沢田 JIN

Danshi Kokousei No Nichijou

Just sharing some cute Pokemon phone wallpapers that I conjured using Google images and my phone.

Wanted to go out today with my brother and helper. My brother had arranged to meet his friend at the time we were going out. So he decided he didn't want to go.

Another "Friends over Family" guy right here in my family. He's the third one and I can't stand his kind.

I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate the way I dress, I hate that I am fat, stupid, depressed and no one bothers giving a shit.

That's me. The ugly, fat, stupid guy who went through chemotherapy just to feel like I rather be dead and should have just died then.

I am no help to anyone. I suck at socializing and making friends. I don't sugarcoat my words so people think I'm quiet and rude.

What am I even doing on this world? I was a one night stand after all. I essentially forced my parents to get married.

I should've just been aborted then so I wouldn't be a burden.

Nobody cares and nobody wants to help me.

Getting scolded like a fucking dog when I just look at other people's food. Nobody ever chose me as their best friend and I will never be any body's priority or favourite.

I love everyone too deeply and yet no one reciprocates the love. I'm too kind to everyone and as a result no one cares about my feelings.

I'm a failure of a human and I shouldn't even be here to burden everyone.

It pains me that I can't even express my feelings on Facebook as my family members are on there and someone often reads this and gets the blame. That anger is then released on me.

And the vicious cycle continues.

Tumblr is my only outlet to really pen down my feelings without causing harm to others and myself.

Today, I was accused of being a freeloader in a group project.

Sure, I didn't do much but you guys started without and kept me out of the loop.

You guys ostracized me and left me for dead.

Fuck you guys really.

You guys are one of the reasons I resent cliques so much.

Once again,

Fuck you.

Signing off

Jin