to me, one of the most essential pieces of J+P lore is 18-year-old paul, fresh out of hamburg, loitering in the space between the beatles and a Real Job, thisclose to walking away from the band, and finally it wasn’t even music that kept him. it was john.
(“and in the end he chose me” has been looping in my brain all day so let me just indulge myself for a second here)
it’s just so…..….…..idk. like, okay, john loved music, but it was never the whole thing for him. it was a means of purging something big and messy that he was desperate to express, but that outlet might’ve taken any other form. in spite of his immense talent, john could (did) walk away from music, and there were certainly times he seemed to resent it.
for paul, it really seems as though music is the whole point. it’s his trade and his language and his internal navigation system. he writes songs like other (normal) people breathe— compulsively, almost involuntarily. since he got started (70!? years ago) he’s never stopped cranking them out, and I don’t think he could stop if he wanted to.
even so, it was john who pulled paul into Everything with his ultimatum. john was the literal prerequisite for paul’s commitment to something that grows from the very core of him. like, paul finds music in his dreams and brings it out into the waking world, and still he wouldn’t devote himself to it. but he could choose john.
and then look what they did! they articulated things with and for each other that neither would’ve done alone. john pulled something out of paul’s soul, and that thing served as a vessel to hold the chaos that came pouring out of john. and then they changed the world with it.
I just keep coming back to the idea that music was inevitable for paul. but this life, this version of it, only happened because john was standing at the door and saying, “come on then.” and so paul went.
paul mccartney is Paul McCartney because of music, and music is entangled, forever, with John Lennon. how DO you lead a normal life, after that?