cruisin' for a bruisin'

my heart feels yucky

whatever guess I'll kill myself

thx for leaving me home alone im feelingvery self destructive

im ill, ur son is ill, ur ill for Fucks Sake why u hate urslef pops

I don't know why he shames me for being mentally ill like it's something I can control. He knows, he's personally driven me to the hospital ,he's picked up my medicine he knows I'm ill. Do I have to try and kill myself again to remind you bc I s2g im this close

"You feel shitty bc you never talk to me about anything" I don't because you always call me stupid or turn in into a fucking joke or smack me when I cry you fucking

well dad the medicine didn't make me want to kill myself but you on the other hand

my dad shamed me about my mental illness and told me I relied too much on my medicine that I haven't took for Months

so i had a break down this morning and stayed home again

Not to be dramatic but this is the closest I've come to wanting to die in months like I'm this close and I've already thrown up twice

i relapsed and I can literally do nothingright and I miss my mom and I'm a shitty person oops I wish I was fucking dead

I wish everyone would just leave my fucking house so I can wallow in my sadness and try to die in peace god fucking

When am I not contemplating relapse jeussu christ