U Can't Find What U Want Here

If I ever get to enjoy the pleasure of success someday, then I got the opportunity to give a speech or shit, I'd say, "you are and you will be the only one who's right about yourself. Don't let them be right. Don't you let them allow the joy of saying 'I told you so." I'd tell them. I hope i get to use that talk. i hope i give someone the hope or at least something similar. Truly, i don't want any young and wonderful people with full of potentials to be devastated after me. Just I just don't. Nobody in this planet deserves those bullshit. Especially, heartbreakingly, young folks. They HAVE to be loved and supported by the whole universe. No matter how big those are, that's just not enough. They are to be cherished. They are to be shiny.

Maybe I should keep a diet diary from today. Maybe kk

Someone-yeah my sister-'s using this as a journal, but i dont. I dont really keep any diary and on cases i want to write some notes about how i feel or felt or what i think, i tweet. Yeah i know how it sounds but that doesn't really hmm apply? feel like? around me, here, maybe in Korea. So anyways, where was i.. I just want to talk to someone, i always did, and i recently give up on shrinks or psychological treats, actually I haven tried one or two..(I've been to the doctor but it was just for..beginning process or just examine my condition if i need one, everyone does but i mean its essential or something.) but I decided not to despite of my family memebers' lots of concerns and recommendations after watching . I do know it sounds silly and bit embarrassing but what can i say, it's true. it's exact opposite to what i usually think and how i live like instability of life or leaving with no plan at all sort of things. But I even cried for a bit and I just realized deep enough to change my while thought of life or future i dare say. I just knew that THIS is what i wanted for real and exactly what i need this whole. So this is what I'm going to do, if it's not, I'm planning (or not planning lol) to do something similar. Hope so. Quite badly. Ok sleep tight. Oh one more thing. It's the whole different issue but let me continue. Im very good at messing things up. Beyond you think how i am. Believe me. I am. All things i struggled to or eagered were fucked up. I did that. After so many 'fucked up's, i learned the hard way not to expect or anticipate in good ways. and that brought me peace, i guess. But the thing is you know how life is complicated in so many wired ways, often someone or something just pops up or jumped in my daily lives presenting much of discomforts and that gives me a lot of displeasure which of course, i do not like. The fact that it 'happens' makes me sick and tired. Fking hate it. But you know the fact that make me sicker is you cannot help any of that, right. It's crazy. 아오 I'm someone who prefer anticipated closures. As being person of that, its fking hateful, the life is. Just saying. Bb

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