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i dont realize how much i miss shinee and seeing ot5 until things like this pop up. its like ive pushed all these feelings to the back of my head because i feel sorta silly for loving them so much. its so hard to explain how this feels to the people around me. like yes...you're right in that they obviously don't know me nor would they ever understand the impact that they had on my life...but im still here...still so emotional over this situation and coming to the terms (over and over again) that jonghyuns no longer here...and im coming up to the age where im turning the same age as he was when he passed and thats just surreal to me. i cant imagine navigating my life the way he did and feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. i hope he knows we truly loved him for all that hes done and he will never be forgotten. i hope he really knows he did well. for himself. i love you shinee, forever. for ever and ever. ill never forget the feelings i felt all those years ago. thank you for being there - we'll always be here as well.