𝕁𝕆𝕋𝔸'𝕊 𝔸ℝℂ𝔸𝔻𝔼 Rewriten

If he blames himself than good. Because he deserves all the fucking credit. Thanks Jay. Thanks for everything. Thanks for both making my life the best and the worst. If you take your life too than screw you. I won't stop you this time.

To be completely honest, I'm thinking of just following in his footsteps and giving up on my art, I hate looking at it, I hate looking at myself on the screen, the only reason people saw my art was because I was drawing him, I feel useless, I can't even talk about feeling like I'm not appreciated because I'd be being dramatic, when, sometimes I honestly wonder if it will be any difference if I was dead or not, I know my birthday's only a few days away and I'm supposed to be happy but it's just another damn reminder that I failed the first time I tried to take the quick way out. I tried to make a community and failed, I tried to make new friends and failed, I tried to get a job and failed, tried to go to college, and once again failed. Would it really even matter if I'm here or not because it's starting to feel like things would be better off if I had died when I dropped on the floor when I was born.

Here's another crappy drawing of Jay, I haven't been drawing much, but I probably should get back to drawing his character and stuff or something..

Uh, for those who keep telling me to "be original" and do my own art, here's a doodle I did..

I don't really know, I'm just trying to distract myself. I figured I might as well post some of the doodles I'm doin'...birthday's next Wednesday, and honestly, I'm not really looking forward to spending it doing what everyone else wants again and just being alone the rest of the day...would appreciate a mention of it's existence though

Sure..?

..ok...

Jay and Jota plushie

Sometimes it shows when people have nothing to say or are "down in the dumps"

Yeah...sure..

I can't keep giving myself false hope..

Honestly I don't even know if I want to be Jota anymore..