Iām just⦠going to say this. Because I mayās well get it out, seeing as you and I are more than likely not going to speak again, at least on civil terms.Ā You are the one that told me to go for it. To go for her. You told me that youād step aside, and that Iād take Aurora on a date at least, and then go from there. I stepped aside, and let you take her. Because I respected you, and I still do respect you. I feel likeĀ shit that all of this happened but West, in the first place you told me to go for it. And then, then youĀ continuouslytellĀ HER to go to me, because Iām ābetterā for her, or whatever things youāve said. I donāt understand what youāre pulling, because youāre the one who was giving her mixed signals. You told her you loved her and wanted her to stay, but told her to basically sod off and go grab me, fuck and run off from you orĀ whatever. How wouldā no, Iām not going to ask how youād react with that because itās not even worth it. But just, West, Iām sorry for ruining your life or something when I was supposed to be your pal or your best friend or what have you. But Iām not sorry for just being there for her when yes, you really literally could not. But she needed someone. Maybe sheās needy, maybe Iām a loyal little pussy of a puppy dog, whatever youāll say, I donāt care. I donāt care, West. And if she didnāt want me, fine, her choice. I told her so many times not to take me if she still loved you. Granted it was after.. some stuff happened, but that doesnāt always mean emotions. Itās still cheating, I get it, but she loves you. All I did was just.. go with it because I figured Iād never get a chance once you were out of the hospital. To tell her how I feel and shit. I was just honest, and as far as I know she was honest back. I donāt even know what all Iām saying but you told us both to go for each other. Itās like youĀ wanted this, even if hurting you was never my intentions because youāre my pal ā were my pal - and thatās wrong of me. So go a head. Be mad. Youāve got the right to be mad, entirely. But although you wonāt admit it or even see it, the faultās on you too, West, because youāve been telling her to fuck off and be with me from basically day one, and told me I should be with her as well, so just.. stop. Please. Iām sorry.
First off, let me just say that all that stupid bullshit about me pushing her onto you-- I was pretty sure all of that changed when she became my girlfriend. Does that word not mean anything? Did it not change the circumstances? I went to the fucking hospital and yeah, tell her how you feel, i don't give a shit, but don't fucking kiss my girlfriend. Don't fuck my girlfriend. Don't do whatever you did with my girlfriend because it was your "only chance" and "went along with it." No excuse. And, like I said, I stopped telling her when she picked me and became my girlfriend.