Lemon Drops

so we don’t have to love ourselves alone. 

sometimes you cant be strong enough 

to love yourself all the time

and you forget how to

and its okay.

sometimes

We need people to love us when we forget

We need people to help us to grow again

and im thinking of you

the way that you laugh

 the sound dancing through the air

spinning and twirling

tickling my ears.

the way that your eyes

twinkle in the sky

of my lost mind

 swirling in chaos

the stars in your eyes

you pulling me through.

the way that your lips

linger on mine

the warm scent of love

fresh on our tongues.

the way that you love

wholesome and true

easy to give all of me

Running away to you

The bit that was lost

The bit that was broken

The bit that was fallen and wandering in the dark

The bit that was scared

And the bit that was happy all of the bits that were scattered, in shambles

You gave them direction,

you gave them a purpose

You gathered my bits

All of them

And you put them together

And they were found and fixed and mended

And then you said

What’s this empty space here?

Where’s the missing bit?

It’s gone

I said

Someone had it

And used it

And broke it

And took it

It’s okay

You said

And you took your own bit

And said

Let’s share

And you helped me fill the space

And now we have a connection

Our bit

The bit that fills what used to be empty

Is yours

And mine

And You love my bits,

every last one

Something inside me always smiles when I see the moon

My heart recognizes the love that it holds,

the love that it’s seen,

and the love that it radiates

But also-

the suffering,

pain,

sorrow

that it has witnessed

And the quiet refuge that it brings with the night.

the healing that it allows with its soft,

Sometimes I wonder if anybody knows 
Do they know about me 
About what I’ve gone through 
Can they see


If I were transparent, they would. 
They would see all of the pieces that I was trying to hold together 
They’d see how he shattered everything in my life 
And then on one day they’d see that He finally shattered my heart 
And left. 
He left me alone to pick up the pieces. 
But I didn’t know how.
 I only knew how to break. 
It’s all I ever saw, it’s all I ever did. 
 How could I fix if I only knew how to break?
 I tried to get other people to fix me- but they were trying to fit my pieces into their mold- they didn’t know how my heart was supposed to be.
 When I tried to force it into what it used to be, I couldn’t- it was too deformed, too messy, too broken…
 But then I learned
 I learned how to make something beautiful 
 Everything should not be the same

because what was isn’t what is. 


Someone broke my heart,

i like this word

tinder

the app kind of ruined it

I will ignore that fact

and only think of why i liked this word

because this word 

is beautiful

it’s kind and sensitive

it’s the small bits and pieces 

that are lit

to start a fire

they are the start of something magnificent

and them 

in themselves

are like little sparks of magic

have you ever seen tinder burn?

they’re like little pieces of light

Have you ever wondered where dream people go?

the dream people who wander about in your mind

when you travel through a world

that only exists to you

the dream people who take you on adventures

the dream people who chase after you

the dream people who you fall in love with

the dream person who makes everything right

the dream person who makes you feel smiley

the dream person who makes you feel warm

the person who manages to graze parts of your soul 

just by gazing into your eyes

the person whose touch you ache for

when the sun comes up

the person that makes you wonder

where the dream people go

because

I have this moving feeling

like

when things are changing

and you’re trying to run to keep up with them

something is telling me to move

something is telling me to go

because things are going to start to change 

things are going to start to move