Tale of Years

Frequently. I am trying to be better about it.

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Chicago, circa late 1910s, Edward Anthony Masen, 17 years old, mortal.

Text from Midnight Sun (p 332) Edward & Esme + his vague memory of his birth mother…

Bella and Jacob's friendship mood board

Fan artist: 😍

Comments on fanfic: first of all how dare you. I am sitting at my desk ugly crying and my coworkers are asking me who died. It was my innocence that died. You took my sweet blorbo and ruined their life and thanks to your evil talent I felt every stabbing, horrible moment of angst and suffering. I can never look at this book the same way again. WHY

First there were the furious passages in his journal from when he tucked tail and fled to Alaska. As his mind levels out, they re-orient from self-deprecation to curiosity about her. He comes back but keeps his distance after the accident— he makes up for it by writing letters he’ll never send her. When he realized he was falling for her (and in denial about it), the ensuing drafts sound an awful lot like Mr. Darcy’s first proposal. When he’s accepted he’s in love, he goes into all the great gory details that he’s sure would scare her away in their intensity.

The (still unsent) letters and journal entries from his time away in New Moon show his rapid descent into desolation. They’re barely coherent, by the end, except for the very last letter he wrote on the plane to Italy— his final goodbyes.

Bella doesn’t know about any of these letters until the end of New Moon, when Edward’s trying to convince her that he’s really back, this isn’t a dream, and he never stopped loving her. When they go to his house, it’s not for the vote: he wants to show her the proof. She gets halfway through one letter before she can’t read through her tears.