I always wondered what it would be like to fall in love. Like, really, truly fall in love. I’d seen others with those silly smiles on their overjoyed faces, arm in arm with their significant others, and it always seemed so foreign… Happiness, joy, in itself seemed foreign. The experiences that ‘love’ had provided me at the time didn’t quite match up to what I was seeing in others, so I pondered that perhaps love just wasn’t for me, and, of course, that was a silly thought. No love is exactly like the picturesque, storybook definition that it seems to have earned.
As for happiness…. I suppose it’s the same way. It’s different for everyone, and much like the way love came to me, it was a long journey. A twenty-two year long journey, and it only took you a single year, twelve months, to completely and utterly sweep me away. A single year to put together the pieces and pave the path that has led me to where I am today; happy, in love, married… If you had said that this is where I would be the first time you looked at me with those eyes that peer into my soul and constantly understand, I would have blackened them both. I always was kind of a stubborn one… Still am, huh?
In truth, I don’t know where I’m going with this. I just feel, in a way, that chapter of our lives has ended. And, god, don’t stop reading there and freak out. I’m not filing for divorce. We’re different people now, although not completely, because shards of who we were still stick out of our skin, sometimes drawing blood. But, all in all, we’ve broken down and morphed into something better. We’re able to flow in sync, much like the moon and the ocean tides, ebbing and flowing as one. It has taken such a long time to find this balance, but now that we are able to walk along that line with confidence, I don’t think we’ll fall from this place of serenity despite smaller stumbles.
So, with this balance, where shall this new chapter take us? We have the kids to think about now, the lights in our darkest hours, but doesn’t this give us more incentive to create something better? We’ve always wanted to runaway, to leave this city and its mangled memories behind, so maybe now we can. Perhaps not right this second, because those memories still are something to hold dear, but when we’re ready.
I love you very much, and to be cheesy, I’ll even say more than the stars in the sky. Thank you for helping me write this last chapter of our lives, and I hope we can write something even better out of the years to come.
Taemin, my prince and now, my king...
I simply do not have the words in me to explain how happy you make me, how grateful I am for you to have been born on the day you were. It gives me an immense amount of pleasure that I even had the slightest chance to make you mine and as my husband to this very day and it always will.
You already know this well but... I’ve never imagined my life quite as it is today. So full of happiness and love and all this from just one person.
And, of course, our family. If I hadn’t met you, I don’t know where I’d be right now but I do know one thing—life without you...it would be completely meaningless and miserable just as it was before you.
I felt like I was just floating around before, lost like a ship adrift at sea and then somehow, I found you and I was grounded by this thin thread that is you—Lee Taemin.
I was always entranced by the Chinese ‘red string of fate’ proverb. I can’t speak for everyone else but I know you’ve heard of it. It’s something I found myself reading numerous times over the length of my life, wondering if someone is at the end of my string and if I still have a way to go of untangling it and meeting my soulmate...I’ve never told you this but that day when I saw you for the first time and this may make you cringe, don’t say I didn’t warn you, I was actually reading up on an article concerning the old proverb; I looked up and there you were.....Ahhhh, I should stop now, shouldn’t I?
Anyways, I used to think there was nothing but an eternity of misery for me until that day. That very day I fell in love and the year after, I’m still head over heels for you. I love you with every thread of my being and I swear, I will continue to love you and fight for you in the countless of new chapters that we have yet to write in our life together.
I love you, I love you, I love you. God. I love you so much, mon chéri.
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