— YOU ARE MY UTOPIA.

if there was anything jichae hated more than being forced in the closet by her company, it was roller coasters. jichae liked tall things. stuffed animals, girls... girls again, but roller coasters weren’t something you could cuddle easily. jichae, being the variety queen she was, was guest starring on a show which put her in the situation she was currently in.

“I CAN’T LOOK!!!!!!!” jichae screamed as she sat next to her fellow idol. the ride hadn’t even moved and she hadn’t even put her seat belt on. jichae sunk back into her seat, feeling tears well up in her eyes. “i’m so scared,” she said, buckling her belt and pulling it as tight as possible. due to her current weight, even the tightest the belt could go was loose on jichae. “why did they even let me on this ride?” she asked, wiping the tears off her cheeks. “i’m so small........ and i screamed just walking out here to get on the cart....”

her eyes widened as an attendant came to strap them in. the attendant pulled a safety bar over jichae’s head, which caused her to cry a little more. “i can’t do this!!” she said, sniffling. she could tell there was no getting out of this. “i’m going to die of a heart attack, r.i.p ji chaeryeong, i leave eongdeongie to minju unnie because she took good care of me.” jichae whispered, looking at the person beside her and gripping the bars tightly.

“and your thoughts on jichae?”

“mm…we won’t mention her. i don’t want to spoil my mood.”

a small giggle was followed by a sour face, caused the interviewer to laugh, along with several of her group members. almost immediately, she felt her heart tear. she felt so guilty, but she didn’t know why. it was simple - she and chaeryeong were supposed to be feuding. but still, min-ji couldn’t brush aside the feelings she got around the other. it made her feel…strange. so, she tried to avoid her at all cost, but chaeryeong just always seemed to be around.

so when she and her members walked away from the interviewer, she wasn’t the least bit surprised to see the other across the room. she knew the girl was hard on herself, and she wanted to make things right privately before her comment went public, and she found out herself.

“jichae-ah?” she called, quietly tapping the other on the shoulder. she was trying her best to look rude, but that wasn’t a word in her vocabulary. shyly, she smiled at the other girl, suddenly growing flustered. trying her best to ignore the feeling, she cleared her throat.

“jichae-ah,” she repeated, this time clearer. “i just wanted to say…i didn’t mean what i said.” she made sure to be brief enough not to mention what she’d actually said, she’d find out. the last thing min-ji wanted right now was a confrontation.

“and, you look nice today.” the last part was said quieter, making sure min-ji kept her words very low. she was used to complimenting people, girls even, without a problem, but surely there’d be confusion if the two were found on good terms. 

“that’s…all i wanted to say.” she finally said, biting her lip. it wasn’t, and if her face was any evidence of what was going on in her head, it was obvious she was very conflicted. there wasn’t much more she could say here, so min-ji simply looked at the other a certain way, her eyes desperate to say what she was holding in.

jichae had been used to people comparing her to others. first it was her fellow group members, people calling her ugly and the visual hole. then, after losing the weight, the comparison switched to members of 7rophy and vice. people saying both 7rophy and vice deserved more fame due the fact they were more talented. the media highlighted vice’s pia particularly.

and as jichae sat in the interview, she played everything off with a laugh. she wasn’t mad or upset, she was more bored than anything. as the staff called for a break, jichae left the camera area to go get some water from her dressing room. the small female was lost in her own thoughts and didn’t hear minji enter. “jichae-ah!” the soft voice startled her slightly, but she didn’t mind. jichae turned around and grinned.

if she was being completely honest, she hated being compared to minji. minji was extremely talented, good looking, cute, funny, totally jichae’s type... but that wasn’t the point. minji was overall better than jichae, however, the other girl had just debuted so people didn’t really know the huge difference.

“ WHY DO I STILL agree to these? ”Joohwan let out a sigh, annoyance painting his every word. It wasn’t uncommon for him to sound like he wanted to be anywhere but where he was – matter of fact, it was the boy’s usual tone. Anyone who didn’t truly knew him, would assume that the one accompanying him had tested his patience beyond repair, but that wasn’t the case. No, Jichae got away with shit most people didn’t with Joohwan. It came with her being one of the select few who had known Hwan since he was a child and somehow managed not to be kicked out of his life. A privilege, in his own view.  “ There’s nothing sillier than getting afternoon tea. We are NOT old ladies, for fuck sakes. ”

@jichaefmd

"because, hwannie, it makes me feel smart and we both know that isn’t true.” jichae stated, raising her eyebrows. jichae was very aware of the fact joohwan only tolerated her at times, she knew how annoying she was to not only joohwan, but pretty much anyone who paid her any attention at all. “this is the last one, i promise.” she said, turning to the male and taking his hands in her own. “trust me! after this, we can do anything you want.”

      iseul wasn’t sure what jichae wanted to talk about, being called away from the studio was something that usually bugged him. but it seemed urgent so he cut his practice short in order to see what was wrong. he was thankful that she wasn’t far away, both being in bc came in handy at times. sighing softly, he pushed open the door to where she had told him she’d be, glancing around. “alright i’m here, what’s wrong?” he always went for the bad before anything else, figuring he’d prepare himself just in case. “are you busy after this? we should get something to eat.” @jichaefmd

"okay, so don’t laugh.” jichae said, rubbing the back of her neck. “buuuuuuuuuttttttttt, my parents don’t know i’m a lesbian and i was going to tell them, but i chickened out and ended up saying you were my boyfriend. i thought i’d get away with it.... because i’m dumb, but we know this, that’s not the point,” jichae paused to breathe.

“yOU CANT MAKE ME PUT MY RETAINER IN!!!”

Minju approached Chaeryoung wielding retainer case in hand. Her steps were steady, her tone unwavering.  There were times to be sympathetic and yielding. This was not one of them. As much as it broke her heart to upset someone who she adored, Minju knew that it was better for them both for her to offer no compromise. 

“It’s for your own good. You’ll thank me in 10 years when you have perfect teeth and don’t have do get orthodontic work done while you’re dating.”

@jichaefmd

"i am not going to be dating anyone, i’m married to my hamster.” chaeryeong stated, her hand firmly placed over her mouth. “i will cross that bridge when i get to it, plus, i can always get fake teeth.” chaeryeong shook her head. “ANOTHER THING!!! it’s so yucky, it smells bad no matter how much i brush it! i hate hate hate it.”

why hello friends!! my name is joey and this is ji chaeryeong! she’s the lead dancer & vocal of wish! she’s the human embodiment of an energy drink and also will do anything to be around pretty girls. [ PROFILE | PLOTS ] **TW: EATING DISORDER!!

edit: like if u wanna plot lol