alright, i've decided i'm back to browsing tumblr like the good old days. we'll see how long this lasts. but in the meanwhile, let's update any who remember me on some things that happened while i was gone. a recap and a reintroduction, if you will.
i don't even remember when i last posted properly. 2016? 2017? so let's go through some overarching themes.
when i dropped off the face of tumblr, i was struggling with depression (or was it? more on that later), had just failed out of university and vocational school in a major way, and everything was a general strugglebus for me. slowly losing friendships, slowly losing interest in fandoms, i was just generally spiraling.
however, mid 2018 i ended up getting a part time job trial in a second hand store, and ended up getting an agreement to finish my customer service degree as a two year apprenticeship at the store. a few months into that job a co-worker introduced me to this great little thing called World of Warcraft and let's just say that i've sunk a lot of hours and euros into that since then.
of course, covid hit us halfway through my apprenticeship so things were a little dicey for a few months at the store, but (patting myself on the back here a bit) to this day i personally haven't caught the corona at any point, on the account of generally avoiding large crowds anyway, and masking through the worst of the pandemic.
after getting my customer service degree papers in december 2020 i fell into a bit of a slump where the pandemic gave me a great reason to stay unemployed and locked in my own apartment. things got worse, but they had to get worse before they got better. eventually i got into a government program that supported young people trying to get back into the workforce, and through that i got weekly support meetings with a nice lady who helped me out of my apartment and into the medical care i needed at the time, and got me to seek out a psychologist to work towards the most important thing that's happened in the recent years:
'*âĸ.¸⥠autism diagnosis âĄÂ¸.âĸ*'
anyway, in the middle of the diagnosis process i lucked out and in june 2022 i got a neat part time summer job at a health care company calling people about workplace healthcare appointments. later that year that job opportunity turned into a full time position, and now i'm still working a nice 9 to 5 calling people all day long. (it's hilarious, since i hate calling people on my own business, but with the call script it tickles the neurodivergent brain real good)
now as far as the diagnosis goes, it was always pretty obvious. i think i was 11 or 12 when my mom first told me she thinks i'm autistic. she never sought to get me diagnosed 'cause she thought it wouldn't so me any good anyway. in my personal opinion that was a bit misguided, but i know she meant well. had i had my diagnosis when i failed out of university, i might've realized that instead of depression i was going through autistic burnout, and might've gotten more suitable care. but that's in the past. at least i know now. over everything else, the diagnosis helps me understand myself more than ever, helps me understand my strengths and limitations, and lets me be more lenient with myself when i can't recognize what my emotions mean. getting the diagnosis was honestly the best thing that could happen.
the first year of work i focused on clearing my debt, and it's a good thing i did, 'cause at the end of 2023 i got a notice that i'd overstayed my welcome in the student housing i was living at. fair, i wasn't a student anymore. i ended up leaving the city i moved to in 2012, and i'm now back near my family, near a reliable support system, but still living on my own. i do need my own space.
so where does that leave us now in 2025? i'm living near family, i'm working (roughly) 9 to 5, and on my free time i play way too many video games. world of warcraft, teamfight tactics, overwatch 2, some nice single player games every now and then, and my latest obsession has become infinity nikki. other recent hyperfixations have been turtle and frog squishmallows, building lego and watching a few twitch streams. i do watch a tv show and a movie every now and then, but i'm far less into fandoms than i used to be.
so anyway, tl;dr: hi, let me reintroduce myself.
you can call me Kiki, i'm almost 32 and autistic, i love frogs and memes, i play a video game or fifteen, i have a crush on a long distance friend of mine, and it's lovely to meet you all (again)
things, at this moment, are fine.
