Life's My Bitchy Stage

Az: Who would I have been? [Azura's words string together, a bit, contented and sliding gracefully into a lower,quieter octave as she speaks.] This is why I hate the key out there. [The athlete does nothing to indicate her opposition, however. Her shoulders relax, and her torso automatically shifting into Jessi's hands. She smiles, teeth grazing lightly over the pulse at Jessi's throat] I can't believe you even have to ask. Of course I didn't let him win. [Az shifts upward,onto her elbows before she rolls and switches their positions, shedding the flimsy t-shirt in question before she returns to her ministrations.] I lost fair and square. [her hands dance along Jessi's sides, now, luxuriating in the expanse of soft skin. She sits up, pulling away, more admiration than tease.] What about you? Have you ever played?

Az: [As if on cue, Azura becomes too distracted to respond immediately to her girlfriend's statements, making an effort to keep from smiling into their kiss. Her hands come up, as though magnetized, to meet bare thighs on either side of her, pulling the dancer closer] You're going to drive me crazy one day. [Azura pulls away from her lips, after a bit, instead kissing a line down her jaw and to her throat] I'd say you aren't exactly dressed for sulking. You actively *put on* shorts. [after another moment, in which her attention is elsewhere] oh. Where was I. My day... Zion and I played laser tag. Right.

ooc

Well hello there inquiring gray face,

Ok, so...normally I don't respond to ooc asks unless you provide a url I can privately respond to (which, hey, you totally can, it's not like I bite, bro) and even though you didn't expect me to respond, I figured I'd throw you a bone. 

This RP is currently in a bite of an awkward state of...awkward. Idk if I'm supposed to publicly announce that since so many people randomly stalk my account (WOOPS) but I figured it's gotta be lame to sit around waiting for potential acceptance of an app or something. I guess we might be on potential indefinite hiatus, for the moment. 

If you have any inquiries or anything you can feel free to send me an ask that I can privately respond to.

As is, sorry, idk if I'd expect a response atm. I could have said this more politically, I s'pose, with grandiose flowery wording, but I'm at work and tired. ;) 

Hope you're having a wonderful day,

Jae.

Az: [Azura grins,covering the arms around her waist with her hands and turning her head so that she can just barely see a portion of Jessi's face.] How- I think I underestimate you sometimes, St. James. What do you bench? [Azura laughs at her own joke, rolling her eyes at herself as she walks them, or rather waddles them, tottering behind furniture on a straight path to a bedroom she's come to know well. The grin remains on her face, natural and a little impish, if she's honest. The athlete turns in the smaller girl's embrace and lifts a hand to properly kiss her, with no less intent, lingering] I don't see why we can't do both. At least one of us is an accomplished multitasker....

Az: We were ordering take-out...let it go...[the smiling, almost petulant complaint is murmured against her girlfriend's jaw before Jessi pulls back. Her expression falls, somber now, but not entirely unhappy. There's a tension curling around her extremities,a nervous tick that makes Azura want to bolt. But she doesn't move, at all, only lets her eyes fall shut when Jessi's do, hands coming up to cover Jessi's] I'm glad you haven't moved they key, yet. [Azura smirks, leaning in to kiss her girlfriend,sweeter than anyone can picture Azura being] So you admit it, you sulk. [another kiss] if you want, we can go sulk in your bed. Or on your couch. [smirks, realizing how that sounds ] What I meant was...

Az: [Azura's eyes narrow, hearing some of the things that Jessi's saying, really, for the first time. Some of that wide-eyed sympathy and certainty dissolves into frustration and an obvious protective film slips over her gaze. She takes a deep breath, almost at a loss, in the moments when Jessi looks away from her. But when the gaze returns, Azura's present, even if she's not entirely unaffected and even if she's pretty unsure about the whole thing, now. The words are slow, tiptoeing ] I don't like what he does to you, that's all. [a pause, in which she leans in to kiss the apple of Jessi's cheek] like you said, my primary concern is you. You're doing an excellent job of pretending [that part is reassuring, just in case there was any doubt] But...you can't blame me for wishing it was more than pretending.

Az: We've always talked about me. [ She retorts with as much plainly, arms draping lovingly around the Jessi as she comes closer. Azura's hands hang there at her hips when Jessi straightens to speak again. ] I know it's not your job to take care of him. You have your own life and you..do a lot for people already. [ Azura shrugs, voice soft in a way that it only is for Jessi] But if you wanted to find him..you know we could look,right? There are ways...

Az: I don't want to bring it up all the time if it's going to hurt you. It's not like you'll admit it if it does. [ She states it as a fact, but Azura's head tilts to the side,quizzically, as though she's relying on luck that the message will get through loud and clear. The taller girl nudges Jessi forward, gently, brushing their lips together] I just want to know what's going on. Or what's happened. Throw me a bone here, St. James [she smiles weakly here,one side of her mouth upturning, as if trying to be encouraging] I'm here for you.

Az: [Azura opens her mouth to speak again immediately, stepping straight into the hand pressing against her abdomen. She's cowed by the gesture and the softness of her girlfriend's tone, and her jaw snaps shut to show as much. When she speaks, it's the voice of someone who's effectively had all of the fight knocked out of them.] I understood everything you were saying. I don't disagree with you. [Azura reaches up with her right hand to tuck a stray tress behind her girlfriend's ear. She ducks her head under a bit to catch Jessi's eyes] I was just looking for an excuse. I can't let that go, you know. I care about you too much. I can tell it's still on your mind.

Az: [Azura meets her challenge head on, doing her best impression of an "unimpressed Jessi" face. She reaches, before she speaks, across the distance to uncross the other woman's arms] Sounds a lot like you're telling me it's important to me. I guess we're working on the assumption that you know me better than I know you.

Az: [Exhales roughly through her nose, breaking eye contact with the other girl for only a second, and moving automatically, as if magnetized, off the counter to stand in front of it when Jessi pulls away from her] I made the clarification. You know which part I meant. You can't make this without me without me making it about you. That's how this works. [A pause, in which she reaches out, a manual offering of piece, but doesn't quite pull her back into her arms, because that'd be unlike them. Azura meets her eyes steadily, even if Jessi tries to dodge her] Why's it so important that you act like it's not important to you? I can tell that it is.

Az: [Azura remains unconvinced, locking her jaw in order to keep steady eye contact with the other girl. She attempts to affect Jessi's tone] And when something's importnt, you let it be important? [a small pause, in which she has to a to decide to speak again, knowing that Jessi hates it when she dances around her point] I'm talking about your brother. And Kelsey being here. This whole thing. You're acting like it's inconsequential.

Jessi: No it's not. [Unfortunately for Azura, Jessi isn't nearly as joking, but it isn't gravely serious, hands pulling Azura's tighter around her waist, settling in between the other girl's legs] You form relationships just like everyone else. You just hate someone noticing. Or just don't want the consequences for it. [Jessi re-arranges some of the messy strands of Azura's hair from the trek here, eyes keeping her gaze] I don't blame you for that, or this. If it isn't worth it, it isn't worth it. But if it's important to you, then let it be important. There's nothing wrong to admitting you want something, there's only something wrong if you don't demand you have it. [She brushes their lips together] Either way.

Az: [failing the joke, Azura bites down on her thoughts and lets her girlfriend speak, without any protest at first other than the skeptical look on her face. It's an obvious effort not to be so completely argumentative. After the kiss, when Jessi's certainly stopped speaking, Azura gazes at the dancer for a moment before pulling her into something a little more substantial, leaving her hand to rest where it's slipped beneath her top on the small of Jessi's back. It's done in lieu of speaking, but the next words tumble off of Azura's lips anyhow] You can't really say that without my questioning why you don't take your own advice...

Az: [Azura cracks a smile and closes her eyes, shaking her head at her girlfriend even after that smile falls and she can hear Jessi more out of her right ear than the left that's pressed up against her phone. When she feels Jessi come over to where she is, Azura continues to talk to the phone, for a moment. ] Everything is awkward for me. [And with that, she hangs it up, eyes dropping down to meet her girlfriend's and hands following, automatically, sitting her phone next to Jessi's and pulling the smaller girl close.] It's a way of life. You may have noticed I don't exactly form relationships easily. Maybe you missed it. [ she shrugs, clearly joking, and clearly at least a little brighter now that Jessi's in the room] I dunno.Maybe you haven't gotten to know me well enough yet. But it's true.

Az: [matter-of-factly] My brother was four when it happened. I was sixteen. I think I've got the objective voice here, Jessi. [Azura takes a long drink, eyes finding the ceiling and maintaining their gaze there, for a while] I'm just saying that him being with runaway-godmom over there is a lot better than 1) him being at home and 2) anything that our dead mother could be giving him from beyond the grave. That's all. [a pause] and we're the only people on this floor that disturb the neighbors from the bedroom. I'm pretty sure.

Az: What /part/ of that doesn't make sense, Jess?[Azura scowls, as she is prone to doing,pushing herself up onto her counter instead of making her way down the hall. ] You've never properly explained what that thumping noise is, and it happens every night I'm not in your room. [ a pause] He's got a bed. And his mom went off and died on him, so that's more than she's giving him right now. [Azura says this a little bitterly, moreso than most nights, before she tries to drown the sentiment with her glass of water]

Az: I've already passed him, but remind me to hit him in the morning, has he been bothering you? [ Azura's tone is obviously distracted, as she rummages through Jessi's fridge for no reason -- she organized it herself, after all, there's nothing to look for. There's a pause. the fridge door shuts. Azura sighs.] It's too damn late for that kind of thing. Zion's there. If she wants to be useful at parenting she can parent him. It's obvious I was never cut out for it. [ The sound of a couple of cabinets opening and shutting, just as aimless, as she makes a point of thinking in silence] I'm sorry I snapped at you. Don't take it out on your pillow, or whatever you're always hitting this time of evening.