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Me running away from my adult responsibilities:

““I can’t wait to die,” she told me while gazing at the stars. “I’m just so fucking exhausted trying to make the best of this shitty world. The day I die will be the best day of my life, I swear." - And I felt a piece of my heart crack at the realization that the world could be so cruel to someone so pure.”

“I knew what depression was. I’ve known what it was since I was at least sixteen. That was the first year in which I unequivocally wished for death: not in a melodramatic emo-kid way, but in a lumpen, constant-state-of-passive- suicidal-ideation way. I did not act out. I didn’t drink, do drugs, sleep around, or even date. I abhorred physical contact and wondered if I might be asexual; that’s how disinterested and disgusted I felt at the thought of anyone embracing me, kissing me, taking my clothes off. I was an underweight overachiever with no school spirit. “You’re so laid-back,” my friends would say. I wasn’t; I just had zero affect.”

“Look like the innocent flower, But be the serpent under it.”