I want to begin by saying how grateful I am to everyone who has followed and supported me over the eight years I’ve been on the Internet. To those who are still active on any of the sites I’ve been on, and to those who are no longer active.
I’m turning over a new leaf because it’s my senior year of college, and I want to make the absolute most of it. I don’t really want to spend so much time on the Internet this year. While I’m SO eternally glad it led me to meet all of you, and it’s taught me so much, I’ve also had a lot of trouble concentrating on real-life things. At school, I’d too often have social media sites open in another tab during class. There are films and shows I want to watch, books I want to read, skills I want to sharpen, and IRL friends I want to make time for. But alas, I perpetually fall into the habit of scrolling. I don’t want to keep saying I’ll do it later. I’ve always said I have a life outside the Internet, so I want to go live it.
Therefore, I’ve decided I’m going to delete my Tumblr account and stay off it for a while. I promise, it’s no one’s fault. Nobody is harassing me. I’m just doing this for my mental wellbeing.
Additionally, I’ve realized in recent years that I don’t enjoy writing stories as much as I used to. It doesn’t bring me as much joy as it does others, and I feel a lot better doing other things, such as drawing, painting, acting, improvising, and throwing out a bunch of ideas to see what sticks.
I’m going to delete my Wattpad account as well, but before I do, I’ll archive what I posted there on my backup account for preservation’s sake, and communicate through there. I might archive what I posted to my DeviantArt page elsewhere, and then delete my DA account. I’m not that active on Wattpad and DA these days anyhow.
What does this mean for my alternate universes?
Well, as I said, I’m not really interested in writing anymore, and so I don’t think it’s worth it to keep pursuing fanfiction. Back at the start of 2025, I announced I would be completely revising Big Bright World. I wanted to add more variety to my character designs in order to ward off sameface syndrome, develop my characters further, and change things that I believe weren’t working.
And as part of those revisions, I have chosen to discontinue the Big Bright World fanfiction. I know this might be disappointing to you, but it feels like I’m lifting a massive weight off my shoulders. If something feels too tedious for me and doesn’t make me happy as much as it used to, then it’s not worth the hassle anymore. I’m still going to keep every single piece of fanart you’ve made for me. Believe me when I say that none of your efforts, nor your generosity, are for nothing. Also, I made my document of notes public and wrote down the entire plot of Broken and Frozen on its Fandom page, so it’s not like I’m stopping before you know what happens.
Speaking of Broken and Frozen, I started writing that fanfiction waaaaayyy back in January of 2018, when I was 12. The entire catalyst for the story is Germafrost, a prince from another kingdom, grieving his older sister Crystalline, and his character growth is about overcoming that grief. This is basically just another repackaging of the fridged woman trope. Plus, the whole plot of the story is Unikitty and her friends trying to help him talk about his feelings. Maybe giving Crystalline more personality AND shooting Germafrost with the Lego estrogen gun might fix these problems. I don’t know.
Don’t worry, though- I’m not completely shutting down this AU. Big Bright World isn’t dead. It’s still as strong as an ox, and frankly, more alive than before. Here’s the thing- not every AU has to have a fanfiction series. I think Big Bright World is at its biggest and brightest- and most popular- when it’s the characters Just Doing Things. I’m personally at my happiest when my AUs are perpetual works in progress, and that’s okay.
I have no plans of leaving this UniVerse we’ve made anytime soon. I still love roleplaying with you all, and receiving questions about my characters. I have absolutely no plans to stop that.
All of this applies to my relatively new Minecraft Story Mode AU as well, which I started brainstorming at the beginning of this decade. I’m honestly not interested in writing any actual stories, though I had some planned. I’d just rather show off my roster of characters, my worldbuilding, various points in the timeline I thought up, and maybe even some comic strip oneshots. But that’s perfectly fine!
I am so appreciative of all of you, and I hope you can understand. It’s not your fault, and I’m not leaving for good. As I said, I’m doing this for wellness’s sake. I’m prioritizing what makes me feel at my best, asking myself what does and doesn’t spark joy. I’m sorry this post isn’t long and elaborate. I wanted to keep it simple and to the point. I wanted to say what I needed to and then move on.
Thank you all for listening. I’ll still be active in Discord as psychicopal. My Strawpage will always be open in case you’d like to send me something, too.
I’ll be okay.
I’ll stay for a little longer to archive some posts, but when I’ve decided I’m done, I’m gonna leave.
