And For The Darkness There Is A Thunderous Applause

“I saw that the camera could be a weapon against poverty, against racism, against all sorts of social wrongs. I knew at that point I had to have a camera.” – Gordon Parks

Yeah you're cute when you sleep but you didn't let me sleep either so I'm going to annoy you now because I'm bored. Hahah get poked, sleepy idiot.

How do you not comprehend this when I am literally staring at you. Like I understand that your brain can't understand things this nuanced but come on, how do you not get this.

I don't know if you know that what I am currently doing is an expression of affection, but that won't stop me. Knowing that I showed you that I love you is enough.

I heard a crinkly material and the sound of you chewing so I have to know what's in your mouth RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

I can't communicate with you and you can't communicate with me, so I'm just copying the tone of the sound you're making in hopes that you understand that I try.

You are doing activities beyond my comprehension, and I find this fascinating. I will never understand what the fuck you are trying to achieve here, but I am intrigued nonetheless.

Most autistic people have a lot of trouble reading others' emotions from their faces. If you've never experienced this you won't understand but basically it's really hard to understand what the hell's going on in say, Breaking Bad if you have no idea what anyone is thinking unless it's obvious from their tone of voice. And if you don't understand the characters, it's impossible to empathize with them.

Other times, the characters' emotions are simply not within the range of things the average autistic person has ever thought about, even if they're understood. In my entire life I have never once thought about cheating on my wife because I don't find average humans attractive at all. In the Bluebeard story I wouldn't look in that door because he told me not to and I am fucking terrified of "doing the wrong thing," a fear a lot of autistic people have because it happens to us constantly. Not having these kinds of desires renders a lot of romantic stories written for women into complete nonsense to me. It becomes hard to understand why the characters are acting so idiotically and irresponsibly from my perspective.

You can start to see why this complicates matters. Adult dystopian stories like 1984 and Squid Game, diplomacy stories like Shogun, war stories…these become the only adult stories that DO still make sense, because they rely on plot threads that aren't dependent on you deciphering the characters' motives and finding them incoherent.

The third sequel was pretty bad. But damn was it a lot of fun. I've had fun with most of Disney's Star Wars stuff actually. Rollicking, entertaining, fun. I like fun.

I have no idea why you're expecting a series that bizarrely features the main characters being set up for a gladiatorial Roman execution inexplicably run by bugs that's gatecrashed by *Samuel L. Jackson* to be serious and important and philosophically weighty. It *is,* but it's a weird fucking expectation. Have you *seen* the prequels in the last ten years? XD They're *weird.* And *silly.* Lucas Star Wars is *profoundly silly,* whenever it has the opportunity. This is not Andor's tight thriller; the only quality they share is their universe.

Star Wars is inherently and always has been both completely, hilariously stupid AND occasionally filled with real insight and things to say, and the real insight and things to say are mostly contributed by non-main creators and not the franchise holder. See, I don't know, the entire Expanded Universe.

so if she should lay a trap and lure the king of the underworld out of his realm and into hers? it might take a while to notice he’s gone. she has the world’s worth of beautiful sights and smells and sensations to dazzle a god whose subjects are dampened souls and cold metal. who could bring themselves to mind the dead when a goddess is brushing rich petals against your cheeks? when she’s as warm as the sunlight you rarely rise to see? when she appreciates you so much more than anyone else has ever feared you, and twines herself around you like a strangler fig?

Been playing a lot of Pragmata lately, and it's a very cute, fun game! I am enjoying the environmental storytelling scattered around, too. I am seriously enjoying Accidental Family Outing: The Game, except for how everything keeps trying to destroy my accidental family...

Admittedly, I am a little surprised there aren't more people being Totally Normal About IDUS. Like me. I am Very Normal.

IDUS is a condescendingly polite sound donut. and I am. gnawing. on it. I think this is partly because I really just like masculine computer voices that should automatically make you distrust them simply by existing, but I am also thinking about HAL 9000, again. Hm yes, interesting, interesting stuff.

And also, the implications of said environmental storytelling; not just the *obvious* horrible stuff that happened here, but then some. :) You can of course easily chalk that up to the game being, well, a videogame, and thus it needs rewards for challenges, and so on, to go with its linear progression, but.... I am thinking about how stuff, well, diagetically, is really itneresting just for being there. That's all.