You know.. I don't write here often and I guess it's because this is my soul personified into the physical realm. That's the thing though, a soul is only ever brought into this realm when it is hurting or in love and for the longest time my soul was hurting... No one witnessed my hurt and so anyone that came across me was only seeing the cracks in the foundation, never stopping to appreciate what was underneath the cracks. So I guess no one deserved to see when I actually did write here. Fuck you all. Out of the deepest most warm place of love in my heart.. fuck you all. Now I don't mean you harm with saying that but in a way I do. I wish that you feel the side of my soul that was hurting and it haunts you knowing that you never reached out.... You were self consumed and that's alright too..
You know I don't write here often. But now I write here because my soul isn't hurting anymore. When I write here now it is because I have found someone to share the love with.
I once wrote on my pin of how time flies and that the next time I open my eyes I may be an old man looking back on it all.. That I will have made it to my destination by the time I blink next, Colorado. But now it's Oklahoma. It's Ireland. The destination has changed and so have I. It's funny isn't it? How easily love can shift the tides of the war within. End the war. Bring peace. So yeah, maybe the next time I open my eyes I will in fact be an old man looking back on it all, an old man in love. But for now I'm not blinking. I would miss it all if I closed my eyes and so I'll keep them open because I don't want to miss a thing. Not with her.
If you find these words then I wish you the best. You're not my problem, not my circus, not my patient and I not your Doc. Still I wish you well. Random persons of the interwebs, I wish thee well but don't burden yourself with me. Take care of yourself as I am for me.
It's funny just how fast the time goes by.. like the grains of sand rolling through the dunes. If you blink you just might miss it all. So don't blink.
