do. i need like a full backstory in order to execute a good lie. but y’know what? i could use a friend too. my mischief skills however might need a little dusting off.”

“ some might find the fact that we’re on a reality tv show about finding love pathetic, but that didn’t stop me, did it? ” jude countered with a wink and soft laughter. “ they’ve got good taste, if you ask me. and oh no, no offence taken or anything. actually, i was kind of afraid everyone here would be super serious about just pursuing one person, but i’ve been having fun, so. ” she wriggled her eyebrows lightly to make her euphemism impossible to miss, looking quite pleased with herself. still grinning, she reached out to place a hand on corrine’s shoulder, clearing her throat and then putting on a show of exaggerated faux-seriousness. “ i have utmost faith in you, my friend. say... since you need to dust off your mischief skills, let’s do something right now, a prank or something. ” the more she spoke, the more invested she became in the idea of pranking the other houseguests. “ your first task is to come up with a silly prank. something along the lines of... switching the sugar and salt, y’know? ”

by just hearing her voice and before seeing a face serena knew it was jude that entered the room by her words. after the girl had taken a place next to her on the couch she turned her attention to the other and smirked. “they shouldn’t even be doing what they’re doing considering their history. but if the girl wants her heart broken again then she can do whatever the hell she wants to.” though she wants jealous of the couple, it was a thought that crossed her mind once or twice before. if she had decided to truly settle down and be happy with someone. and truth be told she wasn’t mad at jude for rejecting her. they had hardly spoken before date cards so she didn’t blame her. “i’m not mad at you. and i don’t blame you for rejecting my offer. it just means we’ll have to make our own date here. go to the beach or something.” going out felt like too much pressure to actually get to know the person. now the pair could just enjoy themselves at their leisure. “i think there has to be some kind of platonic kissing involved for it to even be fun.”

“ careful, serena. someone might overhear and think that you care for corrine, ” jude teased, laughter coming more easily now that she was certain that the other girl hadn’t been mortally offended by the rejection. and then she received spoken confirmation that they were good, maybe even better than good. jude kind of wished that she’d approached serena sooner, because she was getting the feeling that they’d get along wonderfully. then again, that would’ve made her date card dilemma even harder to deal with, so she supposed maybe there was a reason they’d never gotten around to speaking properly until then. when the other girl suggested going to the beach, jude perked right up, having always been enthusiastic about anything to do with the outdoors. that, along with the fact that she was certain she would enjoy seeing serena in a bikini. she’d just sat down but already she was on her feet once more, reaching for serena’s hand and placing a light kiss along the back of her fingers before tugging her up lightly. “ that’s kiss number one, ” she grinned, “ and there’s more where that came from. but first, i think we’re both a little too covered up for my liking. what do you say we go get changed and then meet back here in five? ”

“no problem.” the girl smiled, brushing hair out of her face. she then laughed, “oh yeah. ill totally be a big help.” alysia watched as the girl struggled to eat a chip and fought back a loud laugh. she then made a face, “being active makes me feel good about myself but, i dont like it.” she then matched girl’s grin, “i would like that. shall we eat in my room that i have yet to find?”

nicolas stepped back into the resort at seven in the morning, his mind a bigger mess than ever. at first, he didn’t pay much mind to the sounds coming from a few feet away - ever since the day one of the contestants found the piano at the foyer and realised that it actually worked, there was rarely a moment of silence - but this time, the more he listened, the more he had to bite back a laugh when it became clear that whomever it was on the piano had practically no idea what they were doing. while he’d never boast of being to play the instrument well per se, it had been something that he’d done all throughout his childhood and into his teenage years. strangely enough, the all-too-familiar sound of wrong keys being hit and awkward pauses every three notes managed to bring back memories that made him want to slip away and pretend like he wasn’t there. nothing worse than getting dramatic over things that happened years ago.

and yet, that familiar laugh drew him in. nicolas walked slowly towards jude, taking in the sight of her hunched over the piano, fingers tense over the keys with a small smile on his face. the orange glow of the sunrise cast a shadow that would have looked haunting if he didn’t know that the girl herself was the complete opposite of that. he gently rubbed jude’s shoulder when he got closer, trying to loosen up her current position. the position of suffering, as he coined it himself when he was younger. “i don’t think that’s how it goes,” he pointed out softly, subconsciously reaching out for the keys to run his fingers along the last octave, though it didn’t make any sound. “may i?”

despite the mere sound of the piano having startled her earlier, jude barely flinched when she felt the touch on her shoulder. before he’d even said anything, she’d figured out by touch alone who it was that had just joined her, and sure enough, the familiar timbre of his voice followed shortly. “ i don’t think that’s how it goes either, ” she relented with a soft smile, turning to face him and then regretting it almost immediately when she found his face mere inches from hers. for a moment it felt like the scene that occured in her bedroom was playing out all over again, but then he spoke again and jude was knocked out of her reverie and back into the present. “ yeah, go for it, ” she encouraged, even shifting closer to the edge of the bench and patting the space next to her, a clear invitation for him to join her.

was there a sense of surprise that came with the asking of the date? perhaps there was but it didn’t come from a bewilderment of who asked her out. in modern sense, ro believed it came out of a mere curiosity – there was no room for romance whatsoever in-between their words. to ro, the two had a contract and that was all there was between them. and she didn’t care. after all, money, money money.

the only surprise that came with the date was the fact someone didn’t try to fight for it. literally. back home, she was infamous for telling those that asked her out on dates to fight her in the ring. they win, she’ll gave. – she didn’t go on many dates.

while the spitfire did not know of the details, that is where they were going nor the proper etiquette that revolved around said date, she felt jude was more than prepared. that came with the rumors that floated the resort with her date’s as they say … playful nature. her heart felt a tug. jealousy? over another woman? no. over those she had a slight affection too… however. she felt her white teeth sink themselves down into the crimson colours. 

she turned her head to the vanity with a large mirror – great for the narcissists, as she would say. her eyes met her reflection in the mirror. ro has “sharp teeth inside her mouth, inside her dark red lips. and lacquer slickly hides the claws in her red fingertips.” that was who she was. this whole jealousy emotion was a waste of time. an irritation.

the zip of the heels was covered by the knocking of the door. she wasn’t quite sure of what to wear but alas, she was in her room. if she had to change, she could.  “only if it lights me on fire, ” verona effused, leaning against the door frame. “so where you taking me today, babe. i’ll tell you this now, i’m not one for movies.”

“ you really think a movie date is the best i can come up with? ” she jested in return, crossing her arms over her chest. “ you hurt me ro, really. ” but there was no real heat in her words, and the curve of her lips spoke of amusement as opposed to offence. taking a step back, jude assessed the redhead’s outfit, and if her gaze lingered longer than necessary in order to appreciate just how toned ro’s body was–– well, she wasn’t ashamed to admit it.

as she’d kind of expected, ro was dressed in an outfit similar to the one she’d worn the day before, and part of her had wanted the day’s activity to be a surprise, but perhaps it would be better to divulge the information so that she could choose to change clothes if she’d like. besides, she had a feeling her date wasn’t all too fond of surprises anyway. “ we’re going to viñales. they’ve got horses for rent there, and i thought it’d be nice to explore on horseback. it’s about a three hour car ride away, and we might spend the night, so bringing an overnight bag would be good. ”

even if the girl saw nothing wrong with her outfit, she still needed to pack an extra set of clothes, and so jude took advantage of the space between ro’s body and the other side of the doorway that she wasn’t leaning on, striding into her room. her hand found the crook of ro’s elbow as she stepped in, pulling her back towards the closet. her first thought upon seeing the clothes that were hung up was that ro owned a lot of leather items, and there was a wicked grin on jude’s face as she plucked a top off its hanger, holding it up against her own torso before holding it out towards ro, closing one eye as if envisioning the redhead in the outfit. (she was.)

“woah!” alysia exclaimed, putting a hand on the bowl so nothing else fell out. she knew what a disappointment it was too lose precious snacks. she smirked slightly, laughing, “im a ninja. trained by one of the best sensi’s in new york.” she let go of the bowl when she knew the other had a good hold on it and smiled, “im alysia. and as do i. i dont see it as a problem, though. more as a privledge. i get to try all kinds of food to snack on.”

“ thanks, ” jude breathed as she smiled, referring to the way the other girl saved any more of her chips from falling out of the bowl. “ a ninja, eh? so if i need a buddy to help me sneak out of here, i know who to call. ” readjusting her grip on the bowl, jude leaned down and picked up a chip from the bowl with her mouth, lifting the salsa in order to dip the chip in and then throwing her head back in order to let the chip fall into her mouth. she probably could’ve just alysia to feed her a chip, but the thought didn’t come to her until she had swallowed the mouthful. “ yeah, well my folks always tell me that i’m lucky i enjoy being active, y’know, to work off all the food i eat and everything. but like, how can we be sure it’s not the other way around? maybe i eat this much because i’m so active. ” jude looked slightly smug as she divulged her theory, but then broke into a grin once more. “ hey, you’re welcome to help me finish this big ol’ bowl of chips if you’d like. i’ll take suggestions on what else we can do while we snack. ”