a little girl in a big boy world

Don’t feel bad if you giggled. There’s definitely something funny about that juxtaposition. However, it is the actual state of our lives, which is decidedly less funny.

Hey, I’m Nik. I’m a 20 year old Jewish lesbian with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which, if you’re not well-versed, basically means that my tendons and joints just absolutely hate staying in place. It’s caused severe chronic pain since I was thirteen, and has ruined my ability to do any kind of physical work. Regardless, I’ve been working retail jobs on and off; as you may know, minimum wage is not enough to live off of. My story is, in short, my body is all fucked up, my father’s dead and my mother is basically a teenager, and my fiancee & I are all alone in this wild world.

My fiancee, @meanexwife, is also here with me. We are both disabled, we are both doing literally all we can. In our rush to find somewhere to live, and at my mother’s pressuring to stay close to home, we’ve made a pretty grave mistake. 

Our apartment complex is having us pay an exorbitant amount for a roach-infested, barely functioning home.

You can see the more detailed receipts on what’s wrong with the apartment here. 

All of our plumbing is prone to breaking at the slightest provocation, we’ve got G-d knows how many roaches in our bathroom and kitchen, and their so-called pest control has done literally nothing. We’re also two disabled women living directly adjacent to known sexual predators. The apartment complex has acknowledged they know the people across from us, who have gone after us both before, are predatory. They have also done nothing about it. As an added fuck-you, they initially tried to give us a (somehow) worse unit; when we complained and tried to get it fixed, they gave us a second floor unit. Both of us have declining mobility. The stairs are not going to be doable for very much longer. 

Management here is unavailable almost all the time and has no interest in the quality of life of their tenants. We’re poor anyway, and they are currently doing the wonderful work of exploiting us while keeping us in abysmal living conditions. If we can pay rent, we can’t eat. So. Help us out if you can. We’re not going to be able to do this much longer, and we have no outside help.

Donate at:

paypal.me/alexandriarain for paypal $runefire on cashapp @niarkos on venmo

we’re probably angling for about $4000 to get us out safely. I know that sounds like a lot and that our situation’s been tough for the last year or so, but if each follower of this blog just gave us $1 we would have enough to survive and get somewhere safe.

if you’re able, please, please donate. like. this is actually a very big deal and a serious issue. anything you can spare is enough, even a few dollars. 

just uh, please keep sharing and donating as you can. the stairs are barely doable these days and we’re trying our best to handle it, but it’s starting to suck.

sorry we’ve been slow on this blog. we’re busting our asses trying to manage and it’s been a rough few weeks

we still need help and i’ll remind you that i’m taking writing commissions @runefire

$runefire on cash app

paypal.me/alexandriarain

@niarkos on venmo

Instead of pacis/teethers, try chew necklaces.

Instead of sippy cups/baby bottles, try cute water bottles.

Instead of stuffies, try squishies.

Instead of baby blankets, try plush throw blankets.

Instead of kiddie coloring books, try adult coloring books/mandalas.

Little things you can do that no one else will question:

• Put cute keychains on your backpack

• Use bubble bath/bath bombs

• Put stickers everywhere

• Wear overalls/twirly dresses

• Put cute patches on your jacket/overalls

♡  cute cherry blossom umbrellas  //  15% off discount code - Wallis15  ♡

Miniature Figurines / Charms

Bunnyful Boutique on Etsy

Hello my lovelies!! 😄 yall have helped me so much lately. I am having more good days than bad, and that is a huge deal for me. I have the best followers, even if you don’t interact with me (but why not? 🤔 hehe) so to show my appreciation, I will be giving away a basic little princess-themed package:

2 Golden books: “I Am a Princess” and “Wreck It Ralph” (just in time for the sequel ft. princesses)

a set of 3 adult pacifiers (pink, blue, lavender)

1 50″x60″ rainbow/unicorn reversible throw blanket

2 stuffies: a 6″ dragon and an 8″ unicorn

2 giant sticker activity books: “Lisa Frank" and “Princess”

1 set of 8 Crayola washable large crayons (YES, you can draw on the walls!!! they’re washable! princetkitten tested and approved lol)

👑👑👑👑👑THE RULES👑👑👑👑👑

👸Must be a safe for work age regressor. No n5fw, no k1nk (d/d/l/g+), no 18+ (p0rn) blogs may enter. No giveaway blogs either.

👑🐱Must be following me! please don’t follow just to unfollow, it’s mean~

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦All Ages! if you are under 18 years of age I will need proof of written permission from your legal guardian to give out your address for the prize

🇺🇸USA & International! if you are international, we will pay up to $25 in shipping costs if you pay the difference – or you’ll receive a $100 (the value of this prize) Amazon giftcard – your choice!!!

👑👑👑👑👑HOW TO ENTER👑👑👑👑👑

🔃✅Reblog this post as 1 entry! each reblog will be one extra entry, but please don’t spam your followers…

✔❌Liking this post will not count as an entry! but you could always use it to bookmark this post for later~

👑👑👑👑👑EXTRA ENTRIES👑👑👑👑👑

➕Follow @daddywillprotectyou  and @dateadaddysuggestion for 1 extra entry each

❓❓❓❓❓Send me asks with (giveaway) before your questions! you can send up to 5 asks total and each will be 1 extra entry (but I’d love to get more!)

EDIT JUNE 19: your ask must contain a question of some sort for me to answer. thanks for understanding!

For each follower benchmark I reach starting with 5k, we will include another little surprise item! more of yall = more appreciation 😉

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This giveaway will end at...11:59 PM CST on July 31, 2018!!!

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That’s it my lovelies! Have fun blogging, and talk to you soon!

TTFN, Austen 👑🐱

As promised, now that I hit 5k followers I’m expanding the giveaway!! The additional prizes now included in the giveaway:

Giveaway is ending in 3 days on

July 31 at 11:59pm

Reblog the original giveaway post for entries; ask questions for extra entries; follow @daddywillprotectyou for extra entries

Happy birthday to me!