Princess Tootie

I’ve decided to turn my emotions off completely

I just feel like stuck. Every day is the same and I'm just existing not living.

I’m so tired of holding myself together when all I really want is to fall apart

"It's fine." I tell myself while having the worst crash out of my life.

When being made fun of for your looks and weight as a kid actually permanently damages the way you see yourself and it’s not just silly lil childhood lore

I became so attached to my depression that I can't imagine my life without it anymore

Having to live a future you didn’t think you’d be alive for is so fucking hard

Sometimes i look at my $elfharm scars and think “Damn it wasn’t even that deep”

i don’t want to live like this. i only exist at this point. all i do is distract my mind so i don’t kill myself

i hate when people ask how i’m doing like.. horrible. next question

i'm in a period of my life right now where i feel like i can't do any thing right except not eat. the control gives me peace where i feel i lack control elsewhere.

It's possible, all you need to do is eat less. The easiest thing in the world. Just don't put food in your mouth.

If I had a pretty face and curves in the right places, I think I would have been able to make peace with my body and my weight. But I don’t even have that going for me. Instead, I'm the bastard child of an orge and a potato. Lumpy shape, bumpy skin, coarse and unruly hair. Why do I even keep trying?