you know the drill.

mainly angst/fluff/themes surrounding love !

PLAINSONG

I think it’s dark and it looks like it’s rain.

The wind is blowing like it’s the end of the world.

It’s so cold, it’s like the cold if you were dead.

And then you smiled for a second.

I think I’m old and I’m feeling pain.

It’s all running out like it’s the end of the world.

Sometimes you make me feel like I’m living at the edge of the world.

It’s just the way I smile.

PICTURES OF YOU

I’ve been looking so long at these pictures of you that I almost believe that they’re real.

I’ve been living so long with my pictures of you that I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel.

You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow.

You finally found all your courage to let it all go.

You were stone white, so delicate, lost in the cold.

You were always so lost in the dark.

Remembering you how you used to be.

Hold for the last time, then slip away quietly.

I open my eyes, but I never see anything.

If only I’d thought of the right words, I could have held on to your heart.

If only I’d thought of the right words.

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart.

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more.

I’ve been looking so long for the words to be true.

CLOSEDOWN

I’m running out of time.

I’m out of step and closing down.

And uselessly always the need to feel again the real belief of something more than mockery.

If only I could fill my heart with love.

LOVESONG

You make me feel like I am home again.

You make me feel like I am whole again.

You make me feel like I am young again.

You make me feel like I am fun again.

However far away, I will always love you.

However long I stay, I will always love you.

Whatever words I say, I will always love you.

I will always love you.

Fly me to the moon.

You make me feel like I am free again.

You make me feel like I am clean again.

LAST DANCE

I’m so glad you came, I’m so glad you remembered.

Expectantly, too punctual, but prettier than ever.

I really believe that this time it’s forever.

A woman now standing where once there was only a girl.

The blindness, the happiness, falling down laughing.

But I really believed that this time was forever.

But Christmas falls late now, flatter and colder.

All this in an instant before I can kiss you.

And even if we drink, I don’t think we will kiss (in the way that we did).

LULLABY

I spy something beginning with ’S’.

And suddenly a movement in the corner of the room.

And there is nothing I can do.

It’s much too late to get away or turn on the light.

I know that in the morning I will wake up in the shivering cold.

Come into my parlour.

I have a little something here.

FASCINATION STREET

Let’s cut the conversation and get out for a bit

I feel it all fading and paling. 

I’m begging to drag you down with me to kick the last nail in.

Yeah, I like you in that.

I like you to scream.

But if you open your mouth then I can’t be responsible for quite what goes in or to care what comes out.

Just pull on your pout.

Let’s move to the beat like we know that it’s over.

If you slip going under, slip over my shoulder.

PRAYERS FOR RAIN

You shatter me.

Your grip on me - a hold on me so dull it kills.

You stifle me.

I suffocate, I breathe in dirt.

You fracture me.

Your hands on me - a touch so plain, so stale it kills.

You strangle me.

(You) entangle me in hopelessness.

I deteriorate, I live in dirt.

THE SAME DEEP WATER AS YOU

Kiss me goodbye, pushing out before I sleep.

Can’t you see I try?

Swimming the same deep water as you is hard.

And we shall be together.

Kiss me goodbye.

Bow your head and join with me.

So we shall be together.

The very last thing before I go.

I will kiss you.

I will kiss you forever on nights like this.

I will kiss you, and we shall be together.

DISINTEGRATION

Oh, I miss the kiss of treachery, the shameless kiss of vanity.

And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed.

Oh, I miss the kiss of treachery, the aching kiss before I feed.

But I never said I would stay to the end.

So I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency.

I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery.

Both of us knew how the ending would be.

So it’s all come back round to breaking apart again.

I’m breaking apart like I’m made up of glass again.

I’m aking it up behind my back again.

I’m holding my breath for the fear of sleep again.

It’s coming apart again, over and over and over.

And now that I know that I’m breaking to pieces, I’ll pull out my heart and I’ll feed it to anyone.

I’m crying for sympathy. 

Crocodiles cry for the love of the crowd and the three cheers from everyone.

It’s easier for me to get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again.

Both of us knew how the end always is.

HOMESICK

Just one more and I’ll walk away.

All the everything you win turns to nothing today.

I forget how to move when my mouth is this dry.

And my eyes are bursting hearts in a blood-stained sky.

Oh it was sweet, it was wild.

Honey, cling to me…

So just one more, just one more go.

Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home.

UNTITLED

I’m down on my knees and my hands in the air again.

I’m pushing my face in the memory of you again.

But I never know if it’s real.

I never know how I wanted to feel.

I never quite said what I wanted to say to you.

I never quite managed the words to explain to you, never quite knew how to make them believable.

And now the time has gone, another time undone.

I’m feeling the monster climb deeper inside of me, feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily.

They are leaning out for love and they will lean that way forever.

I suppose that he told you everything that I keep locked away in my head. 

I’ve lain by this window long enough to get used to an empty room. 

Stay awhile until the night is over.

I’m just a station on your way, I know I’m not your lover. 

You chose your journey long before you came upon this highway. 

One day you caused my will to weaken with your love and warmth and shelter. 

I told you when I came I was a stranger. 

It’s you, my love, you who are the stranger.

They were waiting for me when I thought that I just can’t go on. 

Oh I hope you run into them, you who’ve been travelling so long. 

It begins with your family, but soon it comes around to your soul. 

It’s time that we began to laugh and cry and cry and laugh about it all again.

Well you know that I love to live with you, but you make me forget so very much. 

Your letters they all say that you’re beside me now. 

I forget to pray for the angels and then the angels forget to pray for us. 

Then why do I feel alone? 

I’m standing on a ledge and your fine spider web is fastening my ankle to a stone. 

For now I need your hidden love. 

I’m cold as a new razor blade. 

You left when I told you I was curious, I never said that I was brave. 

Oh, you are really such a pretty one.

Yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new.

In city and in forest they smiled like me and you.

You know my love goes with you as your love stays with me.

Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye. 

But let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie.

And where do all these highways go, now that we are free? 

You are locked into your suffering and your pleasures are the seal. 

I balance on a wishing well that all men call the world.

We are so small between the stars, so large against the sky.

Are you a teacher of the heart? 

We teach old hearts to break. 

I spent my hatred everyplace, on every work, on every face.

Who is it whom I address, who takes down what I confess? 

We teach old hearts to rest. 

I showed my heart to the doctor: he said I just have to quit. 

But you stand there so nice, in your blizzard of ice, oh please let me come into the storm.

If I, if I have been unkind, I hope that you can just let it go by. 

If I, if I have been untrue, I hope you know it was never to you. 

Like a beast with his horn, I have torn everyone who reached out for me. 

I need you, I don’t need you. 

And what can I tell you, my brother, my killer? What can I possibly say? 

I guess that I miss you, I guess I forgive you.

                  SHE WANTS REVENGE         lyrics starters.

RED FLAGS AND LONG NIGHTS

’ It’s never hard to tell when things are done. ’ ’ She looked into my eyes and a voice said: RUN. ’ ’ It’s alright, whether it’s two weeks, two years or just tonight. ’ ’ You can occupy my every sigh. ’ ’ You can rent the space inside my mind, at least until the price becomes too high. ’ ’ I can find a reason that we should quit. ’ ’ I can find a reason to do it. ’ ’ I can find excuses for all my shit. ’ ’ I need red flags and long nights. ’ ’ It’s not that it’s my fault, it’s just my style. ’ ’ He’s not into you, he’s into the idea of. ’

THESE THINGS

’ There’s nothing to see here. ’ ’ No one cares when the show is done. ’ ’ I heard it’s cold out. ’ ’ She’s locking me out. ’ ’ It’s cause of these things. ’ ’ Let’s make a fast plan, watch it burn to the ground. ’ ’ I try to whisper so no one figures it out. ’ ’ I’m not a bad man, I’m just overwhelmed. ’ ’ Lovers hold hands to numb the pain, gripping tightly to something that they’ll never own. ’ ’ No mistakes, only now you’re bored. ’ ’ This is the time of your life but you just can’t tell. ’

I DON’T WANT TO FALL IN LOVE

’ I knew that this would happen, that things would go this way. ’ ’ This was never planned. ’ ’ I know that you’re the right girl. ’ ’ But do you think that I am the right man? ’ ’ Right face, wrong time. ’ ’ Too late, so deep. ’ ’ Can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t think straight. ’ ’ I don’t want to fall in love. ’ ’ You say it’s not a problem. ’ ’ You say it’s meant to be. ’ ’ But love is not an option. ’ ’ Our love is never free. ’ ’ And things are not so easy. ’ ’ So cold and we’ve been burned. ’ ’ That’s the price of one more lesson learned. ’

OUT OF CONTROL

’ Oh my God, it’s my favorite song! ’ ’ We can’t slow down even if we tried. ’ ’ Our hearts steady-beating, the sweat turns to cold. ’ ’ We’ve got nowhere to go. ’ ’ We’ve got nothing to prove. ’ ’ Instead of dancing alone I should be dancing with you. ’ ’ Or maybe it’s only you. ’ ’ Either way, let’s begin. ’

MONOLOGUE

’ Lover, forgive me. ’ ’ My guilt is my only crime. ’ ’ I’ll carry it round till it breaks me down every time. ’ ’ This is the time of night when the moonlight shines down and we can reveal who we truly are. ’ ’ Just give me the safe word. ’ ’ Take your hand and smack me in the mouth, my love. ’ ’ A half open mouth and the whole truth that no one would take. ’ ’ Pretend all you want you can cry to your heart’s own beat. ’ ’ We will take love and swear upon the things that we just can’t keep. ’

BROKEN PROMISES FOR BROKEN HEARTS

’ Pay attention, my love, cause it’s over. ’ ’ At the tip of my tongue is the price you weren’t willing to pay. ’ ’ Still this is something akin to a breakdown. ’ ’ Broken promises for broken hearts. ’ ’ When you look back now was it special? ’ ’ Was it nothing but anecdote that you can tell now and then? ’ ’ I delude myself it was worth it. ’ ’ From the beginning I could see exactly how it would end. ’ ’ I wanna wish you away. ’ ’ I wanna kiss you away. ’

SISTER

’ She smelled like 2am. ’ ’ This could only turn cold. ’ ’ No touching tonight. ’ ’ Tuck me in. ’ ’ You better lie down cause the angels are watching. ’ ’ Quit the talking. ’ ’ You can hurt me, do whatever you like. ’ ’ Shut your mouth, the angels are listening. ’

US

’ Late last night I was looking through pictures. ’ ’ Flooded with memories I lied on the floor. ’ ’ Still I can’t forget. ’ ’ All the fiction and lies, all the tears and the laughs take a walk through the past. ’ ’ You and I hand in hand as we look at this thing called us. ’ ’ I tried my hardest to cry but it just wouldn’t come. ’

SOMEONE MUST GET HURT

’ Please don’t touch me. ’ ’ I’ve come too far to let you bring me down. ’ ’ You think that I’m easy. ’ ’ Try as you might you can’t have me now. ’ ’ I can tell you’d like some company. ’ ’ I can’t fix you when you don’t want me. ’ ’ I call for the witness, present the facts, write down the little things. ’ ’ They say the heart is resilient in black and white. ’ ’ You swore there’d be no strings. ’ ’ Under the sound of my footsteps this time there will be no long goodbye. ’ ’ How can I trust you? ’ ’ How could you need me to know? ’ ’ It’s getting to be so cold. ’ ’ The decision is in and I won’t break. ’ ’ Well, someone might get hurt and it won’t be me. ’

TEAR YOU APART

warning: dark, dark, dark themes.

It doesn’t matter if we all die.

In a high building, there is so much to do.

Please love me.

But the fear takes hold, creeping up the stairs in the dark.

Just like the old days.

A hundred years of blood, crimson.

Over and over we die one after the other.

It feels like a hundred years.

Movement. No movement.

Cover me with earth, draped in black.

Time is sweet.

Derange and disengage everything.

Catching haloes on the moon gives my hands the shapes of angels.

I chose an eternity of this.

Is it always like this?

Then everything falls apart.

The walls and the ceiling move in time.

Dancing in my pocket, worms eat my skin.

In the morning I cried.

Leave me to die.

You won’t remember my voice.

I walked away and grew old.

You never talk, we never smile.

You’re nothing.

I don’t need you anymore.

It fades and spins.

Leave me alone and sleeping less every night.

I laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year.

A hundred other words blind me with your purity.

I think about tomorrow.

Please let me sleep.

You mean nothing.

I can lose myself in Chinese art and American girls all the time.

Lose me in the dark, please do it right.

Run into the night.

I will lose myself tomorrow.

Someone will listen, at least for a short while.

I can never say no to anyone but you.

Too many secrets, too many lies.

But the same image haunts me, in sequence, in despair of time.

I will never be clean again.

You will be kissed again.

I was cold as I mouthed the words.

I wait, await the next breath.

Your name (is) like ice into my heart.

Can no one save you? 

Everything as cold as silence, and you never say a word.

But it’s too late.

One more day like today and I’ll kill you.

mainly angst/fluff/themes surrounding love !

PLAINSONG

I think it’s dark and it looks like it’s rain.

The wind is blowing like it’s the end of the world.

It’s so cold, it’s like the cold if you were dead.

And then you smiled for a second.

I think I’m old and I’m feeling pain.

It’s all running out like it’s the end of the world.

Sometimes you make me feel like I’m living at the edge of the world.

It’s just the way I smile.

PICTURES OF YOU

I’ve been looking so long at these pictures of you that I almost believe that they’re real.

I’ve been living so long with my pictures of you that I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel.

You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow.

You finally found all your courage to let it all go.

You were stone white, so delicate, lost in the cold.

You were always so lost in the dark.

Remembering you how you used to be.

Hold for the last time, then slip away quietly.

I open my eyes, but I never see anything.

If only I’d thought of the right words, I could have held on to your heart.

If only I’d thought of the right words.

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart.

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more.

I’ve been looking so long for the words to be true.

CLOSEDOWN

I’m running out of time.

I’m out of step and closing down.

And uselessly always the need to feel again the real belief of something more than mockery.

If only I could fill my heart with love.

LOVESONG

You make me feel like I am home again.

You make me feel like I am whole again.

You make me feel like I am young again.

You make me feel like I am fun again.

However far away, I will always love you.

However long I stay, I will always love you.

Whatever words I say, I will always love you.

I will always love you.

Fly me to the moon.

You make me feel like I am free again.

You make me feel like I am clean again.

LAST DANCE

I’m so glad you came, I’m so glad you remembered.

Expectantly, too punctual, but prettier than ever.

I really believe that this time it’s forever.

A woman now standing where once there was only a girl.

The blindness, the happiness, falling down laughing.

But I really believed that this time was forever.

But Christmas falls late now, flatter and colder.

All this in an instant before I can kiss you.

And even if we drink, I don’t think we will kiss (in the way that we did).

LULLABY

I spy something beginning with ’S’.

And suddenly a movement in the corner of the room.

And there is nothing I can do.

It’s much too late to get away or turn on the light.

I know that in the morning I will wake up in the shivering cold.

Come into my parlour.

I have a little something here.

FASCINATION STREET

Let’s cut the conversation and get out for a bit

I feel it all fading and paling. 

I’m begging to drag you down with me to kick the last nail in.

Yeah, I like you in that.

I like you to scream.

But if you open your mouth then I can’t be responsible for quite what goes in or to care what comes out.

Just pull on your pout.

Let’s move to the beat like we know that it’s over.

If you slip going under, slip over my shoulder.

PRAYERS FOR RAIN

You shatter me.

Your grip on me - a hold on me so dull it kills.

You stifle me.

I suffocate, I breathe in dirt.

You fracture me.

Your hands on me - a touch so plain, so stale it kills.

You strangle me.

(You) entangle me in hopelessness.

I deteriorate, I live in dirt.

THE SAME DEEP WATER AS YOU

Kiss me goodbye, pushing out before I sleep.

Can’t you see I try?

Swimming the same deep water as you is hard.

And we shall be together.

Kiss me goodbye.

Bow your head and join with me.

So we shall be together.

The very last thing before I go.

I will kiss you.

I will kiss you forever on nights like this.

I will kiss you, and we shall be together.

DISINTEGRATION

Oh, I miss the kiss of treachery, the shameless kiss of vanity.

And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed.

Oh, I miss the kiss of treachery, the aching kiss before I feed.

But I never said I would stay to the end.

So I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency.

I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery.

Both of us knew how the ending would be.

So it’s all come back round to breaking apart again.

I’m breaking apart like I’m made up of glass again.

I’m aking it up behind my back again.

I’m holding my breath for the fear of sleep again.

It’s coming apart again, over and over and over.

And now that I know that I’m breaking to pieces, I’ll pull out my heart and I’ll feed it to anyone.

I’m crying for sympathy. 

Crocodiles cry for the love of the crowd and the three cheers from everyone.

It’s easier for me to get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again.

Both of us knew how the end always is.

HOMESICK

Just one more and I’ll walk away.

All the everything you win turns to nothing today.

I forget how to move when my mouth is this dry.

And my eyes are bursting hearts in a blood-stained sky.

Oh it was sweet, it was wild.

Honey, cling to me…

So just one more, just one more go.

Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home.

UNTITLED

I’m down on my knees and my hands in the air again.

I’m pushing my face in the memory of you again.

But I never know if it’s real.

I never know how I wanted to feel.

I never quite said what I wanted to say to you.

I never quite managed the words to explain to you, never quite knew how to make them believable.

And now the time has gone, another time undone.

I’m feeling the monster climb deeper inside of me, feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily.