DO YOU ever just. Think about Halsin. Halsin, "I outgrew cynicism around the age of 200" Silverbough. Halsin, who constantly encourages you not to give in to despair, especially when others need you.
THAT Halsin, who himself becomes so overwhelmed with pain and helplessness when he sees the pain others experience in Baldur's Gate that he considers that the Shadow Druids might have a point, and needs you to remind him he's better than that.
THAT Halsin, who, in the deleted morphic pool scenes where each character would have been tormented by the brain, would have been shown a vision of himself saying everything was hopeless and meaningless and it would have been better to let it all burn.
THAT Halsin. The Halsin who is so kind and cares so much for others that being unable to help their pain makes him nearly surrender to despair himself, even after fighting so hard to overcome it. The Halsin who just wants to help and protect others, especially children. The Halsin who, if he dies to Orin, says his purpose was to help his friends as they'd helped him (to help others). The Halsin who fights every minute of every day to make the world " a place worth saving", who will make his own meaning in the world, in life, if he can't find one, because he REFUSES, as much as he struggles with it, to accept a reality where there is no point, where everything IS helpless. Because as much as he struggles, as much as he fears it's so, he WON'T let that be true- so he'll make his own purpose if he has to.
Halsin is such a fucking beautiful character I can't stand it!!!!
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