Fifty Shades Of Fucked Up

Prepare for the Billie Eilish span that my Facebook friends have been dealing with for two weeks now

I’ve come back to this video about 20-25 times over the past week. This video explains all of my feelings about Hope. I’m tired of the subliminal bullshit posts, I think it’s time that I finally lay my feelings out on the table. It’s been 6 years since we’ve been together but to this day, I find myself madly and hopelessly in love with Hope. I don’t wanna eat, I don’t wanna sleep, I just want to think about her. It’s like I have this ghost that follows me around contstantly. I’m in a relationship but all I can think about is how it’s not fair to her that I’m in love with someone else. She asks if I wanna get married of have kids one day and I just tell her it’s something that I don’t want but in reality, I do want those things. I want those things with my Robin, with Hope. It’s not fair that when I see romantic movies or listen to romantic songs, that I think of Hope. I tell myself that I want it to stop, that I just want to ghosts to go away but I know that’s not true, I want Hope back, I would give the world to just see her face and hear her voice one more time. And I understand that Hope probably doesn’t even want anything to do with me anymore and I totally respect that but Jesus, I wish she would.