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“Then you don’t know it’s true. It wouldn’t be the first time they lied. Did you forget that they confessed to lying about Zai blackmailing people earlier this year?” Did everyone else forget that detail during the Decades Dance out of the Crusade’s mouth? They already made it abundantly clear they’d feed Luxor students false information if they felt like it; the fact Jenevieve thought they were a valid excuse to lie about Maddie was ridiculous to her. “I’m sure you have good intentions by sharing, and I’d be willing to consider it if you had evidence, but your only source is self-admittedly unreliable. I can’t in good conscience take this as a fact, and you shouldn’t be doing so either.” It was so messed up that Balo felt the urge to say something when she usually tried to stay out of these types of discussions. “I just started talking to Sav a few weeks ago, and the last time I hung out with Maddie was before prom. That’d be like me saying you, JP, Teddy, and Morgan go out to get sushi every weekend. Don’t talk about my friends when you have clearly no idea who I hang out with. The only people I hang out with on a weekly basis are Collen, Ches, Lucy, and Avery for movie night, and Jack - my brother - who I spend time with one and one. Thank you for the concern about the company I keep, but it’s not needed.” And it only proved her point that Jeneiveve had absolutely no idea what she was talking about. “Well, something’s clearly wrong if you’re framing people of crimes they didn’t commit in front of the entire school. That’s not normal, even for you. Have you tried talking to the school counselor? Maybe they could help if your siblings won’t?” 

The girls presents was angering Jenevieve beyond belief. The fact that the girl believed everything right here is so black and white. Jenevieve was starting to think this girl was stupid or something for how thick she was being. Of course she knew they lied about Zai but that wasn’t a secret reveal. That was just causing some drama and even then they say they lied. This. This was not something they were going to come out about because it was true. Maddie pushed a girl down the stairs. But the story Jenevieve pitched about it was not. BUt that was the point. To make people believe her words. Jenevieve didn’t know which story was true, if it was intentional or not, but she did push a girl down the stairs and the girl did die. “Are you thick? You really just came in and said you know I don’t like maddie and your friends. Also I’m not stupid.  I know you are friends with Jack maddie and their attachments.Even if you don’t hang out with them or are close, you like them. Which makes me not like you.” She added in with an eye roll. She didn’t have to many issues with Jack anymore, he just annoyed her really but she avoided him like the plague “And don’t even get me started on Ches.” She threw in there. “Balo you really aren’t getting it are you? Like?” She said all frustrated. “I did not want to do that. I do not need to see a counselor or get help so cut the shit out. I know you don’t care about me so stop fucking pretending. I am not fixable. I am not a little pet project. And again. It’s not framing if its true. Maybe you should ask Maddie about it. Go meddle in her life and we can go back to ignoring each other's existence.” 

OPEN TO : Everyone LOCATION : Lounge TIME : February 12th aka Lennon’s Birthday @luxorstarters​

lennon wasn’t a stranger to an extravagant birthday, but something about being in south africa without either of her parents brought on a strange mix of weird covered in excitement— she’d never done this before. the blonde wasn’t expecting to be gifted a necklace from her father since they weren’t together, but the real miracle would of been receiving a gift that wasn’t a card discussing her future…her mother was good for that. she looked up happily once she heard footsteps approaching, “hey, up for a random adventure?”

Jenevieve entered the dorm lounge as she has left some books behind in there, walking past Lennon she heard the girl speak up. She turned to look at her. “Oh? Are you talking to me?” She questioned as she looked around. She didn’t think anyone would be speaking to her, not after what she did. 

OPEN TO : Everyone.

LOCATION : Art room. 

TIME : Current. @luxorstarters​

Axel’s hand was finally fully healed from the robot incident, up until now he’d been refusing to use it at all in hopes that he wouldn’t damage it more. He went from his final physiotherapy appointment to the art room. He slapped around a piece of clay for a while before growing increasingly frustrated. His time off really had him feeling uninspired and rusty. He groaned loudly before he noticed someone coming in the doorway. “Oh, I was just leaving.” He said taking off his apron and going to toss the wet clay into the trash bin.

Journal in one hand and purse in the other Jenevieve entered the art room. She was honestly avoiding populated places on campus and while she wasn’t a great artist sometimes she liked to write in there. Ironically an art room was where Axel and Jenevieve met. Hearing his voice, she snapped her head up. “No no. It’s my bad. I didn’t think anyone would be in here. I can leave.” She assured him as she watched him throw out the clay. “Why... why did you throw that out?” 

Jenevieve ( @jenevievemccoy​ ) Continued from Discord

“And why should I believe you? You didn’t even give evidence.” And Balo already thought of Jenevieve as a bully, while Maddie was always nice to her. Which, on average, tended to be how people got her to listen to them - by being kind to her. “You just tried to accuse Maddie of murder in front of the entire school with pretty much a ‘just believe me guys’ and ran off.  Do you have any idea how that looks? This really isn’t how you make friends, Jenevieve.” Which, as far as Balo was aware, the other girl had none. “Why would you say those things about Avery and Lucy? They’re not even a part of this. Do you even know my friends?” The Beaumont-Peters girls and Ches were the only girls she spent time with in a collective, all her other friendships were one on one - so that was the only squad she had to talk about. “Should I be calling Jules? I will if that’ll help with whatever’s going on with you.” Clearly something had to be going on in Jenevieve’s life, some kind of crisis, for her to acting so erratically, right? People just didn’t randomly accuse people of murder and run off - something had to be seriously wrong as far as Balo could guess.

“It’s not like the crusade gave me evidence to present. What was I supposed to do? Stand up there and answer questions? And for the love of god. I didn’t run out. These are not running heels.” She said with an eye roll. “It wasn’t an accusation Balo. It is true.” She said again. “No not them. Your other little bitch squad. Maddie, Sav, Jack. All of them.” She said shaking her head. She had nothing against Avery or Lucy and quite frankly she didn’t even know Balo was friends with them. She didn’t really pay attention to Balo’s life. “No! I don’t need my fucking sister!” Jenevieve snapped at the girl. “Why would I need her Balo? Do you see here coming to me after all that? Do you? No. She doesn’t care. She is probably at Maddies side blotting away her tears. And JP? Haven’t heard from him in weeks. Why can’t you follow in pursuit and just leave me alone.”

Jackson didn’t spend much time resenting the aristocratic students; some of his best friends being among them, but it was in times like this that he honestly wondered how the upper class managed to get away with half of the things they did, especially if it involved someone being killed by another student. He shook his head, his expression saddened in thought of this poor girl and her family. “And she pushed her?” He asked for clarification again, really trying to imagine what had taken place. “Down the stairs…” he trailed off, feeling as though it was all really rhetorical, still remembering everything Jene said very clearly.

He shook his head again. “Don’t feel bad.” He insisted, not wanting Jene to have to worry about anything other than relaxing after the day she had… and especially after the weeks she would continue to have, having to face Maddie after revealing her secret to the school. He released a heavy sigh, feeling the weight of the events at the school lately. Wrapping his arms around her again, he carefully rested his chin on the top of her head. “Do you need water or anything?” He murmured.

Jenevieve nodded her head. “That’s what it said. It said that Maddie pushed her frieneimy down the stairs and killed her and that it was claimed to be a prank go wrong.” She paused “But that basically with her track record no one knows for sure, but she got kicked out for it and the school agreed to cover it up if she left quietly.” Jenevieve explained. Jene felt bad having to stand up in front of the school and say those things, she hated Maddie, but she knew how it felt. When JP’s secret was revealed it took an impact on her as well. It might have been his own secret, but all three McCoy children kept it and lived through it. And Jene took the heat for it as well. Though she did feel like Juliet was the lucky one. No one dared bringing it up or throwing it in her face. 

Jenevieve held onto Jackson for a few moments before pulling away. “I will make it up to you.” She said with a soft smile. The girl rubbed her forehead before pushed her hand back and running it through her head. “No. I am okay.” She said with a nod. “Though drinking seems more and more appealing with every passing moment.” She said as a cheap joke. “Do you need anything? Are you doing okay?”

Dear Jenevieve,

Things have been tough and crazy, but I am sure you can make it through. If you ever need anything, you know where to find me!

Kenzie

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To jenevieve

I’m sorry life keeps playing out how it does.

-anonymous.

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Jene,

The big bad bitches of Luxor have to stick together, yeah? Happy Valentine’s Day

Kai

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Jenevieve,

PLEASE get some help for the love of god i am associated with you for as long as I’m dating Jules and my reputation cannot handle your crises

Jack xoxo

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Jene,

Everyone always just wants someone to blame… It is easier said than done, but please try not to let them get you down. Everyone else would have done the same if they were in your position.

Anonymous

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Jene,

I hope you enjoy your day. And if not, I mean, I bought too many candy grams that should be acceptable for one single person...

You know where I'll be

Jenevieve,

Don’t apologize, you’re entitled to your feelings. I commend you for being able to talk about them, it’s not an easy feat. That being said though, I’m not entirely sure how to get mine across in a structured or constructive way. I suppose you could be correct in the shitty situations making us stronger, but sometimes they just make you tired- you know? With everything going on lately I am tired of being strong. I am tired. I remember us first meeting fondly. You were interesting, and humerus all wrapped into one. I bet you did miss me, even despite not knowing me, hmm? Haha. I remember the night that you came to take care of me- not all of it honestly, but the parts where you were there. You were so sweet to me, when you didn’t have to be. You barely knew me- you owed me nothing at all and yet you still came and cared for me. That speaks a lot on your character. And it’s a memory I hold dear. Our relationship- if that’s what we’ll call it- had a lot of good times before the bad struck. Communicating is not my strong suit. I am good at many things, but people I am not. I am very happy to hear you feel that you’re better now. I’ve never wanted you to be miserable or hurting, and I know that come the end of us you were. As per the whole Sky thing, I can say honestly that I am also not sure why he’d tell you those things- I wish I had a more concrete answer for you but I don’t. If I had to speculate though, my guess would be he felt he owed it to you as his best friend to be honest and open. I don’t think he did it maliciously to harm you, at least it doesn’t come across that way from my personal perspective. You say that the only thing stopping you from a relationship with Kai is me. That must mean that you’re interested in pursuing one with him otherwise. Feel free to pretend I don’t exist… I don’t want to constantly feel like I’m a hurdle in your life Jenevieve. That’s not fair to you. On second thought, now that I’ve reread I see you say he’s had relations with your sister… maybe don’t eat from the same plate as her. Little…odd. Not my business though, if that’s what you’re into. 

I’m glad to hear you’re trying. If you’d like any help, I could definitely try to assist you in taking out- er- rather getting rid of your father. Cruel man. (Thank you. It was awful, as per usual. Happy belated to you as well. Sorry for missing your birthday party, it didn’t feel as though I was welcome to such an event.) I’ve studied a lot about the laws and such, again if you need help I’d be happy- if not from me even my father has incredible lawyers. You’re not a burden. Don’t talk about yourself in such a way. You’re a good person. I’m always around to talk about shitty parents, I have one- remember? Oh, I’m sorry to hear that things got messy. I hope that was at no fault of mine- though, if I’m good at anything it’s ruining peoples lives without event trying. Haha. 

Your words are sweet, and they tug at my heartstrings (if I even have those, I imagine I’m like The Grinch, heart three sizes too small.) I still care about you Jenevieve, and I’d still do anything to protect you, I hope you do know that. 

Yours truly, 

-Axel Allexander Allen III 

Axel,

Sometimes feelings suck, I do know what you mean with not being able to communicate them, I’ve struggled with that. I think I feel bad because I’m finally figuring out mine. Though my feelings for you have always been so present. It was hard to ignore, something about you just makes me whole. I am my best with you in my life. I know you are going through a lot and I just want to remind you that I am always here for you, weather its to talk or clean you up or just o sit there and hold you close and make you feel better, weather you think I want nothing to do with you someday. I am always here for you. I’m always in your corner. I also love those memories, use just cuddling in your bed, mme wearing all your clothes even though they are huge on me. There were so many good times, good memories. I did miss you, just as much as I do now. You never made me hurt or miserable, just my own toxic head and thoughts. I was happy with you. As for Sky, I have no idea what is going on with that. We aren’t in the best place right now but only time can mend that. No no, I guess my wording wasn’t what I intended. But in all honesty I could see myself with Kai, I trust him, but in the end, my feelings just aren’t there for him. And yeah, The whole Juliet thing, Kinda grosses me out a bit... Anyway, he is just a friend, when him and Jules dated we became friends. But That was also around the time of my ex so I really stuck to Jules, Kai and JP for a while as I closed myself off to everyone. But that changed when I met you. You helped me come back out of my shell. But again, no intentions of eating from the same plate as her, as you worded it

Thanks for the offer, I might take you up on that, but to be frank, I do not want you reaching out to your father for help. You dad should be next to mine in jail. Rotting for the rest of their pathetic lives. (Thanks, I wanted to reach out on yours but I felt the same. If it’s any constellation, mine sucked as well, but 18 was something I’ve been waiting for since I was 8.) I’m just a bit scared that if you talked to his lawyers they might bring your dad in with him, I don’t want to make things harder for you. But your law studies would be appreciated, and I’d get to spend time with you.  But hopefully we can talk about other things other than crappy parents. And it wasn’t your fault shit got messy for me, it was mine.

The grinch was evil, green and ugly, but if I remember correctly, even he did learn to love. But in my eyes you are nowhere near the grinch's level. You care about people so deeply. And it’s nice to know you are here for me.... and I’d do anything for you.

Sky: jenevieve i really don't know what you want.

Sky: [...]

Sky: i TOLD you what happened with me and axel because i thought you deserved to know. because if it was a guy i liked, i would want to know the same. because clearly, i recognised it was wrong. and then i apologised, because i was trying to do the right thing. i could have said nothing at all because last time i checked it's not like you were ever even in a defined relationship. but of course, me trying to be a decent person isn't good enough for jenevieve mccoy.

Sky: you're right. it does hurt when you clearly care for someone and try to make amends with them, but they so obviously value you less than others to the point where they are willing to forgive someone else for the exact same offence and actually REACH OUT to that someone else apologising to THEM and yet when you apologise for it, the person you care about decides it's inadequate. interesting how you still act this way.

Sky: i also do not have space in my life for people who treat others in such an obviously inconsistent way and who have the actual nerve to offer "tips" on how to be a better person. especially because this will happen again. axel will kiss someone else and you'll find some miraculous way to blame the other person instead of him and continue treating him as if he is not a human with thoughts and feelings and maybe even desires to kiss someone who is not you. so i'm glad we are in agreement that we have no room for each other.

Sky: i am not going to kiss your feet and beg for forgiveness when you are so deluded that you'll find any way in the world to blame me for axel's choices. if he doesn't want to date you, i am sorry. but that's not my fault. if he wants to kiss me more, that's not my fault. all the people in the world rejecting him won't make him fall in love with you. i would have thought you'd want him to be happy?

Sky: pro tip: learn to be a decent human being. i am not going to write you a 3 paragraph apology. to be honest, the more you message me the more i realise you didn't deserve a 3 word one to begin with. maybe work on yourself before you start lecturing others on how to be a good person.

Jene: Just to clarify some points, I don't only blame you Sky. I'm mad at him just the same.

12/18/2020

Jenevieve… 

I’ve realised that I have yet to write you back. If I’m being honest, I wasn’t really sure how to phrase any of the things I’ve felt on the matter…or why. Not that time has really changed that how I thought it would. Nothing gets more clear, only more foggy. Let me start things off by saying that If I felt that you had been ruining my life, I wouldn’t have spent my time with you. I spent my whole life wasting time in a basement, surrounded by people that made me miserable. I don’t put myself into those situations willingly. You’d have a hard time ruining me given that I’m already ruined. My dad made it his goal to ruin me and it’s something he succeeded at. I’m not a good person. I’m aware of this. I’m numb to this honestly. You’d have to be a miracle worker to ruin me anymore than I already am. Not to dwell on that though, I’ve missed you as well, obviously. We had a lot of good times together, I absolutely will not deny that. I didn’t ask you out because, I’m not sure if you’ve taken notice or not, but I’m really not the relationship guy. I’ve dated one person in the past and it was painful. I’ve never really had anyone since him show interest in me before you came around. I don’t know how to be in a proper relationship, and I guess I didn’t realise it was entirely on my shoulders to be the one to ask and solidify that- given that you also never asked me out or asked to make things official. I assumed that you were also content in what we were doing. Poor communication on both our ends I suppose. Maybe we have different definitions on what hooked up means- Sky and I kissed but we haven’t had sex. I don’t know if that’s something you really care to know but I figured it should be said so that the air is entirely cleared. We’re also not dating, to my knowledge. I’m going to be honest, I’m a little confused on why you care if I want you or not- last I knew you had Kai. He followed you around the apple orchard like a puppy. He seemed to really care about you. I don’t want any unresolved feelings that I may or may not have to get between that. You deserve genuine happiness. I understand being in a terrible place, I’m usually in one myself. 

Your dad needs to be put down. I don’t know why you don’t have a restraining order on that lunatic Jenevieve. That man is insane. I would have came, if you’d reached out to me. I wouldn’t want you going through that alone. It hurt when I heard that you weren’t doing well, but I feel like it’s not my place to be there for you anymore- like I’m doing more harm than good by being there. Maybe that’s not true, but that’s how I feel. I don’t think Kai’s a bad guy. He seems good for you. It definitely does seem like you’re dating. Like I said in previous, he followed you around that entire event like a puppy, he cares a lot for you- there’s no way that he hates you Jenevieve. I can’t think of many people who do. You’re a good presence. 

I honestly, have been stuck on this paragraph the most. I don’t know how to process this. You shouldn’t love me Jenevieve. I don’t know why you would. It is hard for me to wrap my head around. I wish there was more I could say. I’m honestly just still stuck for words. I’m not good at… feelings. My heart is heavy though. 

- Axel Allexander Allen III

12/19/20

Axel,         

Yeah, the wait did suck, but I am sorry I dropped this bomb on you, brought a cloud over your head. But going on, I know this now, I figured out not too long ago. As I said, I was having a lot of issues and it took me a bit of time to figure it out. I don’t think you have ruined Axel. Sometimes we are just placed in these situations, these terrible situations and it's to make us stronger, the obstacle, the thing to overcome in the end is what shapes us. At least that’s how I like to think of it now. It’s gods test, to see if we are truly strong. I see you as strong, not ruined. And likewise, on the difficulty dating. You know of my one ex.... and I’ve felt the same way, nothing felt like something until I met you. Something about you, when we first met intrigued me. There you were at your pottery wheel asking if I missed you and I stood against the wall, asking if I knew you. Then it developed, you texted me drunk and pulled me into your bed all nice and close and I just felt safe. But I also agree, we suck at communicating. I should have specified more, I thought I did sort of at that lake bash when I said I didn’t want you with other people, though I do suck at dropping hints. But I was content, I loved it. Every second with you, but I let my insecurities control me. Though I am much healthier now. Kinda. Heart still sucks. Bu with Sky, yeah, I meant like kissing, he told me you guys shared a few of those during our time together. I’m not sure why he would tell me that though, especially after things ended between you and me, again, really sorry about that. I guess I figured you were together especially with him telling me that, you guys always being together, then you and him in the fire, and after the fire. Also, I let that eat me up for a bit of time. I hate to say that I am relieved you aren’t together or had sex. I mean, if that was what you wanted to do, I’d support you fully, but I’m relieved. I was serious when I said Kai is just a friend. He does follow me around like a puppy though, but it’s because he cared for me... It’s more like my unresolved feelings are in the way. Part of me can’t even fathom a relationship with him, because all I think about is you. It would be unfair to him to lead him on, which is why I told him I can’t be anything more than friends with him, just before writing the first letter. I don’t want to be with him though, so your unresolved feelings have no issue in that situation. Besides, he fucked my sister, it would just be weird. 

         As for my father, since I turned 18 I’ve been trying. (Happy late birthday by the way) I’m working up a case against him but it’s long and exhausting, especially doing it alone. He is just so good at hiding what he does. I’ve removed both my parents from all proxy forms and everything. They will both rot in jail when I’m done with them. I should have reached out, but I didn’t want to dump my problems on you. But it wouldn’t have been harmful, but if it’s not your place anymore, I understand that being there for me is a full job and a half and I wouldn’t want to put that burden on anyone, not even you. But Kai, also again, not dating. Very very very far from dating. We sorted things out-ish. Back when I wrote the first letter, I kinda snapped and yelled at him and it was messy, but what is my life isn’t messy. 

          That’s okay. It took me a while to admit it, again sorry for the bomb dropped in your lap. I just couldn’t go on without saying it. You don’t realize, there are so many lovable things about you. Your cute bedhead in the morning, your little smirk. The way you are so protective over the people you care about. There is so much more Axel. 

                                                                                                         ~Jene

Sky: oh can you tell me what axel's apology was like then

Sky: you know. since it must've been so insanely good for you to be reaching out to him and not mad at him.

Sky: i wanna get some tips.

Jene: So he's told you about it. I suppose you can go in and read it, laugh at me some more.

Jene: You hurt me sky. You both did. I'm not mad anymore, but it's going to actually take an effort for me to forgive you. Your simple three worded apology only showed you truly never cared, you would have tried harder. It hurts to see when you care about someone so much and they don't have the same care for you. Mad and upset with you, I still was there standing up for you and defending you. I don't have room in my life for people who don't care for me. Not you, and not Axel, assuming is lack of response by npw.

Sky: oh ok

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Sky: ill take notes, handwritten apology not good enough.

Sky: out of curiosity, have you spoken to axel yet?

Sky: bc you're not gonna, right? since surely you're still angry?

Jene: maybe a handwritten apology with some effort. "sorry about everything" you couldn't even put an I'm in front of it. Bare minimum. Put in some effort and maybe my answer will change.

Sky: pretty sure i said it in the card but if it wasn't inherently obvious, the answer i was looking for wasn't really a correction of grammar

Sky: an acceptance or rejection of some description would have been adequate

Sky: hence why i brought the topic up

Sky: or should i have put a period there?

Sky: [...]

Sky: well i tried

Sky: the lord can't fault me for that

Sky: [...]

Sky: anyyyy other thoughts on what i said

Sky: in the card

Sky: i mean thx is fine

Sky: thx is good

Sky: but.

Jene: I mean, you should have placed a comma after the word everything.