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I was just wondering why it's so hard for me to do simple things like putting on lotion/moisturizer, brush my teeth, clean my apartment... and then I was like well duh you know why. Depression. And I dont wanna talk to anyone about it because idk how to get better because the depression stops you from wanting to try to get better and I've been struggling with it for years. And I feel like if I tell people about it and I dont get better then they'll just think that I dont want to get better and that I'm just looking for attention.

Just pretend everything is fine.

I remember feeling hopeful, but I don't remember what it's like to feel hopeful.

If you try to use God or the bible to convince me of something it's just not gonna work. Sorry.

I don't have children. I don't ever intend on having children. Maybe that's selfish. But at least I'm not one of these people that has a kid just to ignore and neglect them. That's really selfish.

So many people are ignorant and not even willing to educate themselves if it doesn't line up with their political views.

Dont get a pet to neglect it. It's your choice to bring them into your home not theirs. It's your responsibility to feed them correctly, make sure they are healthy and happy. Know what you are committing to before you make the decision. Animals are animals. They dont understand why you are doing what you're doing. Be respectful of their lives.

I'm done with wanting to be a part of anything. I dont get invited to barely anything. I don't get updated on what's going on until afterwards and everyone else knows everything. If I ever even get told about it. I know its partly my own fault but as they say, "phones work both ways". Its my fault for not knowing how to get over depression. I dont have the mental energy to be around people. So people dont want to be around me. That's just how it is and how it will probably be for the rest of my life.