ridethewaves

The anxiety continues, but outdoors helps.  The leaves are gorgeous, so I can’t complain.  Hoping to spend more time outside, without homework hanging over my head.  Two papers to write tonight, so I’m stuck inside; but I opened some windows to let the fresh air in.

I’m honestly struggling so hard right now.  I wanna cry every two seconds.  I miss having free time that I don’t spend fucking sleeping because I am exhausted from working my ass off.  I’m tired of not seeing my friends.  I’m tired of having a messy house.  I honestly miss my high school friends more than words can describe.  I miss our adventures, our bonfires, our laughs.  But now none of us really talk, things have changed and it’s nowhere near the same.  I’m stressed about work and school and I feel lime time is slipping through my fingers.  Fall is my favorite season and I haven’t done anything to celebrate.  My schedule is booked and I just want time to do what I want.